GO BACK TO CHAPTER 23 "PROMISES" TO SEE HOW CUTE AND HOW MEANINGFUL THIS COVER IS ^^^^
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*back to present time*
Y/n's pov
Just like every little girl I thought that I was destined to find love. The movies told us so.
I thought I would be one of they Disney princesses. I thought that there would be a person for me out there. But I didn't want to wait 18 years in a tower for that person.
So every single guy that even looked at me, I tried to force into my puzzle. I wanted them to be my missing jigsaw piece even if I knew they weren't. So I destroyed myself more and more to make them fit, but they never did. With Kageyama, a part of me knew he wasn't my jigsaw piece but I wanted him to be in my puzzle more than I have ever wanted anyone before. I was disillusioned with the fact that he may be my puzzle piece other than the truth, which was that he was not.
The only person that I didn't have to rearrange my jigsaw for was Tsukishima Kei. He fit into my puzzle without me even realising
I woke up today and stared at my roof for who knows how long. I tried to work out everything that happened last night in the gym, why? Why did they do this? Why did I say it was ok? Do I really believe it's ok?
I was surprised that I still haven't properly cried, after the past few days I've had I'm surprised I'm still standing. The worst part is, I've never felt so alone and it's weird because I've been through so much worse but this loneliness was more crippling than any other loneliness I've experienced. Maybe it was because it was mixed in with betrayal.
My mom was working and Emiko was at her grandparents so the house had a deafening silence, I couldn't be in it because I didn't know what I would do to myself. I got dressed in something comfy because I had no effort or reason to dress nicely. I left my house and put my music in as I walked and walked. I didn't really have a destination.
After a few hours, I found myself at Tsukishima's house. I stared at his house in conflict but I couldn't convince myself to knock on his door. I had no plan on what to say. So I went back to the park that I have visited many times. I sat on the same swings that I sat on that night when I was with Kageyama.
If I'm being honest it just made me want to throw up. I was such a fool, how could I let myself get like that? How could I not see everything for how it was? How was I so blind?
I could blame Kageyama or Cho for how everything was but the true person I blamed, was myself. I was just too easy and Kageyama knew that.
Just as it felt like I was about to cry, it started to rain. Usually, I would be sad or uncomfortable about that but instead, I looked up at the sky and smiled. I didn't feel so lonely anymore. I didn't have to cry anymore. The clouds were crying for me. I closed my eyes as I thought about my life being different. Maybe if I had met Tsukishima first it wouldn't be this way
My peace didn't last for long as suddenly I noticed the rain had stopped showering me. I opened my eyes confused to see a black umbrella hovering over me, I leaned back slightly to see Tsukishima looking down at me concerned.
"Hello," I said and he didn't say anything as he looked at me
"You shouldn't be in the rain without an umbrella," he said and I smiled
"Why? Are you going to tell me I'll catch a cold?" I asked
"No, that's factually wrong," he said and I laughed "You seem... okay," He said nervously
"Well I don't want to gouge your eyes out so... yeah, I'm okay," I said and he tried to hold a laugh
"I really am sor-," he was about to say until I cut him off "don't apologise, it's not your fault"
"I know but I should have told you. And... I'm sorry it happened to you, you didn't deserve it," he said and I shrugged
"Does anyone really deserve anything?" I asked and he rolled his eyes
"You confuse me when you say things like that," he said as he looked for an explanation
"Sit on the swing with me?" I asked as I pointed at the swing next to me
"It's wet," he said as he looked at it disgusted
"That's what she s-," I said before he put his hand over my mouth
"No," he said and I giggled
"Come inside. We can watch a movie," he said as he wiped his glasses.
