Kianna Nicole
After the previous conversation I had with Kai, and some long, hard, thinking. I came to a realization that she was right. I did love Keon more then I loved myself, and that wasn't okay.
I did need to focus on myself, my future, and my family. Of course I'd love for Keon to be with me apart of my journey.. but I just don't know it that's the best decision to make at this time.
I decided I'm going to talk to him.. and see how he feels about it. I don't know how he'll react, but I won't know until I find out.
I pulled up outside of his house seeing his car sitting in the driveway. As I was about to get out of the car, I just began to cry.
At this moment, the feeling of guilt came over me. How could I tell the boy who literally pulled me out of misery from my fucked up family, comforted me when nobody else did, understood my emotions better then anyone else.. and now I'm here to tell him that we need a 'break'.
I felt like a horrible person. I just couldn't believe I was actually here, to break up with Keon. I just couldn't see it.
The feeling of euphoria, joy, comfort, elation, and pleasure he gave me. I just don't know if I'd be stable enough to go the rest of my life— or rather however long without receiving that feeling from him.
I sat there crying for a good 10 minutes straight, until I sucked up my tears, and exited my car.
I unlocked the door and walked in seeing him taking a home run inn pizza out the oven.
"Wassup girl" he said looking at me with a small smile happy to see me. I tried my best to hide my sad expression so he wouldn't get to questioning me.
"Hey" I said softly returning the smile as I removed my shoes.
"I got a surprise for u" he said walking over to me examining my face.
"Why it look like u was cryin?" He asked tilting my chin up to get a better look at my face.
"It's cold outside." I lied knowing he'd be able to tell
"Mhm" he said in a 'I know u lying but ima leave it alone' time.
"Look" he said tilting his neck and revealing a small red tattoo that said 'Kianna'.
"Keonnn " I said with the tears filling my eyes again.
"U like it?" He asked eager to hear my response
"Yes, I love it" I said forcing a smile to try and stop the tears.
"What's wrong bruh" he asked
"Nothing.. I been feeling real emotional lately." I said rubbing my head
"Mhm. U hungry? U can have some of this pizza.. I guess." He said glaring at me making me chuckle.
"Don't say it like that.. like somebody be greedy wit food cause that definitely be you." I replied walking over to the kitchen
This shit look good.
"I'll just make my own cause ima end up eating the whole thing" I said opening the freezer looking for another one.
"Where the other ones?" I asked frowning
"It was only 4." He said
"Right.. I haven't had any yet." I said getting frustrated
"Aw, my fault.." he said looking at me scratching his head
"U ate ALL FOUR?? And we literally JUST BOUGHT THE SHIT??" I yelled at him angrily
"G stop yelling it ain't that— it is! You know I eat those too and didn't even CONSIDER leaving me none!" I continued yelling
"Kianna would u calm down, just EAT THAT ONE!" He yelled back making me stop and stare at him.
"Ian mean to yell at u- nah watch out bruh" I said walking out the kitchen
"So u get mad at me for yelling when u just— I'm not gonna do this bipolar shit wit you." He said
"Keon u should be the LAST person commenting on someone's bipolar behavior. You got that worse than me." I said sitting on the couch
"Shut up" he said throwing a roll of paper towels at me hitting me in the head
"Leave me the fuck- ALONE" I said taking off my shoe and throwing it at him and he dodged
it
"I kno u ain't try to throw no shoe at me bruh" he said laughing
"I'm so tired of u" I said getting up going to take the pizza. I was hungry and I really wanted some of that pizza.
"Aw now u want it." He mumbled mugging me
I ignored him walking away eating it. I found the tv remote and went to HBOMAX to watch pretty little liars.
He sat down beside me and got on his phone.
We sat there chilling for a while before we went upstairs to take a nap.
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"Yeah I had talked to Kai about it a few days ago. I've just been thinking, you know? But I believe I've came to a decision." I said to Kamora as she finished up some online shopping.
"Well. It was a.. NICE run with Mr bipolar Keon himself. But shiiid, Ian gon repeat all of what she said but u get what I'm tryna say. U gotta do what u gotta do" she shrugged.
"Yeah. Ion know, I'm just more so worried about actually telling— oou shit, ah" I said whining in pain as I held my stomach.
"What? Cramp?" She asked frowning her nose up at me.
"Nah.. this shit feel wor-" I was saying until I got up and ran to the bathroom to throw up.
