This has sexual content it in. If you don't like that stuff please skip this chapter and move on to the third one.
I had to put it in here somehow and to get the point acrost about how awkward it was I had to write a sexual scene. So please skip this chapter if you hate that stuff.
Read on guys.
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"You don't have to do this for me." Aubrey said sadly standing in my doorway.
I was laying on my bed looking at my ceiling waiting for somebody to come talk to me about it but I didn't want to talk about it. I didn't see why I should. I was doing this and nobody was changing my mind. I didn't want to but Aubrey was too young to have a baby, and even though we'd all help her I wasn't going to take the risk of anything happening to her.
"Come here." I said sliding to the side of my bed to give her room to lay down.
She walked herself over gracefully and laid down next to me. Her blonde hair spread out, tangling in with my black hair making it look awesome. I had my arm above her head as she looked over at me. She looked so young and it made me sad that they even thought about making her go through this.
"Aubrey i'm not going to let anything happen to you. I'm doing this to protect you." I explained.
"Ramona, I don't want anything to happen to you either. I don't want what happened to Courtney to happen to you." She said letting a tear fall down her cheek.
I wiped her tear away and sighed a little before playing with strands of her hair to calm her down. I didn't want Aubrey to be thinking badly about it. I was only doing it to protect her. She needed to understand that.
"I'll be fine. Don't worry. I have an amazing sister who is going to help me through it." I smiled at her.
"So when are you and River going to, you know. Do it." She asked blushing a little bit.
"I have no idea. I didn't really ask." I frowned.
"Isn't it going to be awkward since you guys don't even know eachother?" She asked scrunching her nose at me.
"Yeah it's going to be really awkward. I don't doubt it." I frowned.
"Maybe they'll just make him ejaculate into a jar then we can take a turkey baseter and shove it up there." She laughed.
We laid there laughing for a while. I hadn't even gotten to how weird it was going to be for me and River to actually do it. I didn't take the time to think about it. I just accepted the offer to protect Aubrey. I was having second thoughts but I couldn't back out. This needed to happen, and it was either me or Aubrey.
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"Are you worried?" River asked standing next to me awkwardly.
"More like nervous." I said gulping down as we stood only feet away from the bed.
I stared at it like it was going to burst into flames at any moment now. I wasn't sure if I wanted to do this. I'm a virgin, and of course I knew by now that River had to be my mate, it was still nerve wrecking. It wasn't supposed to happen like this. Having a child was supposed to be when you were married, far from this. And my family deffinatly wasn't supposed to be planning when I got pregnant and by who.
"We don't have to do this." He said stepping away from me.
"River, we have to." I demanded turning to look at him.
I felt like I should kiss him but I didn't know if I should make the first move or if he should. What was it going to be like? Especially since we barely knew eachother. Was it going to be this awkward the whole time?
"I mean we could wait, we have a while but I umm, Nate said we should probably do it soon." He said gulping down.
I knew he wanted to I just wanted sure if I wanted to. I knew that I was doing this to help my pack and to help my family. I wasn't just sleeping with some random guy, it was more like I was helping so my family wouldn't get hurt or die any time soon.
"Well, let's do it." I said pulling my shirt off.
I looked over at him as he started to strip himself down nude. I felt self consious with him looking at me as I pulled my pants off. Standing in my bra and panties as he played with the button on his pants. It was definatly awkward. He knew it, I knew it, even the bed knew it. This was awkward.
I decieded that he wasn't going to make the first move. I had to do it, so I walked over to him wrapping my arms around his neck and smiling at him. He smiled down at me as electric sparks shot up my body. I wanted him to touch me and do things to me. I knew he was mine, he had to be. He was mine forever but it wasn't supposed to be like this.
"Ramona I..We..." He began but I cut him off by grabbing the back of his hair and bringing his lips down onto mine.
His lips fit perfectly onto mine and I knew that he wanted it. I could feel it as I pressed my body against him, if you know what I mean. I kept on kissing him, allowing him to suck on my top lip as I backed up against his bed. I sat down, pulling him down with me.
He seemed really hesitant but placed himself between my legs as I laid back on the bed. He hovered over me, as I felt down his toned body. He still seemed hesitant, like maybe he didn't want it. Was I unattrative? Did he not like me?
The tingle in my body were taking over my train of thought as he started kissing down my neck instead of kissing me. I felt really uncomfortable but I wanted him to keep going. I loved the tingles I got from him being on me. I didn't want him to get off but I knew sleeping with him wasn't what I wanted. I didn't want to just stop though. I kept in my mind that it was for my family, for my pack.