Tsukishima is the smartest person I know, but he's not smart enough to put the umbrella over him as well
"I want to be in the rain," I said as I swung away and he stood still as I swinged back and hit him "you're stupid," I said as I stopped the swing with my shoes so it wouldn't go again
"Well, it stopped you didn't it?" He said with a smirk and I rolled my eyes
"You can go back inside. I don't want to," I said and he sighed
"Are you really doing this right now?" He questioned and I nodded my head he groaned and moved over to the other swing "fine," he said as he sat down
I laughed at his displeased face
"You didn't have to," I said through a laugh
"But I did," he said as he still had the umbrella only covering me. I grabbed his hand and moved the umbrella into the middle of us. When I touched his hand he looked me in the eyes, when I had realised he was looking at me I looked at him too. For a few seconds it felt like the hole in me was no longer there. His eyes were so warm and comforting, I never wanted to look away. Maybe it's because I was high on emotion but something inside of me went... weird
"You're silly," I said and he looked at my hand
"You're cold," He said as he put his other hand on my hand
"Are you trying to play the hand-stacking game?" I asked as I put my other hand on his hand and he looked at me confused
"What?" He said and I looked at him shocked
"You've never played the hand-stacking game?" I said with my mouth wide
"No?" He said confused and scared. I shook my head at him and took my hand out from our pancake "Your hands are really cold, you sure you don't want to go inside?" He asked concerned
"I don't feel cold. The happiness is keeping me warm," I said with a smile and Tsukishima looked at me sadly
"Why are you happy even after last night?" He asked and I looked at the ground awkwardly
"Well the world didn't end, did it?" I asked him
"Well no, but the world shouldn't have to end for you to be allowed to be sad," he said as he stared at my every movement, trying to figure out what I actually felt. I didn't even really know.
"I don't like being sad though, why be sad when you can just be happy? Fake it until you make it," I said and he didn't smile or laugh he just frowned even more
"It can feel good to be sad. It can feel good to express what you actually feel. If you're mad you can slap me, if you're sad you can cry as I hold you, if you're confused you can ask me anything. You don't have to be happy," He said as he tried to get me to be honest
"We were having this conversation a week ago," I said as I faced forward more and he sighed as he gave up (chapter 25- hugs)
"I guess we failed at our promises," he said and I looked at him and shook my head
"You didn't. You showed that you cared about me even though it meant punching Kageyama," I said and he smiled slightly but rolled his eyes
"That was anger, not happiness," he said as he shook his head
"I bet it made you feel I little bit happy to punch him though," I said and he denied it "not even a little itty bit?" I asked as I leaned over to him
"Maybe the tiniest little bit," he said as he sighed and I laughed and moved back
"Maybe now you and Kageyama can get on since you've let it all out," I said and he shot his head to look at me seriously
Why did I say that?
I'm so stupid
"No, I hate him more than before," he said and I sighed and looked at him and shook my head
"You don't have to hate him for me yknow?" I said and he adjusted his glasses as he looked at me seriously and a little mad
"I do because you don't. That pisses me off. You should despise him for it, you should hate the team and me. But here you are sitting next to me and laughing and acting like it's all okay. It makes me mad," he said and I looked away from him, avoiding the eyes that were trying to figure out what was going on in my brain
Why cant he just let it go?
"What do you want me to do? Do you want me to go to all their doors and shout at them? Do you want me to spend the rest of my life hating them and you? Do you want me to leave the team? Get a new best friend? Moves schools? What do you want me to do?" I asked quietly
"Yes! Do all of that If it will make you feel better!" He shouted madly and I stood up and looked at him
"But it won't! It won't make me feel better, it will just make me feel it all. All the sadness and the madness and the betrayal, I'll feel it all if I make it real," I shouted at him and he looked up at me with his eyes wide before looking down madly
"You can't just ignore it Y/n," he said lowly. We stayed still in silence for a while. I sat back down in my swing and we listened to the rain until we calmed down "yknow, I had a dream the day of the fight. And it was weird and confusing but I think it was about your situation with Kageyama. Like a warning. But I never knew because I never got to see the end"
"What was it about?" I asked quietly as I looked at the sun which was starting to set.
Ive never seen it rain during a sunset
It's so pretty
How could I be sad when I'm seeing such a thing?
