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Wooyoung opened his eyes. His head was spinning and he felt completely drained out.
It took him a while to realize where he was and what had happened.
With tired eyes, he looked beside him, only to see San sleeping peacefully. Wooyoung tried to move, but his whole body felt tired. He vaguely remembered last night. Slowly, he turned to San and watched him for a few minutes. He looked so comfortable.
Wooyoung remembered what had happened last night and what they had done. At some point he had lost count of how many times he came this night, but it was definitely too much for him.
Now he felt exhausted, but also totally happy. A new feeling he had never felt before was spreading through his body and he realized that he really liked San. Or rather, that he probably already loved him. At least, he loved looking at him.
Wooyoung's eyes wandered over San's face. He wondered if San felt the same way. He never really expressed his feelings to Wooyoung, and Wooyoung wasn't sure if San liked him as much as he liked him.
Wooyoung sighed, which caused San to shift in his deep sleep and change his position. Wooyoung couldn't help but smile. Maybe he hadn't noticed it at first, but San wasn't really intimidating. His normal face was actually so adorable. Only when his parents were around he put on an emotionless and cold expression.
Wooyoung moved a little closer to San and carefully put an arm around him not wanting to wake him up.
Wooyoung was honestly a little afraid of San's reaction if he woke up. Would he regret something or worse, be disgusted by Wooyoung?
Wooyoung shook off the thought of it. He had probably been thinking too much. San moved one more time and turned back to Wooyoung. He also put his arm around Wooyoung and pulled him closer. Wooyoung's heartbeat quickened and he screamed inside. He would do everything to wake up like this every morning.
...
Wooyoung lay in bed for what must have been an hour until San finally seemed to wake up. He slowly opened his eyes and looked around the room. Wooyoung was lying a little apart from him. He had his eyes closed, but he was not asleep at all.
San slowly sat up and rubbed his eyes. Wooyoung noticed that he was awake, but decided to pretend to be asleep. He didn't want to look San in the face and see his reaction.
Wooyoung felt San leave the bed, and then he heard footsteps going into the bathroom. Slowly, he opened his eyes and looked at the empty space next to him.
He didn't know why, but he suddenly felt so emotional. Maybe it was because he had gotten closer to San last night than to anyone before, or because he had never been so intimate with anyone before, but just the thought of San leaving again made him sad. He wanted to hold on to that feeling he had last night and hold on to San.
Suddenly, Wooyoung heard footsteps again and closed his eyes again. He felt San getting back into bed, then it was quiet again.
"Wooyoung?"
Wooyoung felt a slight nudge on his arm. Should he respond? He didn't want to, but he slowly opened his eyes and looked at San. San sat down next to him again and leaned down to him. When he saw Wooyoung open his eyes, he came closer and pressed a soft kiss on his cheek.
Wooyoung was surprised but hid it and pretended to still be tired.
San lay back again and then turned to Wooyoung. At the same time, he played with Wooyoung's hair.
"Can you not go to work today?" San asked so quietly that Wooyoung almost couldn't hear it. His voice sounded so soft and loving. Wooyoung made a confused expression on his face.
"What? But I have to work," he said, not knowing what San actually wanted him to do. San moved closer again and rested his forehead against Wooyoung's. "Please." he whispered. "Please stay with me today." Wooyoung opened his eyes again and San looked at him.
"Let's go somewhere and come back tomorrow." Again Wooyoung looked confused. "Go somewhere?"
San nodded. "Please just for today. I beg you, just one day." Wooyoung was so overwhelmed by San.
"Say you're sick or something and go with me to another hotel."
Wooyoung wondered if San was serious, but he seemed to really mean it. "Another hotel? But why?" asked Wooyoung curiously.
"I just don't like the feeling in this hotel and I want to be alone with you. I don't want to see my parents." Wooyoung slowly understood what San meant. "Please Woo. Just one day, we can come back tomorrow."
Wooyoung couldn't help but give in. He would do anything for San, and if he wanted to go somewhere else, he would follow him.
Wooyoung nodded.
"Okay, then let's go." San's eyes lit up. "I'll go to my apartment and get some stuff, then I'll be back, okay?" Wooyoung nodded again.
"But what if your parents see you? What will you say then?"
San patted Wooyoung's head.
"Don't worry, they have a meeting until the afternoon. They won't come looking for me until then."
"Are you sure?" San nodded, trying to reassure Wooyoung. "I'll hurry, okay." San stood up and Wooyoung did the same.
Before San stood up, he scooted closer to Wooyoung and gave him a kiss. Wooyoung just embraced him and then watched San get dressed and then walk out of the room.
Wooyoung sat in his bed perplexed, not understanding what had happened. Then he finally got up and looked for something to wear. After that, he rushed to the bathroom to pack his things. He looked in the mirror and realized what he actually looked like. "Gosh," he said, staring at his dark circles under his eyes. He decided to pack some makeup, too.
After he finished in the bath, he went back outside and packed his bag. Then he grabbed his phone and sent a message to one of the head waiters at the restaurant that he was sick.
