Tae's POV
(Not edited)
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It's been weeks since I've spoken to mia or even left the house I've been inside trying to figure out how to get her back it's obvious she doesn't want me back
My father has been calling me but I've been ignoring them my friends have been trying to reach me but if I don't see her name on the screen I'm not picking up I absolutely loved her
"So why did you cheat,?" My subconscious asks
I still don't know that
Oh well you never know what you have until you lose it huh?
Yeah
I sigh laying on the bed staring up at the ceiling my eyes focus on nothing but the fan spinning is blurry as I stare blankly at the ceiling
I feel so drained and tired mentally and emotionally I haven't eaten in days to mention the state of my body physically I just can't seem to find the motivation to get out of bed
All I want is just for her to come back to me if I could apologize to her and fix us I would but she made it clear she doesn't want anything else to do with me
It hurts me thinking about how much we shared and how it's all gone in a blink of the eye
I shouldn't have cheated it was just in the heat of the moment I hate the fact that I let whatever happened between me and brit happen regarding everything she did to me
Yet I fell into her subduction and her web of lies and deception. It was so beautiful yet painful the outcome of the whole situation
I have to get over her eventually but I just can't seem to get the way she looked at me when she found out what I did
The way her eyes dimmed with disappointment made my heart ache the way her smile faded the second she say me and brit
I hated the way her eyes was filled with love slowly change to hatred. How her body language closed off from me from being open and happy to cold and disgusted
It's not my fault entirely it takes two to tango...
"But you could've said no," my subconscious taunts
You're right
"But you didn't," he says shaking his head disappointedly
I know
If I could do anything to reverse time I would but I can't because what is done is already done
I loved her I wanted a future with her everything there was to have but now she's gone and it's all my fault
I just wished it wasn't how it is I wish I could change everything I wish she would pick up the phone I wish she didn't find out I wish I hadn't did what I did to her
I just wish I could do this all over again....but too bad for me it's not possible so I have to live with the consequences of my own actions
I blamed british for the whole situation when it happened but I had to realize that I gave consent to her so it's both of our faults
If I just had said no or not bring her to my house all if this wouldn't have happened and I'd still have mia in my arms in my life and here right now with me
The sound of a cough echoes in the silent room the feeling of my chest rising and falling made me realize it left my lips the feeling intensifies when a abrupt sharp pain stings me
I cough again and again and again my body tingles and a wave of nausea hits me I can't move my body due to the fact I've been laying in this position for over 3 days I haven't moved or said anything
I know you're wondering didn't you shower or didn't you have to use the bathroom?
Well yeah I did but I didn't move
(Forth wall broken huh? 🙃)
Everything becomes blurry and my body starts feeling cold my legs losing momentum my mouth waters but the taste is bitter
My eyes closes involuntarily as my cough became more violent I find myself gasping for air
What's happening to me
You're body is shutting down the brain is signalling to the rest of the body that it's dying slowly
But I'm not ready to die I have so much to do and accomplish I just can't die yet
**Flashback begins**
"ꜱʜᴀᴠ,!" ᴍᴏᴍᴍʏ ꜱʜᴏᴜᴛꜱ ꜰʀᴏᴍ ᴛʜᴇ ᴋɪᴛᴄʜᴇɴ
"ᴍɪ ᴀ ᴄᴏᴍᴇ," ɪ ꜱᴀʏ ʜɪꜱꜱɪɴɢ ᴍʏ ᴛᴇᴇᴛʜ ʟᴏᴏᴋɪɴɢ ᴜᴘ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴋʏ
ᴡʜʏ ᴅᴀʜ ʟᴀᴅʏ ʏᴀʜ ꜱᴏ ᴀɴɴᴏʏɪɴɢ ᴅᴀᴡɢ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏꜱ ᴀ ᴄᴀʟʟ ᴍɪ ɴᴀᴍᴇ ᴊᴀʜ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴀ ᴍᴇ ᴀʟᴏɴᴇ ʟɪᴠᴇ ɪɴɴᴀ ᴅɪ ʜᴏᴜꜱᴇ?