I pushed his boxers down, letting him know that I wanted to get this going. I was egar to get this over with. He smirked against my neck and lifted himself, pulling his boxers off and kicking them off behind him. I felt down and was shocked at his length. I knew it was going to hurt, but was it going to hurt as much as everybody else said it would?
He pulled at my panties, as I leaned up and unclipped my bra, pulling it off. He smiled as he started sucking on my nipples, causing me to finally moan. I was starting to feel more comfortable as he continued to rub his hand on my inner thigh while his mouth was occupied with my boobs.
"Mmm River." I moaned as I pushed my hips up against him.
He tugged my panties off, and threw them acrost the room. The awkwardness was barely there at this point and I could tell he was more comfortable with this now. And so was I.
He pushed his lips back onto mine, and he let his tongue take over the kiss. I let him control my mouth as his hands stayed on my hands, keeping them pinned to the bed as he rubbed his hips against me between my legs. I felt myself getting arroused and I wanted it. I pulled at the back of his hair and lifted my hips against him to let him know that I wanted it to happen.
He smiled against my lips as he pushed his member into me. Only pushing in a little to see how I would react. It didn't hurt yet but the more he pushed in the more uncomfortable it got. I flinched in pain as he reached my point. He could tell he was hurting me and stopped pushing it. He pulled his lips away from me to look down at me. My eyes were closed tightly, and my body was tenced up.
"Open your eyes." He demanded in his alpha tone.
My eyes shot open and stared at him as he looked down at me with a pained expression on his face.
"You're a virgin aren't you?" He frowned.
"You aren't?" I asked.
He ignored my question and began pulling himself out of me. That really showed how little I knew him. I didn't want to take the risk of him not finishing what we started and ruining everything. I grabbed his hair and pulled him back down on my body, pressing us together. The tingles were more intence now and I loved it! I wanted River wither it was now or ten years from now. I just wanted him to keep touching me. I brought my lips up onto his, and bit down on his bottom lip.
"Ramona.." He hesitated.
I kept on kissing him, letting my tongue take over as I reached down, grabbing his member and gently pulling him more towards me to push more in. He hesitated for a second making me angry and impatient. I squeezed gently, and tugged him forward. He pushed in more, making me whimper in pain against his mouth.
It stung quite a bit. I almost wanted him to stop but I wasn't going to tell him that. I tenced up my body and tried to keep my eyes open but it was hard considering that it was painful.
"Oww." I whispered as I clung my legs around him and pushed my hips up to push him more in.
He didn't seem to like it because he pushed my hips down and tried to stop me. Why wasn't he trying? Did he not understand how important this is?
"I'm hurting you." He said sadly.
"Just do it River!" I demanded.
He took my words seriously and pushed himself in more. He started moving his hips back and forth quickly. It hurt for a while but after a while it started to feel better. I clung to his back, scratching down as he continued to push himself in.
"Harder." I moaned as he pushed even harder into me.
The pain was gone and I was finally enjoying myself. He pushed faster and harder as his eyes rolled into the back of his head. I could tell it felt great to him. He slowed down after a little bit breathing heavily right into my face. He bent over and kissed me, continuing to make out with me, our tongues wrestling with eachother.
I was always in control of any situation so I figured i'd feel more comfortable on top of him. I pulled my hips away from him, and not letting his lips leave mine. I sat on my knees, and pushed him so he was laying on his back, out lips still connected.
I got on top of him and pushed him back inside of me. He gripped onto my butt and groaned against my mouth as I started pushing myself up and down. He pulled his lips away from mine and laid his head back, letting himself relax.
The intence pleasure filled my body as I moved quickly on top of him. His body tenced up as he dug his nails into my butt almost breaking skin. He pushed me down onto his member, pushing it in as far as he could. I whimpered a little making him flinch a little but he continued to pull me down on top of him.
"I can't h-hold it." He warned as he pushed his hips up against me to push it in more.
I didn't want it to end. My body felt amazing with him under me, and doing this with him made me feel connected to someone. He thrusted his hips up making me moan out in pleasure as he ripped at my hips.
"You like this?" I asked seductively as I pushed down even harder.
"Fuck." He managed to say as he pushed himself up.
"Come for me River." I whispered.
I felt his hands pushing me down, making me moan with even more pleasure into his ear. He breathed heavily into mine as he continued to push me down onto his member than throbbed inside of me.
"Here we go." He groaned as I felt his body tence up insanely bad.
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I heard him groaning into my ear as he realeased himself inside of me. He went from tence to relaxed as I laid there on top of him.
The process began.