He wanted to text Yeosang too, but he didn't have time because there was already a knock on his door.
He threw away his phone and went to the door to open it for San. San had a bag in his hand and rushed into Wooyoung's room. He was wearing a hat and a mask. He also had a hat and mask in his hand, which he then handed to Wooyoung. "Put this on," he said. Wooyoung did as he said and then picked up his bag from the bed. "Can we go?" San asked, and Wooyoung nodded. He took his room card and together they left his room.
As they walked down the stairs, Wooyoung felt like they were doing something illegal. He smiled into his mask because San held his hand and didn't let go of it even when they walked through the entrance area and people saw them.
A cab was already parked in front of the entrance and Wooyoung and San got in. Then the car drove away.
"Where are we going?" asked Wooyoung while driving. San was still holding his hand. "I found a hotel outside of Seoul. It's really nice." Wooyoung nodded. And looked at their hands.
San noticed and stroked Wooyoung's hand with his thumb. Wooyoung looked up again and gave San a smile. Then he looked outside. Everything just didn't feel real.
He was going who knows where with a man he hadn't liked a past weeks ago, leaving his work and everything behind. He was probably crazy, right?
.....
Two hours later, they finally arrived at the hotel San had told them about. San gave the driver money, then they got out of the car and walked to the hotel.
The hotel was located near a hill. The atmosphere seemed very quiet and relaxing. Wooyoung looked around until San grabbed his hand.
"Let's go," he said. Wooyoung nodded and followed him into the rather smaller building.
The inside matched the outside atmosphere. It was quite different from the hotel in Seoul.
"Wait here a moment," San said to Wooyoung and went to the front desk to check in.
....
After a few minutes, they went to their room. Wooyoung was amazed when they arrived. The room was really big and also had an outdoor area with a hot tub.
He turned to San.
"How much did you pay?" he asked. "Don't worry, leave the money to me.", San said, taking off his mask and hat.
"But I don't want to owe you anything," Wooyoung said.
"Woo, I insisted on coming here and sort of kidnapped you, so it's only fair that I pay. Besides, I'm rich, you know I don't care."
Wooyoung shrugged his shoulders. "I'm not rich, but that doesn't mean I can't pay," he said, a little offended. San stepped closer and took his hand. "I know, Woo. I didn't mean it that way. But just let me pay, okay."
Wooyoung didn't want to argue, so he just nodded. San wouldn't give in either way.
They both put down their things. Wooyoung sat down on the bed.
"And now?" he asked. San sat down next to him. "How about we have breakfast and then cuddle?"
Wooyoung's heartbeat sped up again automatically. "Sure," he said only because he didn't want San to see how excited he actually was.
San looked at a card lying on a table in the room, then ordered something to eat. Wooyoung, in the meantime, unpacked his things and after changing his clothes, he lay down in bed.
He felt kind of weird being alone with San where he never was before.
San finished his order and changed as well. Wearing comfortable pants and no shirt, he walked and lay next to Wooyoung.
Although Wooyoung already knew what he looked like, he was once again speechless. He became extremely nervous when San put an arm around his waist and pulled him closer. Together they lay down and enjoyed the silence for a while.
"Why did you bring me here?", Wooyoung asked after a few minutes. "I mean, I understand that you wanted to be free from your parents, but why did you bring me here?"
Wooyoung was eager to hear San's thoughts and feelings.
San started drawing circles on Wooyoung's back while hugging him.
"I just want to figure out something," he said. Wooyoung nodded, still dissatisfied. He wondered if he should tell San about his feelings, but he was afraid that it might be too rushed.
On the other hand, they had almost slept together, so wouldn't it only make sense to confess his feelings?
Wooyoung didn't really know, so he decided to stay quiet. He wanted to enjoy the day he had with San and tell him afterwards.
....
Some time passed where Wooyoung and San just lay in bed and said nothing. Then their food came and they started to eat. Wooyoung didn't know what to say, so he kept silent and they ate together in silence.
It wasn't awkward, but Wooyoung wished San would talk to him more. He wanted to get to know him better.
...
After they finished eating, they went back to bed. It was almost noon and time passed very quickly.
San turned to Wooyoung and stroked his cheek while looking into his eyes. "Woo?"
Wooyoung also looked at him with his heart pounding. "Yes?" he replied.
"Is there anything you want to do today?" Wooyoung thought for a moment and then shook his head.
"No it's alright," he said.
San's look became a little more serious. "I'm afraid you might be bored, but I'm just enjoying being in bed with you," San said.
"I'm not bored, San, I'm enjoying it too," Wooyoung reassured him.
San nodded in understanding.
"Do you want to do something more?", San then asked.
Wooyoung was confused at first, but then realized what he meant.
He was still exhausted from last night and would rather just talk to San than do anything physical, but he didn't want to say it, so he just nodded slowly.
San came closer and started kissing Wooyoung's neck. Wooyoung really tried to enjoy it, but somehow he didn't feel good.
A thought crossed his mind that San had brought him here just to do something. He tried to push the thought away and focus on San's touch, but it didn't work.
