I chose yesterday to confront this problem.
I contacted the lawyer who said he would speak to me, today, after he's had time to read my NDA from top to bottom.
This morning he stopped by and we had a straightforward conversation to explain what my options are in relation to the NDA.
What I can and cannot say and to whom... it even goes so far as to state that I shouldn't even have shown it to my lawyer after signing.
He calmed me when I started to get worried about my secret admirer finding out about me showing him. Thankfully, confidentiality is an important term for a lawyer.
I had again, invited my sister, Anne to tea today, too.
Going through our tea ritual before any real conversation started. Once seated comfortably with her cup and saucer, Anne met my gaze and intuitively seemed to know.
"You want a favour." Anne stated.
"Yes Anne, I do." I answered.
"Well, come on then, spit it out!" Anne's patience with me already waning.
"I need you to move in with me to help keep Mum and Dad at an arms length until my baby is born. Is there anyway you can help with this?" I asked her clearly but shakily.
Anne looked at me and scanned my body from head to toe, her gaze flicked around the living room and whatever else was within her gaze, before bringing her gaze back to me.
"Yes, Adelle, I can and will do that for you and my niece or nephew. When will you need me living here by and what do you need me to bring?" Anne questioned after supplying me with my required answer.
"Within two weeks and no, other than you're own clothing, everything will be supplied." I clarified.
Anne nodded her head in agreement, took her cup and saucer to the kitchen to clean it and left it air dry on a cloth.
She came to me, gave me a brief hug and said, "Yes, Addy I will help but for now I'm heading home." With that, Anne left and gently closed the front door behind her.
I immediately feel better because I know Anne will be here moving forward.
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Today was an evening for Harold to visit. He bought with him seven new outfits for the baby, some clothing to make breastfeeding my baby easier for me and a pile of new toys.
He had dinner pre-made for us and bought them along for me to eat. He gave me a foot massage and sat with me holding my hand and offering compliments about my pregnant body.
Harry kissed me and professed his undying love for me while my brain is coming to terms with the words from my secret admirers communication.
Exterminated.
My hands started to tremble slightly but thankfully Harry didn't notice.
He tells about an amazing holiday to Melbourne that's coming up. He's so excited because he gets to take his children to the beach. And this year, wants all his children there.
My heart immediately started to pound at the idea of Zara being anywhere near my baby. Yes, legalities are in place preventing her taking my babe from me physically. But that doesn't mean harm won't come to them.
Harry begs and pleads for me to go with bub once they're born and I give the situation careful consideration. He offered to put us in a hotel merely a block from the one he would share with the rest of his family.
He offered to pay for me to hire a Nanny from the time of birth for as long as I would want or need one.
To be honest, I think it was the offer of a Nanny that pushed me into saying yes.
I don't want Harry sad or prevent him from spending time with his baby. I would never want to deprive him of that.
So, I said yes.
I know I will regret this holiday, more so than any other situation I have ever been a part of.
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I've spent the past few days interviewing nannies that may be able to handle a situation this delicate and manage to stay discreet.
Harry told me he's willing to pay whatever salary is needed in order to ensure our travel with his family to the seaside.
Out of the interviews I've carried out thus far, there has only been one decent Nanny for genuine consideration. In her mid-forties she had a no-nonsense attitude, yet came across as kind, and caring and has a maternal logic to caring for children.
I wanted to speak to Harry before I committed to the Nanny, given he is picking up the bill.
I asked for her address and said I would send communication to her if the position is to be hers.
I decided to get in touch with Harry, via his receptionist to let him know I need to see him. Agreeing to assist, she confirmed Harry would be at my home by six pm.
Again, upon arriving, Harry had dinner for us both, toys and clothing for my baby and a beautiful mink coat in a blush rose color. Just gorgeous!
He made me stand and try it on and in the shoulders and length it is a perfect fit. It just won't button up at the front because of my protruding stomach. Caressing my baby belly, Harry kept telling me that I am only getting prettier through my pregnancy.
I don't know if I believe him, but I'm almost done with my eighth month of pregnancy and can almost predict how difficult carrying this baby belly is going to become!
Whilst with me, I made sure to check with Harry regarding the Nanny I interviewed.
He said I could hire whomever I wish and he will ensure the wages are paid.
I immediately asked Harry to fetch a postman so I could write to the Nanny and let her know the job was hers.
And I wanted her to know as soon as possible.