Draco eventually found his bandages, it's about time.
"Why am I trying to heal it with bandages? I don't deserve to be heals."
He began to put the bandages away as he thought to himself , *people will know if I don't cover it up*
So he took them out again and bandaged himself up. He felt guilty helping himself but he didn't want anyone to find out.
Draco finished and headed to bed, not wanting to sleep he sat there, staring out his window looking at the beautiful star constellations, look at all the images and wishing he could just float up towards the stars to get rid of this so called perfect life.
He fell asleep and was woken up a few hours late by pansy screaming at the top of her lungs, "DRACO NARCISSA MALFOY!" She screamed, as Draco hates being called Draco Lucius Malfoy as he preferred his mother way more, beside the fact he only likes being called Draco Malfoy.
"WHAT WHAT!?" Draco jumped waking up
"WHAT IS THIS!?" She screamed as she angrily walked out of the bathroom holding Draco's bloody bandages and blade
*fuck I didn't put it away*
"Pansy it's not what you think!"
"No it's exactly what I think, Draco I'm sorry for yelling at you but please you know you can't do this your young"
"ONLY YOUNG! PANSY PERSEPHONE PARKINSON YOUVE SEEN WHAT MY FATHER HAS DONE AND YOU EXPECT ME TO NOT DO THIS!?" He screamed out of anger
"Dray I'm sorry alright I didn't realise my words"
"Save it." His tone dropped as he walked past her nudging her shoulder against his roughly and exiting to go to blaise dorm.
...
"Hey she probs didn't mean it Draco"
"Yes blaise I know but God im so furious"
"Draco, breath."
Draco's breath paced up to match his walking bath in fourth in the room before speeding up a lot, he tried to hide it before blaise realised
"Hey Draco come here stop."
Draco's skies over to blaise and started to gesture to him that he couldn't breathe
"Draco listen to me your not like your father. Your nothing like him"
"No I'm exactly like him blaise. I'm just like him except for the fact I'm worthless, pathetic, imbecile, git, I'm utterly useless and a good for nothing Mal-" Draco stuttered fast, before blaise cut him off by saying
"No, stop your nothing like that okay? Your way more then what people see you, look no one has seen the real you but me and pansy, if they saw what we know then they would pitty you and help you"
"Exactly, pitty me, ew don't say that. It makes me feel and look weak" Draco strongly said before standing up and getting his breathe back, this was the easiest panic attack he has ever had. Let alone the quickest.
He exited and went back to his dorm to get dressed into his perfect robes and do his perfect hair.
He stood there staring in the mirror before practicing his amazing comebacks for when potter would say something, he does it usually about once a week to make sure he is still the potter-hating worthless Malfoy his father thinks he is.
"Alright. I'm ready" he said to himself before taking a huge breath and walking out the bathroom door and out of his dorm, he met with pansy and blaise in the common room and they all walked to the great hall for breakfast, Draco's confidence was incredible for what he goes through every day. He walked through the doors standing tall in the centre of his trio.
They walked confidently over to the Slytherins table before they started to laugh and get there food. Draco, not wanting to show people how he doesn't eat, he grabbed a green apple from off the table and hit into it, this was the only pice of food he could eat without throwing it up.
"Eat." Pansy demanded in a whisper voice only he would hear
"Rather be caught dead." He whispered in the same tone as pansy
As he got up and exited the hall. This was the usual time he would leave, he does this to go to the library to have the last half an hour reading.
He was looking for a good book and picked one up about potions and began to read. He was later disturbed by no other then potter and granger. Ron was still eating.
"Malfoy?"
"Potter."
"Why are you here?"
"Well potter if you must know im reading"
"Well yes that's quite obvious"
"Shut it granger"
"Shove off Malfoy"
"Hey, you came up to me and started talking to me so quit the attitude"
"Sorry to be a bother"
"Ok granger make your way away from me"
Hermione stared at him before leaving and looking for her book while harry just date stood there.
"What are you doing" Draco asked as he brought the book away from his face and tilted his head slightly down maintain eye contact.
"N-nothing Malfoy"
"Carry on with your walk" he said as his eyes flicked to the side and he gestured him his head quickly and raised an eyebrow to start walking.