It was disgusting.
"G is u good?? You been drinking or sum what's wrong wit you?" Kamora asked coming in a few seconds after me
As I coughed and flushed the toilet, I held my stomach still in pain.
I couldn't even talk. It felt.. strange.
"Helllloooo" she said waving her arms around in my face, which was only making me dizzy.
"Stop" I said lowly squinting
"My fault.. let me get u.. sum ginger ale." She said leaving out the bathroom and going downstairs.
Keon was out right now. Idk where, probably with Darell.
He need some new friends. It's nothing wrong wit Darell but damn that's yo nigga ah sum?
The pain then went away and I sat back down to process what just happened.
Kamora then brought the ginger ale up with some crackers to complete the snack.
"Have you been throwing up or was that just random .." she asked handing it to me sitting beside me.
"Random. I haven't really been feeling sick or anything so ion know why.. idk." I said drinking the ginger ale straight down.
"Interesting.." she said getting on her phone typing.
"You wanna watch a movie? I heard a cabin in the woods was pretty good." I said grabbing the remote
"Ain't it that scary shit?"
"Yesss" I said with a small smirk
"Movies like that really are discouraging for the people who would like to get an air bnb in the woods. I don't like that weird based off a true story shit." She ranged making me laugh
"Soooooo you wanna watch it or not?" I asked
"I guess Kianna." She said rolling her eyes closing her laptop. I went to hbo Max and began searching for the movie.
I found it, and we were about 15 minutes into the movie until I heard the doorbell ring.
"Who is that?" I asked looking at Kamora.
"Uh I don't live here how would I know" she said squinting at me in a duh tone like I was slow.
"Shut the hell up" I responded squinting at her as I went downstairs to check the door. I looked out the window and was surprised by who it was. Hm.
"Why hello my fellow cousin" I said raising my eyebrow opening the door for Kai. She had a plastic bag in her hand with some McDonald's.
"Hey cudddddddd" she said smiling walking in.
"It smells so good in here." She said smiling taking in the warm scent.
"Uhhhh thaaannkss" I said smiling.
"What u got in there?" I asked seeing the bag was pretty full.
"Nun just some McChickens n fries. I got you a spicy one" she said as I nodded my head.
Kamora came downstairs and we all grabbed our food.
We went back upstairs to finish the movie and it was just a good time overall. I enjoyed their company a lot, and I missed having it.
About an hour in a half later we finished the movie and were just having small talk.
"Sooo Kianna..." Kai said scratching her head as Kamora side eyed me. Something.. ODD is going on.
"What..." I said frowning at them hesitantly
"I have something for you to .. do" she said going in her plastic bag pulling out a pregnancy test.
"Aw hell na Kai is u serious" I said frowning shaking my head
"Yess, I told her to because the random throwing up and- so because I throw up one time and felt a lil nauseous YALL think I'm pregnant? I know my own body and I know that there is NOT fetus inside this thang" I said slapping my stomach
"Ok so prove it. Just take it to see" Kai said smiling like she wanted me to be pregnant.
"Bruh.." I said
"Come onnn" Kamora said nudging me
After a few minutes, I gave up and just went to take the test. I couldn't see myself being pregnant this young. Nor should I be. I'm just not getting my life together and I'll be damned if a BABY gets in the way of my shit.
I went in the bathroom and peed on it.. and then waited a few minutes. I let Kai and Kamora in and faced the test down so we'd all see it at the same time.
"Eeee I'm so nervous" Kai said jumping up and down smiling while I washed my hands.
"Finna be TT MORAAAAAAA" Kamora said bending over twerking in the mirror.
"Y'all is too excited. I'm telling y'all I'm not pregnant!" I said getting irritated.
"Shouldn't it be ready? It's been a few minutes." Kai said
"Ok.." I said slowly picking up the test as they stood right beside me on each side squeezing one arm.
I read the test, and it read...
Pregnant.
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I hate to do it to y'all but I'm ending this book off here. Please don't harass me and shit, there WILL be another book. I'm going to start working on it immediately after I publish this.
I also want to say thank you for all of the support and love I've received on this book. I really did not expect my book to succeed this well, especially with me not having much experience as a writer. I love all y'all, seriously. I wouldn't have finished this without the support, love, and encouragement I received every-time I published a chapter. Thank you all again ❤️🥹🥹🥹.
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