Author's perspective -
Stopping the car outside of the house , Jungkook gets out of the car and heads towards her side to open a car gate. But before he could do that yn opened the gate and got out of the car .
She held her dress and was about to walk. Jungkook smiled and said " Mind if I help you with your heavy dress " Yn looked at him as she nodded her head because the dress was indeed heavy .
Jungkook didn't waste any time as he carried her in a bridal style and walked towards the main door . Yn's eyes widened after realising what just happened , but she didn't react because she's tired of this dress , she is tired of this life of hers .
He opened their shared bedroom as he placed her on the bed. Jungkook gave her a smile as she nodded and said " Thank-you" ever so slowly .
" Your welcome yn "
yn glanced at him as their eyes locked for a split second before yn looked away . Jungkook's cheeks turned pink as he said " yn , you go here Change I'll change in the guestroom's washroom " nodding your head .
She went towards her luggage which had already arrived in their room by his servants .
He took his clothes from the closest as he walked out of the room . She looks around the bedroom as she softly smiles saying " at least here I won't be hearing my parents talking sh!t about me "
saying with a sad face , she admires the interior . The room looks so modern it has a balcony attached to the room and that's a great thing .
-Yn's Perspective -
I smiled softly as I opened the door of the bathroom and stepped inside it . After taking a shower I wear my nightdress which obviously my mom packed for me . And the night dress is kinda short and sexy as apart from this I don't have any night dress yet .
I have to wear this one for now . I wonder what she thinks before buying it ? That I will have sex with him on the first night of our marriage? Oh how silly they are to even think of this and after what they did to me .
Yn's night dress
Looking at myself in the mirror , I breathed for the nth time tonight . I don't know what to feel about myself now . I feel sexy but I could care less.
I'm more nervous. It's my first time even wearing this type of clothes .
At home I never wore it , I'm that type of girl who always tried to hide herself in her clothes but seeing herself in the mirror . I'm literally feeling naked right now.
My chubby tummy is kind of visible from this , I'm not feeling secure right now . I need to change , I can't do this .
I need to ask Jungkook to give me his clothes because I'm not comfortable .
But the main challenge is that I need to step out of this bathroom and confront him. Okay I can do it, yes !
I breathe again holding the door knob as I open, revealing Jungkook sitting in the bed doing something on his phone . The sound of clicking the door knob went in his ear as he turned around his head to look at me .
His gaze fixed on me , my body . Oh god ! Please he'll be disgusted by now. He's making me feel uncomfortable .
I'm feeling naked in front of him even though I'm wearing this piece of sh!t. God save me .
Without thinking anything further I said" Jungkook , c-can you give me your clothes to wear ? I'm not feeling c-comfortable . "
Yn why do you shutter ?
Holy fuck !
He walked towards me , as his steps came closer my heart started to beat 10 × more than normal ones . He locked eyes with me , his eyes never left mine.
He stood in front of me as he said " I'm sorry for making you uncomfortable , I'll get you something " .
I nodded as he went towards his closet and gave me his oversized white t-shirt and gray trousers . I don't like to wear white , there's a reason behind wearing black ones.
" Do you have black t-shirt ?" He nodded, handing me his black t- shirt and gray trousers . I thanked him before going inside the bathroom .
I signed , as I changed myself into his clothes. The main reason to wear black t-shirt is , I don't wear a bra when I sleep . It's my habit and wearing white t-shirt without a bra will make it even worse if you get what I mean.
And it also makes my blossoms look bigger in white without a bra than black . There's also a problem. I didn't usually wear a bra at night but now he's here I need to wear it and this is so uncomfortable .
I decided not to wear it, so my mission is to go under the duvet without him noticing me . And the minus point is my hair isn't that long .
It's Little bit longer than my shoulder length, fuck .
Again , I can do it ..... But wearing nothing underneath the t-shirt freaks me out .
I might cry now.....
Okay don't give up just go .
I opened the door as I saw him already looking at me , I am speechless . I awkwardly smiled as I rushed towards the duvet .
And my act made him let out a chuckle . Ohmygod !
It's so embarrassing .
I facepalm myself as he said
" you are cute " pardon ? I looked at him with my embarrassed face as he said . " yes you are really cute " he giggled , I smiled awkwardly as I nodded my head .
Okay now what ? We both looked at each other , pin drop silence .
I don't want to do anything , I have to say " I'm not ready yet about doing anything tonight "
My voice sounds like chilled ice that has been in the refrigerator for the past week . Alright yn ! Bold move.....
He looked at me in the eyes as he said " I am not forcing you to do anything yn it's not always necessary to start a relationship with that thing , can we start our relationship by knowing about each other first ?"
He said as I nodded my head . I'm glad that he knows how to respect others' decisions .
He nodded as well , before saying " You should sleep now , it must be tiring for you right ?" .
I nodded as I said " you too " he grinned at me as he softly said
" Good-night " " Thank-you and you too" I lay down on the mattress as I closed my eyes , tried to sleep but sleep wasn't in my eyes .
Only those moments revolve in my head .
How they announced my marriage , how they stopped me from studying further , how dad insulted me .
Everything . Hurts .
I closed my eyes as tears started to flow down , but I didn't care to wipe them off . I'm broken , I trusted my parents the most but what did they do in the end ?
Broke me. Am I not enough ? I shouldn't have been born . They're ashamed of me .
I can never make them proud of me now . I can never give them the life they deserve . I'm such a bad daughter who doesn't even deserve to be called a daughter .
They deserve way more good daughters than me. I wish I was never born in the first place.
" Yn " I didn't realise I was sobbing until Jungkook called out my name . That's not the right time . He doesn't need to know. He can't do anything . He can't help my situation ...
" Why are you crying , are you missing your parents ?" This sentence makes me nod my head , because there's no way I will tell him that .
Look jungkook, my parents stopped my studies because I didn't fulfil their expectations and they think I'm a useless piece of shit and married me off with you .
" Please don't cry, we will go tomorrow to meet them alright ?"
I. don't.wanna. meet.them.
" No it's just I'll be alright don't worry" I tried to stop him from taking me to my parents house. I just can't go , if I go I'll probably get into a heated argument with them or I'll cry right in front of jungkook.
" I'll tell you whenever I want to meet them " " Alright " he said as I fake smiled , for the nth time . He smiled back at me and we went to sleep .
I wasn't able to sleep , my eyes were never closed . I looked at the clock and it was 4 in the morning.
I looked beside me only to find Jungkook sleeping like a baby . I went inside the bathroom.
I opened the drawer as I found a scissor , I smiled weakly as I looked at myself in the mirror .
I should die . People like me don't deserve to live .... I should die . I caress the scissors as I lift up my jungkook's t-shirt , making my biceps visible to my eyes .
I held up the scissors and stretched out the scissors and made a cut . It was not so deep cut but it surely bled .
I smiled after seeing my blood zoning out of my biceps . It feels good. I don't feel any pain , I feel like I'm numb . It doesn't hurt . It makes me relaxed .
I let it bleed for 5 minutes , the red thick blood. and then I put something on it to stop it . And after a few minutes , it finally stopped. I vanished all evidence and went to pee , and then went to sleep .
And now I can sleep peacefully , I don't know why but I really felt good after cutting myself . And without realising I fell asleep .
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I personally like this one alot !
To be continued
Written by Ashscrievers ✨