ɪ ꜱɪɢʜ ᴡᴀʟᴋɪɴɢ ᴀʀᴏᴜɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴋɪᴛᴄʜᴇɴ ᴅᴏᴏʀ ᴇɴᴛᴇʀɪɴɢ ɪ ꜱᴀᴡ ʜᴇʀ ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ ꜰʟᴏᴏʀ
ᴡᴀɪᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ʜᴀᴘᴘᴇɴᴇᴅ
ᴘᴀɴɪᴄ ꜰɪʟʟᴇᴅ ᴍʏ ʙᴏᴅʏ ᴀꜱ ɪ ꜱᴀᴡ ʙʟᴏᴏᴅ. ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ᴅɪᴅ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ꜰʀᴏᴍ? ᴡʜᴀᴛ ʜᴀᴘᴘᴇɴᴇᴅ ɪꜱ ꜱʜᴇ ʜᴜʀᴛ?
ꜱᴏ ᴍᴀɴʏ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛꜱ ʀᴜɴɴɪɴɢ ᴛʜʀᴏᴜɢʜ ᴍʏ ʙʀᴀɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴʟʏ ᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴏɴ ᴍʏ ᴍɪɴᴅ ɪꜱ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ꜱᴜʀᴇ ꜱʜᴇ'ꜱ ᴀʟʀɪɢʜᴛ
ɪ ʀᴜꜱʜ ᴏᴠᴇʀ ᴛᴏ ʜᴇʀ ᴛᴀᴋɪɴɢ ʜᴇʀ ʜᴀɴᴅ ɪ ʟᴏᴏᴋᴇᴅ ꜰʀᴀɴᴛɪᴄᴀʟʟʏ ꜰᴏʀ ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ʙʟᴏᴏᴅ ɪꜱ ᴄᴏᴍɪɴɢ ꜰʀᴏᴍ
"ᴍᴏᴍᴍʏ ᴡᴀʜ ʜᴀᴘᴘᴇɴ? ʏᴜʜ ᴀʟʀɪɢʜᴛ,?" ɪ ꜱᴀʏ ɪɴ ᴀ ᴘᴀɴɪᴄ
ꜱʜᴇ ꜱᴛᴀʀᴛꜱ ᴄᴏᴜɢʜɪɴɢ ᴀɴᴅ ʙʟᴏᴏᴅ ʙᴇɢɪɴꜱ ᴛᴏ ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏꜰ ʜᴇʀ ᴍᴏᴜᴛʜ
ɴᴏ ɴᴏ ᴘʟᴇᴀꜱᴇ ɢᴏᴅ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ʜᴇʀ
ʀᴜꜱʜɪɴɢ ɪ ꜱᴛʀᴜɢɢʟᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ᴍʏ ᴘʜᴏɴᴇ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴍʏ ᴘᴏᴄᴋᴇᴛ ᴘʀᴇꜱꜱɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴜᴛᴛᴏɴꜱ ʙᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ʙʟᴏᴏᴅ ꜰʀᴏᴍ ᴛᴏᴜᴄʜɪɴɢ ᴍʏ ᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴡᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴀʟʟᴏᴡ ᴍᴇ
ɪ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴅᴏᴡɴ ᴛᴏ ꜱᴇᴇ ʙʟᴏᴏᴅ ᴘᴏᴏʟɪɴɢ ᴏᴜᴛ ʜᴇʀ ᴍᴏᴜᴛʜ ɪ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ᴛᴇᴀʀꜱ ꜱᴛʀᴇᴀᴍɪɴɢ ᴅᴏᴡɴ ᴍʏ ꜰᴀᴄᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ꜰɪʀꜱᴛ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ɪ ᴄʀɪᴇᴅ ʟɪᴋᴇ ɪ'ᴠᴇ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴄʀɪᴇᴅ ʙᴇꜰᴏʀᴇ ɪɴ ᴀʟʟ ᴍʏ 17 ʏᴇᴀʀꜱ ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴇᴀʀᴛʜ
ᴡɪᴘɪɴɢ ᴍʏ ʜᴀɴᴅꜱ ᴏɴ ᴍʏ ᴡʜɪᴛᴇ ꜱʜɪʀᴛ ᴡʜɪᴄʜ ɪꜱ ɴᴏᴡ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʀᴇᴅ ᴘᴀᴛᴄʜᴇꜱ ɪ ᴅɪᴀʟᴇᴅ ᴍʏ ꜰᴀᴛʜᴇʀ'ꜱ ʙᴇꜱᴛ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅ ɴᴜᴍʙᴇʀ
ʏᴏ
ᴜɴᴄʟᴇ ꜱʜᴇ'ꜱ ᴅʏɪɴɢ
ᴡᴀʜ
