"I DON'T WANT TO BELIEVE IT."
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Her phone rang and rang over and over again.
Bomi's tired eyes slowly opened them, she soon realized that she was sleeping on her cold floor once her vision became clearer. Her hand reached out to her phone, seeing the cracked screen before tapping on it to see who called.
"Who is this?"
"Is this Bae Bomi from Lust? We're from an entertainment label and we were hoping if you and your members could come in tomorrow. We loved your show yesterday by the way."
Bomi quickly sat up at the information she was told. "What?" she mumbled, in disbelief as what she was hearing. "What label exactly?" she asked, noticing how they didn't say it in their introduction. "SM Entertainment, you can give us another call later if you want to discuss it with your members. We have your number saved!"
"We also want to discuss your relationship with Jung Seojoon—"
Bomi hung up the call immediately. She should've figured what their intentions was the second they said who they were. "Stupid bastards.." she mumbled, pushing herself up from the floor as she her eyes met the mess she made. Bomi didn't remember anything after she came home, she must've thought she blacked out at some point. Too angry to recall her thoughts.
She dragged herself out of her room, noticing that Jiae's door was closed as she made her way towards her bedroom. "Hideko, are you there?" Bomi said, knocking on the door before opening it. She glanced over to the younger girl who was sleeping on her bed, covered in the blanket she had since she was five.
Bomi closed the door, walking back to her room while the sound of her feet hitting the wooden floors filled her ears. She brought herself back to her room when she picked up her phone and stepped over the shattered items just below her feet.
She had seen that Reina had texted her, yet she couldn't bring herself to reply. Her worn out body plopped on to her own bed, breathing deeply as she closed her eyes, hoping to go back to sleep, only to be interrupted by her phone ringing.
"Bomi? This is Sungchan, Seojoon's brother— if you remember me."
"Sungchan? Why are you calling? Is something wrong? Did something happen?"
"No nothing happened, i'm just checking up on you..I'm also sorry..I'm sorry for blaming you for Seojoon's death. I'm sorry, I know it's a late sorry, but I am sorry..! I shouldn't have done that and I know Seojoon would scold me if he knew that. I felt so guilty and I was just looking for an excuse to blame someone.." she heard the boy start to sniffle in the background.
"Sungchan, you're fine. I understand, we were all grieving. It's find, it's okay." she said, resting her head on her knees. "My mom wants to see you again— you and your friends. She said she misses you guys and she invited you guys for dinner, just call her and she'll get everything ready."
"I miss her too..and don't worry I will. I hope you're doing good for yourself, Sungchan."
"I'm trying, it hurts, but i'm trying..That's all I wanted to say Bomi. Live well, bye.." the boy ended the call quickly, leaving her in her silent room. She didn't know what else to do, she's tried her best, yet she felt as if she kept failing.
♡
NABI
idk who else to tell
this to right now
NABI
im scared
NABI
i cant do this alone
NABI
i broke it off with haechan
and i've semi told him but
i dont know what to do
NABI
im really really scared
NABI
im still young, am i going
go get shamed? i'm only
22 but im turning 23 next
month so does that make a
difference?????
NABI
i cant figure out anything
NABI
i feel so stressed and the
doctor said i shouldnt be
so stressed rn but j csnt
helpsnit
BOMI
wait wait wait nabi what
happened
BOMI
where are you? are you
home?
NABI
im still at the doctors
NABI
im pregnant
NABI
they said im only a month
in which kinda explains why
i thought i was bloated all the
time. i thought i just had a
stomach virus because i kept
throwing up
NABI
bomi i dont know what to do
NABI
i always wanted to be a mother
but is now the right time? im
scared, im really scared
BOMI
the decision is yours nabi, okay?
it's all yours. dont think about
no one else but yourself
NABI
thats a hard thing to ask
me, i'm always thinking
about everyone else
BOMI
are you close with your parents?
NABI
not even
NABI
they're why im scared, they'll shame
me for being a whore when i've only
slept with one guy
BOMI
girl fuck them
BOMI
parents should be welcoming
and accepting no matter what,
especially to their pregnant
daughter.
BOMI
if you decide to keep it, then
we'll be there for you. if you
don't, then we'll be there for
you
NABI
we..?
BOMI
me, tora, jiae, reina and reiki
BOMI
i know you havent told them
yet but we'll be there for you,
they like you
BOMI
if later on during the pregnancy
you dont feel comfortable living
by yourself, then you can maybe
stay with reina. she has an extra
bedroom
BOMI
i just don't want you to
feel alone
BOMI
thats all
NABI
you are making me cry
NABI
okay
BOMI
okay....???!!!!!?
NABI
after talking with you im
actually excited
NABI
im only a month in so plus
8 will be in august so the baby
might be a leo or virgo
NABI
hopefully not a virgo.
BOMI
omggg bye
NABI
IM SERIOUS
NABI
if anything i would prefer
to have a leo!!
NABI
i hope the baby comes out
as fun as jaemin !!
BOMI
hes cool
NABI
😉
BOMI
what
BOMI
whyd you wink
NABI
notttthingggg 😉😉
NABI
i saw you two leave together
NABI
SINCE WHEN WAS THIS
GOING ON????
BOMI
just for a week
BOMI
he said he wants to get to know me
better, we talked all night on the
phone then after our show i left with
him to my place then i went over to
his, we ate, it was fun
NABI
im happy for you bomi
NABI
i really hope i find someone
BOMI
😉
NABI
oh no im scared
BOMI
not saying you should do this
but its worth a shot
BOMI
jeno
NABI
jeno's so sweet ☹️
NABI
mark is the solo type guy and
renjun has a huge crush on
my friend
NABI
jaemin has you, chenle has jiae,
jisung has tora and ******* is a
dickhead who is apparently my
baby's father. what a world.
NABI
OKAY BACK TO THE PITJNR
NABI
jeno is nice, maybe not now in
a relationship but maybe later
BOMI
jeno has always been nice since
high school, we didnt talk much
but he always offered to switch
chairs since mine was always
broken
BOMI
if anything, he'll be nicer to you
NABI
i hope so 😞
NABI
i'll see you later at your show
bomi!!! byeeeee
BOMI
byyeeee nabi
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