"I- I don't remember," he said awkwardly and I looked at him suspiciously and then faced forward again
I didn't have it in me to pry so I just let it go "I want to go inside now," I said and he looked at me thankfully
"Ok," he said, I stood up and he followed behind me with the umbrella over my head
"I have a weird request and please please please say yes," I said as I got to his door and he gulped
"What?" He asked as I opened his door and we stepped inside, I took my shoes off and so did he. He put his umbrella in the umbrella rack and faced me nervously
"I want to dye my hair... pink. I know that's so cliche but I just... need a change. You're going to help me since I have never dyed hair," I said and he crossed his arms
"Absolutely not," he said sternly and I placed my hands on his shoulders and shook him
"Pleaseeeeee" I whined as I shook him and he groaned and grabbed my wrists lightly
"I cannot go along with your madness. What if it goes wrong?" He said "it won't" I replied "what if it does?" He argued "it won't" I argued back "do you even have hair dye?" he questioned as he let go of my wrists
"Eh no, this was a spare of the moment decision. But that means we can go to the convenience store!" I said happily
"And that means I'm going to have to pay for it," he said tiredly
"Yup! Cause I'm broke," I said and he rolled his eyes
"When are you not?" He said and I scowled at him
"Not all of us get an allowance from our rich parents," I said and he looked at me surprised and laughed
"Don't play that card. You can always get a job," he said and I looked up at him madly
"I was actually offered a job! But I don't have the time. If I had taken the job I wouldn't get to annoy you," I said with a smile as I followed him to his room
"Ha ha," he said sarcastically and I giggled
"I can't believe you kept my child away from me," I said as I ran to his door and opened it. Shortcake came waddling up to me and I got on the ground and picked her up as I hugged her. I did my baby voice to her and Tsukishima looked at us grossed out
"Last time I checked, she's my cat," he said as he stepped over us to get into his room
"He actually thinks you like him more," I said in the baby voice to shortcake as I rubbed my face against hers
"Your clothes aren't too wet right?" He asked and I stood up and looked at my clothes
"Nah," I said as I dusted myself off
"But you need a jacket right?" He said as he looked me up and down
I scoffed and said "no I'm fine" and he raised his eyebrow at me
"But you didn't bring a jacket or an umbrella with you so yes you do," he said as he rolled his eyes and I groaned
"Why do you keep your jackets in your room?" I asked freaked out as he went through his closet
"So Akiteru doesn't steal them," he said and I nodded my head. I closed his door quickly before shortcake could get out
"She really wants to get out," I said as I bent down and petted her
"Yeah she's been tryna to go out there a lot," he said as he kept looking through his closet
"Why don't you let her?" I asked and he poked his head out from the closet door as he looked at me horrified
"Have you seen how big this place is? She could get trapped or lost. Not happening," he said and then his head disappeared again
"Boohoo, he's such a fun sponge isn't he?" I said as I giggled down at shortcake and then Tsukishima threw a jacket at me and of course, it hit me in the face
"I could arrest you for assault," I said as I grabbed the jacket off my face
"And that's exactly why I picked out the ugliest jacket for you," he said and then I stood up and looked at the jacket. It wasn't too horrendous but it was pretty ugly.
It looks like something an old man would wear
Not that old men dress badly because they don't
It's just uh
Ok
"I hate you," I said as I looked at the jacket in fear
"Put the jacket on quickly, we have to go," he said as he walked over to me and I groaned and put the jacket on slowly and with obvious struggle to try make Tsukishima change his mind. He stared at me the whole time with a done in expression
"You are so dramatic," he said as he walked around me and opened up his door. I waved goodbye to shortcake and then walked out his room and closed his door. I ran down the hall to catch up with Tsukishima.
"What umbrella do you want?" He asked as he grabbed his umbrella from the umbrella rack. I groaned at him as I stood up from putting my shoes on
"Can't we just share? I can't be bothered carrying an umbrella. And it's too cold to take my hands out my sleeves to hold it," I said and he looked down at me annoyed
"Oh, but I have to?" He said and I giggled
"Yes," I said and he rolled his eyes
"Your such a baby," he said as he opened his front door and stepped out I walked out with him and he closed his door.
