Song: Who Knew
Artiste: P!nk
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Riiiiinnnnnggggg!
Dontae and I both jumped apart like we were somewhat hit by fire.
Riiiiinnnnnggggg!
I was breathing heavily, my heart galloping a hundred miles per second in my chest.
What the-
It took me a while to take notice that my phone was ringing.
I pulled it out of my pocket and tried to calm down as my hand hovered over the screen.
One breath.
Two breaths.
Okay calm the heck down Vanessa! It's not a bomb.
I exhaled and swiped the green button upright.
"Hello?"
"Vanessa?!"
"Dad?"
He breathed a sigh of relief.
"Oh thank God! I thought something had happened to you. I tried calling the house phone and Wilma said that you went for a walk or something like that. So I thought you hit your head or you're just going straight up crazy."
He paused.
"Are you alright? I'm not gonna have to call the family doctor, am I?!"
I didn't notice Dontae sitting on his bed across the room. But when I did I didn't miss the smirk that he was wearing.
What's so funny?
I rolled my eyes and chuckled a bit.
"Dad! I'm fine you don't need to worry about me. I'm just trying to be a regular teenager like you told me to."
"I just went out and took a walk because I had something to do. It's not far from the house so you can calm down now. No need to get a stroke."
Once again, he exhaled deeply.
"Oh ok good. I feel like I just aged ten years."
I busted out laughing.
I can always count on my dad to be very theatrical in situations like these.
I'm surprised he's not threatening to book a flight and come right back home.
I motioned towards the sofa and sat down.
"So how's everything going? Did you meet the people for the business proposal?"
There was a moment of silence.
"Dad?" I queried. Ready to behave hysterical.
"Hm?" He answered.
"U good?"
"Yeah. Yeah. I'm greeeaaat."
"Did you hear what I asked you just now?"
He cleared his throat.
"Uh, yeah. You asked if i'm good."
I facepalmed.
"No. Before that."
"Oh, then no. What did you say pumpkin?"
"I said, did you get to meet with the people for the business proposal?"
"Oh, um no. I'm going to meet them tomorrow evening over dinner."
I pursed my lips. "Oh well. Uh, good luck and come home soon ok?"
"Yeah. Take care and I love you, alright."
I smiled.
"Love you too dad. Bye."
I hung up the phone and glanced over at Dontae.
He was still staring at me but instead of smirking he smiled lightly.
I lifted an eyebrow.
"What?"
He shook his head from left to right.
"Nothing. It's just that I forgot how close you are with your dad."
"Yeah, after my mom—"
I paused, feeling a pang in my chest.
Gulping, I forced down tears. And instead of delving into a conversation not worth having I jutted out my lips and said, "uh...yeah. We're really close."
When I was smaller, I used to show off my mom to my classmates and friends. But then and even now, I never thought in a million years that my mom would be a subject I loathe talking about.
Dontae looked at me with grief stricken eyes. Sensing the shift in the atmosphere.
He pursed his lips and instead of commenting he changed the subject.
"How about you tell me what happened with Sean last night."
I looked at him skeptically.
"Are you sure you want to know?"
He chuckled a bit.
"Because earlier you didn't seem too forthcoming on the matter."
"You caught me by surprise, that's all."
I raised an eyebrow.
"Mhm."
I knew he was trying to get my mind off my mom but even though I knew this I still went ahead and told him what had happened. I of course just summarized it and left out the embarrassing parts about me behaving like a common slut.
Maybe that's a bit far fetched. It didn't change how I feel though.
Being rejected in such a humiliating way is not easy. Especially when there's a possibility that I may see him at school very soon.
I.
Am.
Such.
An.
Idiot.
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The hallway was buzzing with kids rushing to their lockers, idling and being hyperactive as per usual.
I gripped the strap of my bag and trudged to my locker. Eager to get to class so I don't have to face—
Shit.
Speak of the devil and he shall appear.
I hurriedly placed my bag in my locker and grabbed my chemistry books along with my pencil case.
As swiftly and hopefully as discreetly as I could, I headed to class.
