*Cory*
My mom fixed my tie and gave me a kiss on the cheek and smiled and I gave a faint smile back.
“You look good baby,” she smiled and picked up her purse, ready to leave and walked out the door and like no other, the journalist and new stations was parked on my door.
“Mr. Smith will this delay from you coming to Florida?” one said.
“Do you think that this is your fault?” Another said and I turned around ready to say something until my mom stepped in front of me.
“Excuse me but right now Cory is in his time of need and I would appreciate it if you let us deal privately, if not I would be willing to call the police department,” my mom warned and I walked straight to the car and sat there then put my head down and started crying.
Why would the media say that I was the cause of my best friend’s death? I loved Alex like a brother and if I knew that some of the football players was the reason of his death then I would have beaten they ass then quit the team. Alex never told me anything, he didn’t say a word around me to show that this was happening. I do feel like it is my fault that it did happen but I always warned Alex to stand up for himself, but he couldn’t and it resulted to this.
I put my head back down and continued crying, my mom just got in the car and patted me on the back and started driving to the destination.
I kept my head down for the forty five minutes that my mother was driving. I couldn’t bear to pick up my face and look around it was too brutal.
“Yes Jazz I’ll be there in a minute, traffic is a little slow today; Cory will be ready once he gets there,” my mom said into the phone then rubbed my back, “You think you could do this? Jazz doesn’t mind,” she asked softly rubbing my back and I sighed.
“I’m going to do it,” I answered.
“You sure Cory, you know I don’t like when your like this,” I sat up and looked at her.
“I promised I was going to do this, I can’t break a promise ma.”
She smiled and gave me a kiss on my forehead and pulled into the parking lot. I looked up at the church and gave a heavy sigh. How much did I didn’t want to be here. My mom put her hand on my chin and turn my face towards her and wiped my tears. I took another deep breath and got out the car and walked out over to Jazz and gave her a hug.
“It’s nice to meet you Cory, you okay?” I cracked a smile.
Jazz was the funeral director and a nice woman at that. She was short with natural long curly hair and almond shaped eyes. She was beautiful. For someone who planned things for the deceased though.
“I’m making, I just want to get over with today,” I explained and she nodded her head.
The church was full, mostly of students from the school wearing tee shirts that had his face plastered o nit. Even teachers, administrators and even the security guards came through just for Alex.
I walked inside the church as all the faces looked at me, some smiled and waved and others looked at me as if I was a different person. But I just kept on walking with my head held high and made my way over to the family in the first pew giving everyone hugs. I got to his mother and sorrow was thrown on her face, she wore all black while his sister Diane consoled her as much as she could. She got up and looked at me then smiled and pulled me into a hug which had me getting the waterworks.
“You were always family to me and a brother to my son, I thank you for being there for him,” she whispered and I couldn’t help but break down and start crying. Tears flowed down and my face turned red.
“Thank you, if anything I’ll be here,” she let go and kissed me on the forehead then I gave Diane a hug and proceeded to my seat by my mother behind the family.
I couldn’t sit with the football team because it wasn’t my place at all. Plus Bryan was there and I was trying my hardest not to whoop his ass.
“Brothers and sister, we are here today to mourn the death of our dear bother Alex Heller. Now may we bow our heads for prayer,” I couldn’t even close my eyes, I just stared at the casket in horror, “Dear heavenly father, we have an angel with you right now,”
“Amen,” people in the audience said.
“We have an angel that was strong and true to god’s word and we asking you to guide, cover him with your word and continue to share your word with us down on earth heavenly father. Father, I ask you to cover and shelter the family and friends of Alex for they have been going through some trials and tribulations for the devil is trying to trying to recruit,” he said and I looked up and tears was forming around everyone’s eyes, “Father bless them, show them the way because the devil is trying to take the young ones, in thy name we pray, Amen.”
“Amen.” The whole church erupted and I looked over at Diane who was making her way in the middle of the isle and started dancing to the song let the church say amen. It was powerful and was already sending chills through my body and making me shed more tears than ever. Not even halfway through the song she broke down in tears in the middle of the isle and one of the ushers had to rush her to the back.
“Well let the church say amen,” the pastor said.
“Amen,” the church repeated
“Now we will have Brother Cory to say a few words about Brother Alex. Everybody give him a hand,” Everyone started clapping and my mom helped me up and I walked to the casket and touched it and made my way to the podium.
“Good evening, my name is Cory Smith best friend of Alex Heller,” I took a deep breath and held back tears, the pastor came and held my shoulder and I nodded my head assuring that it was okay, “I knew Alex ever since Pre-K, we became like glue, if you seen me Alex was a few steps behind and if you seen Alex then you saw me. Alex was good natured, down to earth and overall a great friend, I would never expect for my best friend to leave me,” I sobbed then took a deep breath, “He was my best friend, my brother from another mother. There is just one thing I have to say, I love you bro, through every single breath that I take and a touchdown that I make in college ball its for you, I love you man,” I cried and walked down the steps and touched his casket once again.
I walked over to my mom and held her close to me and I cried so damn hard.
“Now its time to say our last goodbyes,” the pastor said.
I could already hear the cried of people crying like crazy as they opened the casket. The cried that I heard the most was his mother and sister and it was tearing me apart.
“I can’t do it,” I said into my mom’s ear and she held me tight knowing that it was okay.
Whitney Houston’s all at once started playing and I could hear some people shuffling the casket and everyone crying. My mom let go of me and I put head down crying trying not to even see my best friend laid in that casket. My mom got up and even went to go see the casket but I wasn’t going.
After the whole church viewed the body it was practically empty, even Alex’s casket was gone. My mom came and say by me.
“Cory we got to go to the cemetery before we get caught in traffic,” my mom said and looked at her.
“You could go; I’ll meet you at home. I really don’t want to go.” I said and leaned back looking around the church as the afternoon sun shown through the windows.
My mom reached in her purse and her keys in my hand and closed it, then kissed my temples.
“Be careful okay?” she assured and I nodded my head, “I’ll get a ride from Jazz and be back in a few hours.”
My mom got up and walked out the church and I sat back and took a deep breath then got up walking to the steps of the church and kneeled down and looked up and the ceiling. Out of nowhere I started crying.
“Why me? Why did you have to take my best fiend from me? I never did anything wrong,” I cried and sat on the step and looked down the isle, “I would think that making me not know my father would be the only thing horrible in my life but its not, this is. Whatever you’re trying to show me, I’ve learned my lesson. But there is one thing that I do need to say to you is that Alex is in your hands, please watch over him at least and watch over his family and me too, I cant help but to think that this football thing might rip me to shreds especially since Alex aint here.”
I got up and took off my blazer and could help but shed and few tears and sat on the steps.
Its from the heart, I’m going to miss my brother.
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