Alice
I wasn't ready to leave this all behind. I tried to work harder than before to get him out of my mind. But how can you forget about someone you once loved?
I was so in love with him. He was my twin flame, maybe not my soulmate but definitely the person I wanted to spend my life with. I loved him so much. He and I were screaming colors, when we were together all of the people around us could see that. The sky was colorful and our love could warm the coldest days, our love could grow flowers. I didn't know how much he meant to me until I lost him.
We never told anyone about us, only our closest friends knew. Our families still don't know, my family still can't understand the heartbreak. We were so careful about not being seen together. Hell, we didn't even follow each other on social media. We were living in a world that it was just us and nobody else existed.
We weren't even in a relationship. We said that we were exclusive but we never gave a title to what was going on between us. I tried to make him speak, to tell me what he thought but everytime he shut me out. He said that he didn't want to talk, that I was being too pushy and that I had to let my mind calm a little if I wanted this to work. We were like that all of 2021. But, we broke up before the year ended. No, I should put it better, we stopped seeing each other. I had movies to film and he had music to write. We were busy. We were talking on the phone once every other day and that was it, nothing else. I was the only one calling and when he answered he was never happy, something always bothered him. One day nobody made a move, neither of us called or texted and that happened to the following day as well, and then to the following. I had to accept that I wouldn't hear his voice ever again. I had to accept that I wouldn't feel his hands around me when I sleep at night. I had to accept that I would forget the shape of his lips.
I wish that I wouldn't hear his name again. But this year made him a legend, something he always dreamt of becoming. He was one of the firsts to go back on the road and that helped his career the most. It's May now and he is about to release his new album. Harry's house. I remember that sometime last year we took a trip to Japan together. He listened to an album with a similar name and said that he wanted to name his album like that as well. My answer was Joni Mitchell's song. He found it a splendid idea. He never showed me any of the songs he had written, he said that he was going to use some of his last album. I know some songs are going to be about me, he told me that. It's the only thing that I know.
My most recent film is about to come out. It will quickly become a blockbuster and I know why, because it has an amazing casting and because it is about Elvis Presley. I'm playing his wife Priscila and I'm beyond excited to see my castmates again.
That was the casting I met Harry for the first time. He was auditioning for the role of Elvis, and we were being casted together. We had great chemistry but he didn't end up taking the role. Austin was by far better and he was accurate about his moves at his auditions. A few months later, Harry and I met again at My policeman set. I am playing Julia, Marion's friend. My role is minor but I wanted to be part of this production because I loved the book when I read it a couple of years ago. It was the first time Harry and I became acquainted and then the rest is history. We immediately hit it off, we started going on daily walks alone, we had drinks more often than we thought we did and one night he kissed me.
I was on set for only a couple of scenes, since my character wasn't at many scenes but Harry and I always found time for each other despite his busy days. We met in London and more often than not in his house. We spent so much time together and by the middle of 2021, I thought we were official despite not having a title. We never said I love you, we never said that we were in love. We took trips, we were cuddling in different cities but we were never seen together. We were a well kept secret because we thought that the less people know, the more we are going to last. We were wrong.
We were lost in a daydream that was far too good to be true.We were in a world just alone, as he sings. I have only listened to As It Was. This song is everywhere. I can hear the little details about our relationships and I can see the depression our break up caused him. Can I even call it a break up?
Today I'm in New York City and I have to get ready for my interview with James Corden tonight. It's May 19th and the promotion about the Elvis movie has already started. My manager, Cara, has me booked for all of this month and the next. This is my first interview for this movie and the only thing that calms me down a little is that Austin is going to be there as well.
"Alice," I hear Cara's voice behind me. I am, currently, sitting in my dressing room and my hairdresser is doing my hair for tonight's interview. "I have to tell you something. But first, promise me that you aren't going to kill me."
"What happened, Cara? I bet it isn't that bad." I tell her, making Morgan giggle a little as she straightens my hair.
"Harry is going to be here tonight."
"What? Who?" I ask like I didn't even know the answer.
"Styles, that Harry. He is going to be the one interviewing you and Austin. He is the surprise host. It's a way to promote his album because it comes out at midnight today. I'm so sorry. I didn't know. Nobody told me." She starts explaining herself, even though I don't believe that she is doing that on purpose. I think that she hates Harry more than I do.
"Don't worry, Cara. I'm fine. I am an actress for a reason. I will put the best performance out there. I expect him to do the same."
"I'll talk to Jeff, do you want to talk to Austin before you two go out there?" She asks me and I nod. "Okay, get dressed and I'll tell him to come by."
Before she can leave to go find Jeff, someone knocks at the door. Cara opens it and we look at the assistant who carries a bouquet of flowers. "This is for Miss Knightley." She says and gives the flowers to Cara. She smiles politely and then she leaves us alone. Cara looks at me suspiciously and gives me the bouquet. There is a card. I open and I read out loud. "I'm sorry for putting you on it -James."
James is one of the few people that know about Harry and I. He learned it completely by accident because it slipped out of Harry's mouth when they had a few drinks at his home. He wanted to meet, so he did. We met exactly a month before Harry and I grew cold with each other. He still sometimes checks up on me and I find it endearing.
"At least someone thought about it. I'm off to find Jeff, this man is an idiot, I swear."
Jeff and Cara have known each other for a lot of years. She even went to his wedding. I don't know how this friendship started but it was very helpful to work with each other when Harry and I had an idea about a trip. They always found the perfect plans to help us go unnoticed.
My stylist, Luna, helps me to get dressed at the dress she picked out for tonight. It is a simple white dress, nothing special but rather elegant. She said that she chose it with Austin's stylist so we can match somehow. I don't know what these two women have in mind.
"You look amazing, sweetheart." I hear Austin's voice when I go back into the room from the bathroom. Cara is sitting beside him.
"Thank you, Austin. You look amazing as well. I have to tell you something though."
Austin and I became good friends while filming. We had an amazing time together and we still see each other these days. I can call him a close friend of mine, I think.
"You can tell me anything, you know that."
I sigh, taking a big breath so I can continue. "There might be some awkward tension between Harry and I tonight. I want you to stand close to me and never leave him alone when he is near me. I can't stand him tonight, or any nights." I tell him.
"Don't worry, I'll have it all under control. So, we have to act in front of the music icon himself, huh?" I nod. "Let's put on a hell of a performance then." He tells me and he gives me his hand. The show is about to start.
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HELLO, Welcome to my new fanfiction. Have in mind that English isn't my first language, please, so don't be harsh. It is based on Right Where You Left me by Taylor and it is an exes to lovers kinda story.
The updates will be slow until I'm done with Pleasing
Goodbye for now <3