The walk to the convenience store was filled with... normalness. For the first time in a long time, me and Tsukishima were back to being normal. And I felt okay. Maybe I wasn't happy but... I was okay and I hadn't felt okay in a long time.
When we got to the bigger convince store because the normal small one wouldn't have it, we spilt up to find the hair dye aisle. I walked passed the candle section and couldn't help myself from seeing how they all smelled. Most of them smelt gross.
As I was smelling one of the candles someone approached me from behind
This one smells like Tsukishima's room
Very clean
"What are you wearing?" Asked someone with a familiar voice
Oh my god
Kill me now
Why why why
I turned around slowly to face Cho "what does it look like I'm wearing?" I asked and she looked at me shocked and then smiled
"I guess you know?" She asked and I nodded
"Your boyfriend didn't tell you I knew?" I said and she looked at me madly
"I guess we were too busy," she said as she shrugged and I rolled my eyes
"Why? Why would you do that to me? Even though you knew I liked him," I asked and she stared at me with a straight face
"I wanted to," she said with a shrug. Cho has always been quite harsh and honest but also mean, I think that when you become friends with someone you have to accept some bad things about them if their good qualities are good enough. And I always thought that even though she ridiculed me and made me feel like she was better than me, it was worth it because she cared about me. She would never hurt me on purpose, that's what I thought. But I was wrong and to hear her say that there was no reason behind it, like it was a mistake or a misunderstanding, she just "wanted to do it" hurt more than the whole situation all together.
"Y/n I found the-" Tsukishima stopped in his place as he saw me and Cho. He looked at her angrily before walking up to me
"What do you want?" He asked her and she rolled her eyes
"Let's just go, we got the stuff so..." I said as I grabbed Tsukishima's hand and started walking away
"Didn't take you long to move on," she said and I stopped in my place, I turned around and Tsukishima looked at me and then her. I knew he wanted to say something but he wanted me to be the one to do it
"We have been friends for as long as I can remember and you have never tried to get to know me, in the space of a month Kei has become the only person in this world that actually knows me, maybe even understands me. You do not have the right to act like you know what I think or feel so... be quiet," I said to her and she just smiled again... like she was proud
Tsukishima gave her one more bad look until I pulled him away
"Someone finally gained a backbone," she shouted after us and I pulled Tsukishima all the way to the counter
"I'm shaking that was so scary," I whispered as I raised up my cast arm to show how much I was shaking
"You did well though, did it make you feel better?" He asked as he paid the cashier and picked up the bag
"Not at the moment, I'm too panicked," I said as we walked out of the shop and stood under the shelter. I started biting my nails to calm my nerves, a habit that I used to have but got over, until recently. Tsukishima let go of my hand, I forgot that we were holding hands but the moment he let go I felt even more scared and anxious, he took my hand away from my mouth.
"Don't do that," he said and I looked at him madly
"I can have my bad habit if I want," I said and he rolled his eyes. He went into the bag and brought out strawberry laces
"Chew on them instead," he said as he handed them to me and I smiled at him
"You remembered my favourite candy!" I said happily as I took them from him and he got his umbrella from the store umbrella rack.