ᴍɪ ᴍᴀᴅᴀ ᴍɪ ɴᴏ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ʙᴜᴛ ꜱʜᴇ- ᴀɴᴅ ʙʟᴏᴏᴅ ʙᴜᴛ ꜱʜᴇ ɴᴀʜ ʙʀᴇᴀᴛʜᴇ ᴍɪ ɴᴏ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴡᴇʜ ꜰɪ ᴅᴏ
ᴀʟʀɪɢʜᴛ ᴍɪ ᴀ ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ʀɴ
ɪ ᴛᴏꜱꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘʜᴏɴᴇ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ʜᴜɢɢɪɴɢ ᴍʏ ᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴀꜱ ꜱʜᴇ ʟᴀʏꜱ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ꜱᴛᴀʀɪɴɢ ᴀᴛ ɴᴏᴛʜɪɴɢ ɪɴ ᴘᴀʀᴛɪᴄᴜʟᴀʀ ᴄʜᴇᴄᴋɪɴɢ ʜᴇʀ ᴘᴜʟꜱᴇ ɪ ꜱᴀᴡ ꜱʜᴇ'ꜱ ꜱᴛɪʟʟ ʙʀᴇᴀᴛʜɪɴɢ
ɪ ʟᴏᴡᴇʀᴇᴅ ᴍʏ ʜᴇᴀᴅ ꜱɴɪꜰꜰʟɪɴɢ ɪ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴀ ᴀ ʙɪᴛᴄʜ ʀɪɢʜᴛ ɴᴏᴡ ᴄʀʏɪɴɢ ʙᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴀᴛ'ꜱ ᴏᴋ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴛɪᴍᴇꜱ
ʜᴏʟᴅɪɴɢ ᴏɴᴛᴏ ᴍʏ ᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ'ꜱ ʜᴀɴᴅ ɪ ꜱᴛᴀʀᴛᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴘʀᴀʏ
ɢᴏᴅ ᴍɪ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴍɪ ᴀɴᴏ ᴅɪ ʙᴇꜱᴛ ᴘᴇʀꜱᴏɴ ɴᴏʀ ᴍɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ ᴀ ʀɪɢʜᴛᴇᴏᴜꜱ ʟɪꜰᴇ ʙᴜᴛ ᴍɪ ᴀ ʙᴇɢ ʏᴜʜ ᴀꜱ ᴀ ᴜᴛᴇ ᴡᴇʜ ɴᴏ ᴡᴀʜ ʟᴏꜱᴇ ʜɪᴍ ᴍᴀᴅᴀ ᴘʟᴇᴀꜱᴇ ɴᴏ ᴍᴇᴋ ᴅɪꜱ ʙᴇ ᴅɪ ʟᴀꜱᴛ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ᴍɪ ᴀɢᴏ ꜱᴇᴇ ʜᴀʀ ᴏʀ ʜᴇᴀʀ ʜᴀʀ ᴏʀ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ɢᴇᴛ ꜰɪ ꜱᴘᴇɴᴅ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ᴡɪᴅ ʜᴀʀ ɪꜰ ᴍɪ ᴄᴏᴜʟᴅᴀ ᴛᴇᴋ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴍɪ ᴅᴏ ᴍɪ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅᴀ ᴅᴡᴇᴇᴛ ᴘʟᴇᴀꜱᴇ ᴍɪ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴍɪ ᴀɴᴏ ɢᴏᴏᴅ ᴜᴛᴇ ʙᴜᴛ ᴍɪ ᴀ ᴛʀʏ ɪꜰ ʏᴜʜ ꜱᴀᴠᴇ ᴍɪ ᴍᴀᴅᴀ ᴍɪ ᴅᴏ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ʏᴜʜ ᴡᴀʜ ᴍɪ ʟɪꜱᴛᴇɴ ᴛᴏ ʜᴇʀ ᴀɴᴅ ʙᴇ ᴀ ʙᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ ꜱᴏɴ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴘʟᴇᴀꜱᴇ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴛᴇᴋ ʜᴀʀ
ɪ ꜱɪɢʜ ʜᴇᴀʀɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ ᴀᴍʙᴜʟᴀɴᴄᴇ ꜱɪʀᴇɴ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴘᴏʟɪᴄᴇ
"ꜱʜᴀᴠ ꜱʜᴀᴠ," ᴜɴᴄʟᴇ ᴍɪɴᴛ ꜱʜᴏᴜᴛꜱ
"ᴅᴇʜ ɪɴ ʏᴀꜱꜱᴏ," ɪ ꜱʜᴏᴜᴛ ʙᴀᴄᴋ
ᴀ ɢʀᴏᴜᴘ ᴏꜰ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ʀᴜꜱʜ ɪɴ ᴛᴏᴡᴀʀᴅꜱ ᴜꜱ ᴛᴡᴏ ᴍᴇɴ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ᴜᴘ ᴍʏ ᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴡʜᴏꜱᴇ ᴇʏᴇꜱ ᴀʀᴇ ɴᴏᴡ ᴄʟᴏꜱɪɴɢ
