I woke up in the coldness of the wooden floor, realizing it was all just a dream... How would jeonghan be mine again after what happened... I sniffed and then stood up and saw it was snowing outside the window
I remember when me and jeonghan were still in contact before, we would always go to outside to play with snow and having a snowball fight although we're already at college students that time, I stopped zoning out when I heard a call from me from the door
"Joshua dear, come down and get your breakfast and it's christmas" oh wow i didn't knew it was christmas, then that means my birthday is close.
"I'm coming" then the voice disappeared and I went to my corner place and pulled out a cream colored sweater and a red and black plaid patterns pajama that I bought when i'm still living at my parents house, then went to go to the dining room and as soon as I got there, a man that I am not familiar with is sitting on the chair
I thought if that's jeonghan's dad or not, so I proceed to walk down the stares while I'm slightly shaking from nervous and I sat down at the vacant seat next with jeonghan
"Joshua dear, meet jeonghan's dad" I looked at his dad and he was giving me a cold glare and I looked down, both hands are sweating
"so it's a man hm?" he hummed
"i-..."
"Darling, yes it's a he"
"I'm not agreeing to this stupid marriage if that gay is going to marry my straight son" I remained looked down then felt my ears are gathering, he kept saying a lot of bad comments about me and I tried to ignore but I can't it hurts so much... Why everyone gotta hate me? All I want is to live a peaceful life but why... A drop of tear came down to my cheeks and I stood up making everyone looked at me
"i- i am going i'm sorry if you're uncomfortable seeing me mr and mrs. Hong and to you too, je- si-sir jeonghan. I bowed and went to go back at the room crying at the floor, hugging my knees went to get my bunny plushy that jeonghan gave me before. Now I hugged it with me until I stopped crying
I pondered how me and jeonghan are still together til today, he could've protect me from his father... We could've go to the mall and buy some gifts for ourselves that we will treasure it and we could've been hugging with each other at the bed right now, flirting at each other, I guess the opposite happened. Now, that he was gone. Completely removed me to his life like I was never existed after years of our dating
I stopped pondering and decide to just read some fanfictions I have with me
It is about a girl and boy, who the girl left his boyfriend and now was regretting it and the month they last saw each other and care for each other was the month of December
I cried with the story because, I can relate how sad it is, that she realized she still loves him but now it was too late, now that he was gone
I closed my book as I heard the door opened guessing it was jeonghan and it was
"here eat it you haven't eating since yesterday" jeonghan said then walked away and laid himself at the soft and warm bed, pulling out his iphone from his pocket then start scrolling some things
I remembered when he promised me, he will gift me phone for my 20th birthday, because, he found out that I don't have any phones or games to do when I'm bored, and he notice I was quiet whenever he's on his phone so, he decide to bought me a cellphone but my dad broke it when he founds out I got a cellphone and it wasn't been a day since he bought me, got destroyed by my dad. I didn't told him the reason I just had to remain silent and whenever he was asking me where's my phone was I always says I left it or i'm hding it, but the fact is it is already destroyed
I stopped thinking about the past and focused on present
"where's your cellphone that I brought to you before?" hr asked making me startled
"wh-hat?"
"you keep looking at me, you should use your phone if you're bored" he said while his eyes are fovusing at the screen of his phone
'should I say the truth?"
"i-.."
"i-..."
"what?"
"My dad broke it since the day you brought me the phone..." I saw his surprised faced when he looked at me
"What-"
"sigh... Poor you" I looked down and nodded
"I used it once before he broke it, but I was still learning how to use it that time" I hugged my knees and pouting, he was still looking at me but I don't know why he was holding back something..."
"I- i'm just gonna go" he said as he stood up and then goes to the closet and wore an black turtle neck shirt tucked in with black jeans, and a black leather shoes. I can't help but blush at his outfit, so I to hide my face on my knees so he won't see it
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nce I heard the door closes, I got up and just start reading at my books again while eating the ramen jeonghan gave me
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After a few minutes, I decide to go downstairs finding, jeonghan's parents are arguing about something, then later on, jeonghan's father lost it and walked out at the scene and went to their room
I slowly walking down the stairs, and head to the kitchen to place the bowl and the glass at the sink
"Dear, I'm sorry for my husband's action earlier, don't worry that should calm him down for a days and if ever discriminate you again or if ever I found do, I'll beat his ass up again" I chuckled and nodded
"By the way, I saw jeonghan go out earlier, do you know where he was going?" I shooked my head as a response
"Hmmm" she hummed
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While I was reading on my book, jeonghan is finally home, he brought a shopping bag of something with him and gave it to me
"here take it" he said warmly, it is my first time hearing his warm voice again, so that surprised me
"E-eh..." I opened the bag and I widen my eyes on what he brought
I pulled out a small rectangular box and admired at the cover
"Are you just gonna stare at it or?"
"i-i'll open it" I replied and I can feel he's watch me unboxing it
Once I upon the box, a phone is showing immediately
"W-wow..." I pulled out the phone out of the box and admired the design
"I know it's beautiful now come here, I'll help you how to use it and not trying to mess it up again" I nodded hesitatingly and sat down at the fluffy bed but of course I have to keep my distance to him so I sat at the very edge of the bed
"Are you coming closer or not?"
"Ah y-yes" I said shyly and comes closer to him but remained a short distance, but instead he comes closer that our arms are touching already that I didn't know I was blushing already
When we we're done, he comes closer to me, pinning me on the bed then whispered something
"I've been watching you every action you do, and what can I say... you're too cute that makes me want to make you mine again" he whispered making me blush
"But for now, play for this movie and if we reach after 3 months, let's see where our fates will take us" I gulped
"either we keep it like this or"
"we will love each other like before, and if I love you again, I'll make sure it will be different from what happened before" I blushed and nodded and after that he gave me a peck on the lips which made me widen my eyes
TBC
hi finally! I was thinking if I put this on hiatus or not but maybe not for now
April 23