We started walking back to his house and I ate the candy nervously as I stared at the ground
"Do you think this is a bad decision?" I asked as I looked up at him and he looked down at me confused "dying my hair"
"No, I know I was against it at first but... I actually think it will be good for you," he said and I smiled at him
"Ok," I said with a smile as I stared back at the ground "it... did feel good to tell Cho of, a little," I said and he smiled
"I'm rubbing off on you then," he said as he nudged me and I giggled
"Can I stay at yours?" I asked him
"Only if I get to pick the movie," he said and I looked up at him outraged
"You always pick!" I said annoyed
"Name the last time I picked," he said annoyed back
We argued back and forth as we walked to his house. When we made it back we watched YouTube videos on how to dye hair. Since Tsukishima is smart he figured it out pretty quickly and we set up all our stuff in the bathroom as we began the progress
"Please dye your hair with me!" I said desperately as he applied the dye to my hair
"Never in a million ye-" he said and then I got a little bit of the dye and tried to put it in his hair but failed and only managed to get it on his forehead
"Y/n!" He said panicked as he tried to scrub it off but his hands had gloves on them which were covered in dye. I laughed and he put some of the dye on my cheek. I looked up at him shocked and he stared down at me
"You're gonna ruin your hair!" He said trying to convince me to not put the dye on him again. I rolled my eyes and grabbed the towel and went to wipe it off his head but he was inching away from me scared "Do not!" he said panicked
"I'm not gonna!" I said as I finally managed to rub it off his forehead and then I rubbed my cheek. He laughed as he shook his head. He then turned me back around so he could continue dying the back of my hair
After a while of us standing and him trying to focus on the YouTube tutorial as he dyed my hair I groaned "how long" I whined
"Not long," he said and I laughed as I looked at myself in the mirror
"I look funny," I said and he smiled
"You do"
After Tsukishima was done I had to sit for ages to do blah blah blah. Whatever Tsukishima said. He was like a proper hairdresser now.
We started watching Family Guy even though Tsukishima hates it. He actually left the room to go feed shortcake or something. I was watching the episode where Stewie and Brian become blood brothers
Me and Kei HAVE to do that
I finished most of the episode and ran up to Tsukishima's room excited
"Be my blood brother!" I said as I opened his door abruptly
"What?" He said confused
"On Family Guy, Stewie and Brian became blood brothers so we also have to," I said as I grabbed his wrist and pulled him out his room. He closed his door quickly before I pulled him down the hallway
"What are blood brothers?" He said and I stopped in my tracks
"You don't know?" I said as I looked up at him and he shook his head "oh my god I'm going to sound crazy," I said as I let go of his wrist and faced him "ok so I will draw my blood and you will draw your blood and then we will mix our blood," I said and he looked at me scared
"What is the point in this? And what do you mean by draw blood?" He asked panicked
"The point is that we'll be even closer than best friends! And by draw blood I mean we get a needle and poke ourselves or something," I said and before he could refuse I grabbed his wrist again and dragged him to the kitchen
"Y/n I don't think this is a good idea, it sounds disgusting," he said with crossed arms as my back faced him. I turned around with a big knife and he backed away
"Please!" I said desperately and he looked at the knife and then me
"WHAT is that for," he said as he pointed at the knife worried
"We'll just use the tip of the knife to poke ourselves," I said with a shrug
"Do we really have to?" he asked worried
"If you don't want to then we don't have to, I guess I could do it with Oikawa," I said with a shrug as I turned around with a smirk
"No! We can do it," he said madly and I turned back around with the smirk and then laughed. He sighed knowing he got played "you're evil"
"Ok we are doing this," I said as I put my index finger out, preparing myself. I closed my eyes tightly and jabbed the knife but it missed me. I opened my eyes slightly to see Tsukishima looking at me concerned
"I'm too scared," I said as I outraised the knife to him "yeah you're not doing it," he said at the same time as me while taking the knife.
He grabbed my index finger lightly and looked at me worriedly "are you sure you want to?" I closed my eyes and nodded my head
He pinched my finger so I wouldn't feel it as much and then poked me with the knife. I opened my eyes and looked at the blood coming out of my finger
"Do you want me to do it for you?" I asked as I looked at him
"Absolutely not," he said and I rolled my eyes
He put his index finger out and put the knife over it "I can't believe I'm actually doing this," he mumbled. He poked his finger with the knife, I watched as the blood started appearing on his finger
We put our index fingers out, letting the blood grow a little. "You don't have herpes right?" I asked before we began (iykyk)
"What? No!" He said horrified
"Ok good," I said thankfully and he rolled his eyes
We done a pinky promise but instead with our index fingers as we mixed our blood.