"ᴍᴏᴍᴍʏ ᴍᴏᴍᴍʏ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ʏᴜʜ ᴇʏᴇꜱ ᴏᴘᴇɴ," ɪ ꜱᴀʏ ʜᴏʟᴅɪɴɢ ʜᴇʀ ʜᴀɴᴅ
"ᴡʜʏ ꜱʜᴇ ᴀ ᴄʟᴏꜱᴇ ʜᴀʀ ᴇʏᴇꜱ,?" ɪ ᴀꜱᴋ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴇᴅɪᴄ
"ʜᴇʀ ᴘᴜʟꜱᴇ ɪꜱ ᴅɪꜱɪɴᴛᴇɢʀᴀᴛɪɴɢ Qᴜɪᴄᴋʟʏ ᴍᴏᴠᴇ Qᴜɪᴄᴋ," ᴏɴᴇ ꜱᴀɪᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ. ᴛʜᴇʏ ʀᴜꜱʜᴇᴅ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴡɪᴛʜ ɪ ᴛʀɪᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ꜰᴏʟʟᴏᴡ ʙᴜᴛ ᴜɴᴄʟᴇ ᴍɪɴᴛ ɢʀᴀʙꜱ ᴍᴇ
"ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ɢᴏ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʜᴇʀ," ʜᴇ ꜱᴀʏꜱ
"ʙᴜᴛ-ɪ,' ɪ ꜱᴀʏ
"ꜱʜᴇ ᴀɢᴏ ʙᴇ ᴀʟʀɪɢʜᴛ ʀɪɢʜᴛ,?" ɪ ꜱᴀʏ ʜʏᴘᴇʀᴠᴇɴᴛɪʟᴀᴛɪɴɢ
"ʙʀᴇᴀᴛʜᴇ ʙʀᴇᴀᴛʜᴇ," ᴍɪɴᴛ ꜱᴀʏꜱ ʀᴜʙʙɪɴɢ ᴍʏ ʙᴀᴄᴋ
ɪ ꜰᴀʟʟ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ɢʀᴏᴜɴᴅ ɢᴀꜱᴘɪɴɢ ꜰᴏʀ ᴀɪʀ,ᴍɪɴᴛ ꜱɪᴛꜱ ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ ꜰʟᴏᴏʀ ʙᴇꜱɪᴅᴇ ᴍᴇ ʜᴜɢɢɪɴɢ ᴍᴇ ɪ ʟᴀʏ ᴏɴ ʜɪꜱ ᴄʜᴇꜱᴛ ᴄʀʏɪɴɢ
"ꜱʜᴇ ᴄʏᴀ ᴅᴇᴀᴅ ᴘᴏɴ ᴍɪ ɴᴏᴡ ᴍɪ ɴᴀᴠᴇ ɴᴏʙᴏᴅʏ ᴇʟꜱᴇ ʙᴜᴛ ᴍᴇ," ɪ ꜱᴀʏ ᴄʀʏɪɴɢ
"ꜱʜᴇ ɴᴀʜ ɢᴏ ᴅᴇᴀᴅ ᴜᴛᴇ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴡᴜʟʟ ꜰᴀɪᴛʜ ɴᴏ," ʜᴇ ꜱᴀʏꜱ
**End of flashback**
I remember how broken I felt when she died how it hurt everything that happened
Right now it feels like I'm reliving the past again this hurts more than when brit did what she did to me
Everything feels so blurry the memories of the times we spent together the way she made me feel, how she loved me and took care of me
It's been almost a week yet it feels like forever she left me driving away in that car but it's all my fault huh why would she had stay knowing what I did
I should've just told her everything but I made her find out like that what's wrong with me
Imagine how she felt when she found out imagine how her heart broke I just wished I could do it over
I sigh feeling pity of myself I try to move my body but it wouldn't every move I make my body hurt
After five minutes I manage to get out of bed I drag myself to the bathroom looking in the mirror I sighed
"Yuh look like dog vomit g," my subconscious says
Geez thanks
"Just eh truth," he says rolling his eyes
