Ps: these are some thoughts that had crossed my mind several times, and maybe yours too.
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. Will I ever get what I'm looking for?
. They said keep trying and that's
what I'm doing for sure
. But why is it so hard?
. I mean I've been trying for so long!
. But all I got was failing, failing and failing
.
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. I just hope to see the result in the end
. 'cause I sacrificed a lot of things that for me are so big
. And god! once the day ends.
. All the truths start hitting
. Hitting like they never did.
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. I used to enjoy swimming on summer.
. But all it is doing to me now is making me suffer
. So I keep complaining to my mother
. Mom! things are only getting harder
. She says "when you try your best
whatever you'll get doesn't matter"
. "and it'll be good for you because it's the decision of our creator"
.
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.
.
. But mother what will I do with all that burning sensations
. In the middle of my chest right in my heart that fills me with different emotions
. Emotions that trethen to consume me
.but I wasn't taught to let that happen
.and I never want my emotions to be my own enemy.
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.
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. I'd like the smile on my face to remain and never leave me
. But unfortunately some people for it they envy me
. They think that I'm living the perfect life that I myself dream about!
. So just for they think, I do not experience life's toughness or what?
. And that's what I hate the most
. But I'm slowly starting to learn
. That being judged by people who aren't close to me isn't the worst
. And it even could be for my own best
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Well sorry for any mistakes since English isn't my first language and I'm still learning. What matters is the poem itself.
. Written by me with love
its_yasmiine