"Yay, we're blood brothers now!" I said happily. Tsukishima turned around and got plasters out of his first aid box
"Your plasters are so boring," I said as I looked down at the white plaster that he was putting on my finger
"There just plasters idiot," he said as he grabbed a plaster for himself
"I'll do it," I said as I snatched the plaster from him and he sighed. I applied the plaster on his finger and then gave it a tiny kiss. Tsukishima looked at me shocked and I swear I saw a tiny blush
"Why did you do that?" He said as he took his finger away from me
"Does your mom never kiss your injuries better?" I asked confused
"No?" He said confused and I put my finger out to his lips
"My mom isn't here," I said and he backed away from my finger
"No, this is weird!" He said and I kept on trying to get him to kiss my finger
"No it's not!" I said and he banged into the kitchen counter. No where left to go. He sighed and leaned forward to kiss my finger and I smiled
We looked at each other and then his alarm on his phone went off "time to wash the dye out," he said as he walked away and I followed him
He helped me wash the dye out of my hair, being careful not to get my clothes wet. When he was done I scrunched my hair with a towel
"My mom is gonna kill me," I said as I looked at my pink wet hair in the mirror scared
"You only live once," he said with a shrug as he stood behind me
I looked at him shocked before saying "woohoo someones living dangerous! I like this Kei," I said and he rolled his eyes. He dried the floor as I kept on staring at my hair "I can't be bothered drying it," I said
"So then don't," Tsukishima said as he walked out the bathroom and I followed him
"But what if I wake up and it's terrible," I said with a groan
"Then at least you'll sleep well tonight," he said and the mention of sleep made me realise how tired I was
"I'm pretty tired," I said and Tsukishima looked at his phone
"It's only 10pm," he said and I smiled
"Now you're trying to convince ME to stay up? I'm usually the one convincing you," I said as I sat next to him on the big living room sofa
"My sleep schedule is messed up from my time off," he said as he looked for something to watch on the tv
"Can you tell me why you stayed off now?" I asked eagerly as I turned my body to face him instead of the TV
"Isn't it obvious? I couldn't be around you because then I wouldn't want to tell you what Kageyama did," He said and I looked at him confused
"Why?" I asked confused and he sighed
"When I caught Kageyama and Cho the first thing I thought about was you and how I would tell you. But then I thought about how sad you would be and I talked myself out of it. But I knew I had to tell you. So I had planned to avoid you so that I could find the right time to tell you. But I knew I wouldn't be able to avoid you so I decided I wouldn't go to school," he said nervously as he put the remote down
"I don't think there would have ever been a right time. But, thank you for thinking about me. You shouldn't ruin your education over me though or get in a fight because of me. Promise you'll never fight anyone ever again?" I said and he laughed a little
"I promise," he said as he put his pinky out and we pinky promised "did you really mean what you said in the convenience store? About me knowing you the most and understanding you?" He asked and I smiled at him and nodded my head
"I did," I said and he looked at me with a tiny smile. His eyes had a little sparkle in them, maybe it was just from the light or because of his glasses but the sparkle made me feel warm like I had the sun inside of me
"I think that you already know that you know me the most and understand me," he said and I smiled an even bigger smile which I didn't think would be possible
"I'm glad," I said and we looked at each other for a few minutes. This is the third time we've done this today. But it feels nice to just look at him in the eyes, like I can see his soul "what movie we gonna watch?" I asked as I turned around after stealing the remote from him which he groaned at
We watched our favourite show until the pizza came. After a while, we got tired and went up to his room
"You know you don't have to sleep on the futon," I said as he laid his futon out beside his bed
"Well I'm not letting you sleep in here with shortcake alone you could take her and sneak out," he said and I giggled as I looked at shortcake who was sleeping in her bed
"Then let me sleep on the futon or sleep in a different room," I said as I crossed my legs on his bed
"You already look pretty comfy," he said as he looked at me and I uncrossed my legs