I sigh turning on the tap I wash my face the evident of me not sleeping shows with the bags under my eyes. The red color of my eyes shows how much sleep I didn't get
I look at the shower thinking if I want to or not
"Bredda yuh smell like hog pen go bade frowny," my inner self says covering his nose
Damn yah deal wid mi so?
Deciding to shower I take my clothes off going inside the shower I turn it on feeling the hot sensation trickling down my back I sigh
After showering I got dressed
Turning back on my phone I waited until it loaded up back
The sound of notifications causes my phone to shake hard in my hand
Notifications on top of notifications comes in one after the other my phone shakes even harder
Well damn
After fifteen minutes it stops a whole fifteen minutes a so much notifications I got damn
Ignoring everything I look at the time on my watch 11:pm one hour left until visiting hours are over
I take up my wallet putting it in my back pocket and my keys in my hand heading out
Looks like he's going to get his way after all
Mia's POV
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It's been a week since everything happened and I still can't seem to wrap my head around anything
I can't believe I feel for him I can't believe I trusted him gave him my everything just for him to cheat on me with her who I found out that is his ex
He didn't even mention her the pass months we dated not once and she just comes back and ruin everything
She ruined our relationship such a homewrecker
𝑯𝒐𝒍𝒅 𝒐𝒏 𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒎𝒆𝒎𝒃𝒂 𝒊𝒕 𝒕𝒂𝒌𝒆𝒔 𝒕𝒘𝒐 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒐 𝒊𝒇 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒂 𝒐𝒑𝒆𝒏 𝒆𝒉 𝒅𝒐𝒐𝒓 𝒇𝒊 𝒉𝒂𝒓 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅𝒏'𝒕 𝒘𝒓𝒆𝒄𝒌 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒊𝒇 𝒊𝒕 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒂 𝒔𝒆𝒄𝒖𝒓𝒆 𝒊𝒏𝒏𝒂 𝒆𝒉 𝒇𝒊𝒓𝒔𝒕 𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒄𝒆
You right but she knew he had a girlfriend why she sleep wid him?
𝑾𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒅𝒊𝒅 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒂 𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒐𝒐 𝒘𝒉𝒚 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒂 𝒔𝒆𝒉 𝒏𝒐?