But my breath caught in my throat when I was pulled to the side.
I didn't even know what was happening for a while until I was met by the surroundings of an empty classroom.
Sometimes, I really hate my luck.
I rolled my eyes then shrugged off the pair of arms around me and stepped back.
"What do you want?"
"Good morning to you too."
I pushed down the feeling of distraught growing inside me.
"I just...I wanted to apologize for what happened on Saturday."
I furrowed my eyebrows and pursed my lips.
"What?"
With what sounded like an exasperated sigh, he said. "I'm sorry about what happened last Friday. I was drunk and I wasn't in my right mind."
I sighed and ran a hand over my head.
"Didn't we already have this conversation before Sean? I get it. Let's just say that that night I was drunk too to save me from any further embarrassment."
He took a step forward. Getting closer to me.
I didn't move.
A smile was glued to his face.
My heart sped up in my chest
"There's no need for you to be embarrassed, love."
Suddenly my heart was palpitating.
Boodum. Baddap. Boodum.
My heart skipped a few beats.
Did he just call me love?
Boodum. Baddap. Boodum. Boodum.
My mouth fell open as I was stunned into utter silence.
He continued talking though. Getting braver as he got closer and closer until he was standing barely an inch away from me.
He held my face in between his palms.
"I blamed what happened on the alcohol but I was lying. I was scared of what I felt. Of what it might mean..."
He trailed off.
"And you can't tell me that you didn't feel anything because I know that you felt something that night."
He stared into my eyes as if silently searching for an answer. Then, without warning, he smashed his lips against mine.
I couldn't tell if it was a dream or if it was real but I reveled in the feeling of desire.
I wanted more of him.
No.
I needed more of him.
The books and my ladybug pencil case fell from my arms with a loud thud. I took that opportunity to wrap my arms around Sean's neck. Intensifying the emotions currently running through the atmosphere.
I ran my hands up and down his chest.
I had no idea he had such nice abs.
Oh my gosh! I think I'm blushing.
I barely had time to register the desk under my legs. All I knew was that I ended up sitting on the desk. Legs open and hormones going wild.
All the while with my lips stuck on Sean's.
Sean rubbed my back soothingly. Making me want to submit to his every wish and command.
This feeling was all too new to me.
And I liked it.
So much that I didn't want to ever stop.
I proceeded to wrap my legs around Sean's torso but he had other plans as he slowly yet gently pulled our lips apart.
Baffled and out of breath I ran my tongue along my bottom lip.
Sean smiled at me.
"I have to get to class but I'll meet up with you later?"
I nodded.
"Sure."
He ran his fingers up and down my back. Stopping at my waist.
I inhaled sharply when he trailed his nose along my neck.
What is this boy doing to me?
I leaned my head to the side giving him better access.
"Meet me in the parking lot under the tree." He said.
A smile lingered on his face as he whispered in my ear. "I look forward to seeing you again, love."
He untangled us. Much to my dissatisfaction and picked up my books and pencil case that had fallen earlier.
When he wasn't looking at me for the brief three seconds that he bent down, I did a little celebratory dance.
Well, if looking like a constipated chicken fist pumping the air is considered dancing then I suppose I'm the best dancer to ever exist.
"Here you go." He said, handing me my belongings.
I couldn't help grinning like a mad woman as I retrieved the items from his outstretched hands.
"Thank you," I said softly.
I wrapped my arms around the books and pursed my lips.
"I'll see you later."
Then he was walking away from me and soon, he disappeared through the classroom door.
What a charmer.
I can't believe that just happened.
My brain was a nebulous mess as I tried to make myself and my thoughts somewhat decent.
I wanted to tell Dontae what happened but it could wait.
I'll tell him later.
I put down the books on a nearby table. The straps of my sundress hung dangerously low on my shoulders.
When did they move?
That sneaky bastard.
I redid my ponytail, grabbed the books and left the classroom.
It surprised me how no one was in the class yet.
But not long after that thought, the bell emitted its ear-piercing scream.
I looked around the classroom and then headed to my first class of the day.
Hopefully chemistry won't be that boring today.