San was about to take off Wooyoung's shirt when Wooyoung stopped him. San looked at him. "What's wrong?" Wooyoung didn't know what to say.
"Mmh, I don't know, just..." he fell silent. "I thought you wanted it too?", San asked a little confused.
Wooyoung felt more and more uncomfortable.
"I mean, I want it, but it's just..."
San looked at him, waiting for an answer. Wooyoung took a deep breath. He didn't know how to say it. "It just doesn't feel right," Wooyoung finally said.
San lay down in front of Wooyoung again. "Why?" he asked quietly.
"I think last night was already too much, it's going too fast."
There was silence for a while. Wooyoung was so afraid that San would hate him now. Anxiously, he looked at him, but San seemed calm. "I understand.", San said in an unusual tone. He turned on his back and looked at the ceiling.
Wooyoung was still looking at him worriedly. He had to suppress tears that came out of his eyes.
Was San mad at him? Had he ruined everything? He couldn't stop thinking too much.
Suddenly, San turned back to him.
"I understand it's very fast, Wooyoung, but..." he was quiet again. "You said that last night was already too much. Didn't you like it? Do you regret it?", San now also asked with a worried expression on his face. Immediately, Wooyoung shook his head. "No, no, I really liked it. It was a great night, but..." San interrupted him.
"Wooyoung, if you don't like something, please tell me. Like last night when you were pleasuring me almost all the time. I didn't think about it, but if you didn't enjoy it, I would feel really bad. I want you to feel good too. I want to please you too."
Wooyoung was once again overwhelmed.
"No San you got it wrong. I mean, I really liked it, but it was the first time I did something like that and you're a man...", Wooyoung's voice suddenly cut off.
San looked at him in surprise and saw tears forming in Wooyoung's eyes. "Why, what's wrong Woo?" he asked worriedly, stroking his cheek to calm him down. "I don't know, it suddenly feels so weird what we did."
San took his other hand and put it around Wooyoung's neck.
"Do you mean you're not sure if you want to do it with a man?" Wooyoung looked up and couldn't hold back his tears. He didn't know what was wrong with him.
"Yes. I liked doing it, but when I think about doing it with another man, it just grosses me out. Also, I really enjoyed it yesterday or I would have told you, but now I'm just overwhelmed with all these feelings and the fact that I might be gay?"
Wooyoung didn't know how to express his feelings. Actually, he just wanted to tell San that he liked him, but now he wasn't even sure about that. San started to hug Wooyoung and stroke his head. "It's okay Wooyoung, I understand."
He pulled back again and forced Wooyoung to look at him.
"I'm not going to do anything, okay. We'll just cuddle." Wooyoung looked elsewhere again.
"Are you disappointed in me?" he asked. "What, no, of course not. It's not like we have to rush into anything. Especially not if it makes you feel weird."
Wooyoung looked at him again, still worried. "But just now you wanted to ... And I ruined everything."
San was still stroking Wooyoung's head. "Wooyoung, I didn't come here to fuck. I came to spend time with you. I don't really care what we do." Wooyoung nodded, still unsure.
"I just felt amazing last night and I thought you did too, so I wanted to do it again." Wooyoung closed his eyes. "It was amazing, San. I liked it too. It's not because of you, it's just...", San interrupted him again.
"I understand Wooyoung." He moved a little closer and rested his head on Wooyoung's shoulder.
"I'm glad you told me. I just want us both to be happy, if you weren't, I wouldn't be either."
Wooyoung calmed down a little. He didn't want to ruin the whole day.
"We can do it later, okay." San just stayed in place and held Wooyoung. "No, it's okay, let's just enjoy the time like this."
Wooyoung was more than relieved that he had told San. It made him feel much better right away. He hugged San back and arm in arm they lay in bed just hugging each other.
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Finally, in the evening, they both got up. They hadn't talked for hours and just slept and cuddled. Wooyoung felt really good now.
He watched San.
San was very attentive and gentle to him the whole time. This made Wooyoung fall in love with him even more.
"Shall we use the hot tub outside?" asked San as they stood in the room. "Of course only if you feel comfortable with it."
Wooyoung nodded, indicating that it was okay with it.
He certainly sensed that San didn't want to push him.
They both got undressed and went to the hot tub with their robes. They got into the warm water and San immediately pulled Wooyoung close to him. Wooyoung just enjoyed their closeness and hugged him.
Gently, San rubbed Wooyoung's back and pressed several kisses to Wooyoung's forehead.
"Are you feeling better now?" he asked, and Wooyoung nodded.
"Yes, I do." San was visibly relieved. "I'm sorry if I pushed too hard, I'll be more careful, I promise. We'll only do things you agree with."
Wooyoung nodded. He knew he could trust San.
San was so gentle with him and no matter how San felt, it showed Wooyoung that San really cared for him...
At least that's what he thought, until the next day...
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I think the saying "The calm before the storm" fits quite well cause the next chapters gonna be something else..
So be ready for some drama cause I am definitely not but I literally made this shit up so💀
Alsoo idk how this ended up with 3100 words once again haha
See ya on Wednesday<3