You're Gonna Go Far by Noah Kahan
Song to listen to while reading. Lyrics will be included in the fic
Grab your tissues this is going to be a sad one x
This is good land or at least it was It takes a strong hand and a sound mind
I stood on the porch watching Quinn pack his things into the car, Jack stood next to me holding me as I cried, "Y/n/n it's going to be okay I'll see you whenever I'm playing here and you come to visit me in Vancouver" Quinn whispered to me I hugged him tight until it was time to let go and watched as he walked to the car with mom
I ran inside to my room watching the car drive away leaving a sad gloomy atmosphere in my heart I cried as I saw the car reach the end of the street. As I walked downstairs I saw Quinns' room empty with a bed and a dresser still left behind
I felt arms wrap around me it was Jack and Luke hugging me tight, I was happy I had them but deep down I was scared.
I was scared of what was going to happing when they leave when they were going to leave their baby sister that night I cuddled into Jack and Luke crying,
This is good land or at least it was It takes a strong hand and a sound mind
It makes me smile to know when things get hard, ooh
You'll be far, ooh, you'll be far from here
and soon it came a time when history repeats itself and I was standing on the porch in Luke's arms watching Jack pack up his stuff, why'd they have to move away leaving me crying, Luke ran his fingers through my hair "Bye y/n/n" Jack hugged me tight as I cried again
off he went to New Jersey where he was going to forget about me as Quinn did, Quinn promised he was going to call and visit me and in the first month he did but those visits and calls became fewer and fewer.
I looked into jacks room only seeing a bed and some photos on the wall, Luke was there to pick up the pieces of my broken self
but I knew it wasn't long until he left
So pack up your car, put a hand on your heart Say whatever you feel, be wherever you are We ain't angry at you, love You're the greatest thing we've lost
I was right. soon it was Luke's time to leave he was off to college but it was only a matter of time until the NHL took another one of my brothers and forget about me like the others did
I cried hard that night alone with my thoughts, I lay in bed clutching my blanket tight
and like the others he barely visited. Summer was different they didn't bother hanging out with me they were too busy with their friends.
The birds'll still sing, your folks'll still fight The boards'll still creak, the leaves will still die We ain't angry at you, love We'll be waiting for you, love
It was just Mom, Dad and I left in the empty house, photos on the wall memories of when they were still here, when they still loved me
for months I waited for a text from anyone of them but when I didn't I gave up, Mom and Dad were there to pick up the pieces
You told me you would make a difference Well, I got drunk and shut you down
I changed, going to parties and getting drunk trying to get them out of my head, they didn't care about me, they left and forgot about me, too busy with their friends and hockey
So pack up your car, put a hand on your heart Say whatever you feel, be wherever you are We ain't angry at you, love You're the greatest thing we've lost
I was off to college, in another state, Boston University was where I was destined to go,
I watch my mom and dad cry as I packed up the car "I love you" I cried to my parents but I was ready to leave the nest "We love you too baby" They hugged me tight, "You're the greatest thing we've lost" I heard them whisper
I waved to them as I drove off ready to see where the world was going to take me
We ain't angry at you, love We'll be waiting for you, love
And we'll all be here forever
I was finally happy I told myself as I drove
You're gonna go far You're gonna go far You're gonna go far You're gonna go far Yes, you are
If you wanna go far Then you gotta go far