-Yn's Perspective -
Walking towards the aisle with my hands around my dad's arm . The smile had already faded when my parents announced about my marriage .
The worst day of my life .
I don't wanna get married but I'm useless . Useless enough to stay at my parents house , laying in bed , not knowing how to cook , just studying and that too.
I wasn't able to get the score which they expected .
I wanted to study more , educate myself more , wanted to help my parents , wanted to become rich and give my parents what they deserve .
But all my dreams crashed down when they called me useless not in a Direct way but indirectly , and that was enough for me.
I do not have any idea what's happening because I was already in a mess , gaining weight rapidly .
Pimples popping up and clearly making my face pimply . My dad had already told me to do something about it but what can I do?
I know the reason for my pimples and
my weight gain and that is Depression . It's not like I haven't tried to lose the weight I did , but nothing worked out for me .
I drank each and every type of fat cutter drink , went on a heavy diet but nothing worked out for me.
I don't know how to cook other than instant noodles and some tea and coffee . How am I supposed to make things work out for me?
One day , I woke up late and my mom said that dad was getting so angry .
And saying that she didn't wake up early and do everything she was supposed to do and all.
But that day wasn't just one thing . After that day I heard my dad talking to his friend about me . He says that " She is always on her laptop studying , studying can take a few hours but she is always on her laptop "
" she didn't wake up early "
" she didn't score the marks which we craved for, then what's the reason to study the whole day ?" He says things like that .
I mean I'm trying every single day to be a better daughter but hearing parents talking sh!t behind- Oh not my behind but yeah from in front , hurts bro.
Basically dad's friend is like our family member but still he shouldn't have said those words to him .
He says things about me which I never would but did it anyways. We sometimes need to forgive our parents too . In my case it hurts whenever I think about it.
And they aren't aware that I'm going through depression , my mind 24/7 is scared of everything .
What if this thing didn't happen, what if I fail my exam and never become something , what if I didn't give my parents the life they deserve .
That's my thoughts always , it's always been like this and ever since I've gotten into depression .
No one is there to help , not even a single friend . And parents ,I know what their answers would be .
They would shrug it off by saying don't worry nothing is gonna happen or don't think too much , so I never bothered to tell them . They didn't know how hard it was for me to survive .
Suicidal thought always in my mind but I didn't do anything just because I want to give my parents the life they deserve .I overeat , I oversleep , I do everything over . My life was messed up .
And then one fine day , they blast an atom bomb in my life which I will never forget . They called me when I was studying and said " yn we want you to get married and settle down , because studying is not for you "
they said it is so easy but only if they have seen my broken heart and my situation . Tears won't stop flowing down as my mother said
" and please don't cry because I also got married at your age so , you should too at least you will become more aware of your habits and responsibilities' '
I don't have anything left to say , they didn't want me to stay there .
I know they want me to be aware of my habits and responsibilities but that doesn't suit them .
They knew that I hate getting married at this young age , they knew that I wanted to study more yet they're saying this ? Wonder where those days went when they used to say.
" We want you to become a successful person and we will always support you'' ''yes yn dad and I will do anything for you and do not worry about marriage once you feel like you can okay just be happy "
They're not my parents !
I knew ...They broke me .
Shrugged off my thoughts when I stood in front of my husband .
I didn't even look at him , I didn't want to . Everything has broken me and now he will too . No one is trustworthy, not even your closest....
This was supposed to be the happiest day of my life, wasn't it ? But guess what, life doesn't go how we want it to .....
The priest started doing their job as jungkook said
"I Jeon jungkook take you Kang yn to be my wife to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and cherish always."
Jungkook said as I looked at him with my soft eyes .
He smiles but I don't smile back. And then i said
"I Kang yn take you Jeon jungkook to be my husband to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better or worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and cherish always"
I said as the priest said
" do you Kang yn take Jeon jungkook as your lawful husband?"
I looked at him and said " I do " and then the priest said" Do Jeon Jungkook take Kang yn as your lawful wife ?"
" I do " he said as he showed his bunny smile , As the priest again said " I announce to you as husband and wife you may kiss the bride now "
that being said jungkook came closer to me and asked " can I ? " I looked at him as he said
" I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable my yn " And with that being said he kissed my forehead .
As I hear everyone's clapping...
is this a good decision ?
Or am I falling into some trouble?
Looking forward as I saw my parents coming towards me with a wide smile on their face !
Well oh how bad I wanted to run away from here , from this marriage , from everyone .
But if I do I will ruin my parents reputation which I don't want to .
But on the other hand , I want to because how could they do this to me ?
Did they even think about me for once before taking this damn decision? No but as a daughter I can't do it .
I can't be that selfish to my parents right?
Like , you take care of me like a princess since I was born in this world and give me everything .
Every happiness but when it's time to show their real love and care they just gave up on me?
"Congratulations to both of you "
my mom said as she was about to hold my hand but I backed away , and gladly no one noticed, not even Jungkook .
My mom smiled as she came towards me and said to my ears .
" I hope you'll take your responsibility well yn " saying that she kissed my forehead . I had no tears left to shed anymore .
I looked away as my dad approached me
" Happy life ahead yn and jungkook " saying that dad again said to Jungkook
" Jungkook son , I hope you'll take care of her " he smiled and said " don't worry dad I will " ..........
Oh, how well they wanted him to take care of me now , when they themselves broke me apart !?
But I can never forgive them because they broke me to the depth that nobody can now heal this broken heart of mine ......
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To be continued
Written by Ashscrievers ✨