"Right" harry said as he walked away scratching the back of his neck and went over to hermione.
...
"Bloody potter"
"That's a bit cute"
"Cute? Ew no pansy don't ever,"
"He's so into you"
"I would rather cut myself again"
"Dray I know your love joking about cutting yourself because it helps you cope but it's not good"
"That's a bit cute"
"Hey you can't use my lines!"
"Whatever pansy" they chuckled as Blaise walked in and they told him what happened
"Haha, that's a bit cute"
"That's what I said!"
"Ugh ew"
"Sorry dray" he chucked "here" he said chucking a whole basket of green apples to the apple loving ferret "just as you asked"
"Blaise"
"Pansy you told me to eat, this is all I can eat, one a week and I feel full for 2 weeks you should be glad I eat once a week,"
"Your right dray I am glad but darling you need to eat more then once a week, it's good though because eating once ever 2 months was worse"
"I can go back to that if I wanted to. Nothing stopping me but you forcing me to eat an apple"
I felt like throwing up at the thought of food
"Draco just stop"
...
It had been a few days later and a report was going around that pansy had gotten seriously hurt,
"PANSY" a curtain blonde screamed as he ran to the hospital wing, almost in tears.
"She's unconscious dear" the nurse spoke
"NO PANSY PLEASE IM SORRY ITS MY FAULT I SHOULD HAVE BEEN THERE TO PROTECT YOU IM SORRY" Draco broke down. Harry was walking past and heard everything.
"I'm sorry Malfoy, you must leave for a bit, we need to heal her a bit"
Draco didn't want to see the sight of his best friend on the verge of dying so he ran out covering his eyes, he didn't even realise harry was staring there and bumped into him, not even looking at the raven haired boy he pushed him out of the way and ran to loaning Myrtles bathroom, harry followed but made sure Draco couldn't see him.
"Draco!" Myrtle spoke happy to see him then realise he was crying
"Oh no Draco, what happens this time?"
*this time?* Harry thought
"S-she might die myrtle! And it's all my fault"
"Why is that?"
"I wasn't there to protect her!"
"It's not your fault dear"
"Yes it was, I'm worthless, useless, pathetic, imbecile, good for nothing git, im a Malfoy for Merlin sakes!" He screamed in a low voice
"Now Draco that's not true-"
"I should just die, I should milk myself right here right now" he was going insane, draco was acting psycho,
"Now draco calm down you don't want to do that" myrtle freaked out seeing draco go crazy
Harry ran in and saw Draco holding a blade about to his his best as Harry grabbed it and fought draco to get it off him
"Please harry help him!"
"I've heard what he said."
Harry won and draco broke down crying at his pathetic attempt.
"Harry give it back!" He demanded
"No! I won't let you"
"why do you care!"
"Look malfoy I don't know about everything but I do know this isn't the best option!"
"MY FATHER WOULD BE PROUD IF HE GOT AN OWL FROM THE SCHOOL SAYING I KILLED MYSELF!"
hearing this Harry's heart broke.
"What?"
"nothing potter nothing" Draco said fixating his robes and hair the smiled, he walked out and went towards the tower
*Merlin he was crazy, WAIT HE IS GINNA JUMP*
Harry ran after him and saw Draco was running up the stairs but pansy was behind him, *I thought she was in the hospital*
"DRAY STOP IT!" Pansy screamed as Harry just reached the top of the tower and looked at Draco and pansy
"I have to pans, if I don't my father would just kill me anyways,"
"No Draco, yes I know he abuses you and uses the CRUCIO spell on your 3 times a day, and you cut your self and your traumatised, but please"
"Look pans, what ever it takes to be a Malfoy, I did whatever it took to be a Malfoy but it wasn't enough,"
Pansy managed to get him away from the edge and she sat him on the floor with him and they talked.
She had him head layed in her lap and Harry felt jealous? Why...
This was new for Harry, he felt really weird, he had never felt like this before.
This was a long chapter and I will be making longer chapters in the future aswell! Hope you enjoyed this as much as I enjoyed writing this. Next update will be tomorrow I assure you.
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