"I'm being serious Kei," I said and he stopped laying out his futon as he looked at me and groaned
"I know you don't like sleeping on futons because they hurt your neck, but if you really want you can go stay in a big scary bedroom all by yourself," he said with a smirk and I got under his covers and laid down on his bed scared as I imagined it
"No, I'm okay," I said and he laughed
"That's what I thought," he said as he continued laying it out until he finished
"You know most Japanese people only sleep on futons," I said and he nodded his head
"I don't know if you can't already tell," he said sarcastically and then paused and looked around his room "but my parents are really Americanised," he carried on as he got set up in his futon
"I used to sleep in a futon because my mom wanted me to embrace my culture but then when I first went to wales and slept in a bed for the first time my life changed," I said and he nodded his head, agreeing with me. He took his glasses off and laid them on his bedside table
"I've always wondered why your room is small and pretty plain compared to the rest of the rooms," I said as I looked down at him as he laid down and tried to get comfortable
"I picked everything, including what room I want," he said and I nodded my head understanding why now
"I should help you decorate," I said as I looked around
He turned off his lamp as he said "no"
"What do you want to do tomorrow?" I whispered
"Whatever you want," He said and I smiled happily
"Really?!" I said excitedly
"If you go to sleep then yes," he said and I giggled
"This is too much pressure, I'm not sure what to do," I said and he sighed
"You can decide tomorrow," He said and I nodded my head even though he wouldn't be able to see
"Night Kei," I said as I yawned
"Goodnight y/n," he said quietly
I turned around in the bed. I stared at the blank wall for what felt like hours, it probably was hours. For some reason, tears started streaming down my face. I knew that I would cry and break down at some point but I really didn't want it to be tonight.
I was sure Tsukishima was asleep so I sighed relieved but the tears wouldn't stop coming. I wiped them away with my hands as I tried to cry quietly.
Why do I have to cry right now?
Why am I even crying
I know why I'm crying but I wish I wasn't
I cried for what felt like forever until suddenly I was interrupted during my crying
"Y/n?" I heard Tsukishima say confused "are you okay?" He said and I turned around in the bed
"What? I'm okay," I managed to say. Tsukishima came into the bed with me and I looked at him confused "I'm okay" I said and he hugged me
"You don't have to lie to me," he said and I broke down even more in his arms. I sobbed and sobbed as he rubbed my back and whispered that it was okay in my ear
"I'm sorry," I said and he didn't say anything as I kept crying
"I'm a really ugly cryer," I said as I covered my face in my hands and he laughed. I slowly managed to calm down as he continued to rub my back. The tears stopped eventually and we stayed in our position for a few minutes
"I should probably-" he said as he began to get out. I grabbed onto his hoodie and shook my head
"Please dont," I said and he nodded his head and relaxed back in the bed. I put my head on his chest and listened to his heartbeat. After a few minutes, I was almost asleep
"Yknow the funniest thing is... Kageyama didn't stop me from liking you," I said tiredly as I yawned. His heartbeat sped up and he stopped rubbing my back, he went completely still as he stayed quiet for a few minutes
"In... what way?" He asked nervously
"I'm not sure," I said and he rubbed my back again
"Go to sleep," He said and before I knew it, I no longer heard his heartbeat as I fell asleep
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I'm REALLY starting to regret writing Y/n with a broken arm LMAO but I must stick with it. I also missed writing Y/n cause it feels like forever since I have.
THANKKS FOR 5K I WENT CRAZY WHEN I SAW, I REMEMBER WHEN THIS BOOK ONLY HAD 6 READERS I KNOW YOU GUYS HAVE HEARD THIS ALL BEFORE BUT IM JUST SO THANKFUL 🫶🏻
Alsooo I updated sooo fast like, GO ME! And go Y/n for telling of Cho I can't wait for her to tell of Kageyama too 🤭 shhh 🤫
I have been planning this chapter for SOOO long this chapter was one of the reasons that the title of the book is the way it is but there is also another meaning to the title
I hope you guys enjoyed the finale of season one part 2 if you did make sure to press the star ⭐️ down below! I would really appreciate it