I-
𝑳𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒏 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒇𝒊 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒃𝒍𝒂𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒐𝒐 𝒄𝒂𝒛 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒅𝒊𝒅 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒖𝒏𝒖𝒉 𝒅𝒆𝒉 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒎𝒆𝒌 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒂 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒚𝒂𝒓𝒅 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅𝒂 𝒔𝒆𝒉 𝒏𝒐 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒐𝒇𝒇𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒔𝒆𝒙 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒊𝒅𝒏'𝒕 𝒔𝒐 𝒏𝒐 𝒃𝒍𝒂𝒎𝒆 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒂𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝑰 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅𝒂 𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒌𝒍𝒆 𝒅𝒆𝒄𝒆𝒏𝒄𝒚 𝒇𝒊 𝒔𝒆𝒉 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒂 𝒐𝒐𝒎𝒂𝒏 𝒎𝒂𝒚𝒃𝒆 𝒎𝒊 𝒇𝒊 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒃𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒊𝒅𝒏'𝒕 𝒔𝒐 𝒂 𝒆𝒉 𝒕𝒘𝒐 𝒂 𝒅𝒆𝒎 𝒇𝒂𝒖𝒍𝒕
You're right I'm sorry mi deven know why mi a blame har like if him neva seh yeah she couldn't get di chance she did
Weh hurt mi even more a di fact him breed har out of everything he got her pregnant
Then he tries to apologize like it could change anything an apologize doesn't make up for getting your ex pregnant
I can't believe I trusted him it hurts so bad thinking about everything
My phone rings bringing me out of my thoughts
Looking at my phone I saw a group call from Steph and Sam I've been ignoring everyone since the incident I just can't deal with anybody right now I'm currently at my house I left mari's house the next day after everything happened I couldn't be around anyone
Deciding to ignore the call I sigh tossing the phone somewhere
The one time I fell for someone he did this to me I'm never falling in love again
"𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐞𝐬𝐧'𝐭 𝐡𝐮𝐫𝐭 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐢𝐭'𝐬 𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐮𝐢𝐧𝐞 𝐈𝐟 𝐢𝐭 𝐡𝐮𝐫𝐭𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐬𝐧'𝐭 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞" -kaylabia
I haven't left the room in days barely gotten outta bed at all I haven't eaten in days and it doesn't affect me I'm not sure why
Everything feels like too much I just want to kill myself
The thought of dying has been on my mind alot lately I'm not sure why
It hurts so bad I can still feel the pain of finding out he cheated deep down my chest hurts so bad
When you can feel your heart breaking when you see or hear something that hurts
My chest felt like it was shattered into pieces when I heard she was pregnant with his child
We wanted to start a family that should be been me not her
But I guess stuff happen for a reason
The sound of footsteps coming up the stairs startle me
It doesn't sound like mari because he steps heavy it can't be tae caz well you know and only two other person has access to the house other than my parents who won't be back until next month so it's-
"Girl look how long we a call yuh," Steph says walking in with sam behind her
"How inna yasso so dark and a wah smell so," Sam says opening the blinds and the windows
The sun light piercing my eyes I squint covering them
"Mia yuh room is a mess," Steph says taking stuff up off the floor
I keep quiet saying nothing I open my eyes looking around at them clean up my room
"Yuh know yuh supposed to come to graduation practice and prefect meeting yuh miss all a dat," sam says walking into the bathroom putting the clothes in the laundry basket
"Girl mi call yuh pon app and straight call how much time," steph says sweeping up the garbage off the floor into the bin
"Call till mi credit dun buy another and it dun too," Steph continues saying
After two minutes the messy room looks clean as ever
They sit on the bed beside me I stare at them
"Mia you're hair is a mess you look like you haven't been sleeping nothing at all," Sam says holding my hand
"Mia talk to us we're worried you haven't said a word since we've been here," Steph says
"Oh no mia don't cry," Sam says using her thumb to wipe my tears
I didn't realize I was crying
"You don't have to talk if you don't want to," Sam says
"Yeah it's alright," Steph says getting up to hug me sam joins too
"He cheated and got her pregnant," I say but it comes out as a whisper
They pull away mouth hanging with shock expression changes to disgust after a minute
"Him do wah,?" Sam shouts angrily
"Mi cya believe this," Steph says shaking her head
"After everything you did for him," Steph says getting up
"Wid who mi know di gyal,?" Sam says
"Girl just seh di word and mi page har now now," Sam says
"Mi cya believe him cheat pon yuh and worst get har pregnant," steph says pacing around the room
I sit there staring at the wall tears streaming down my face i cough
Sam and Steph now looking at me I cough again and again and again
Until my chest feels like it's tightening up I hold my chest wheezing my vision becomes blurry
Steph rushes over to me, sam runs to the bathroom coming back with my inhaler
Putting it into my mouth she pushes down on the top telling me to inhale
After a minute my breathing began to go back to normal they hugged me as I cried
I'm such a mess I hate that they have to see me like this
After a minute they pulled away
"It's alright mia we're always here for you," steph says
"We ago always deh ya fi yuh," Sam says wiping my face
I say nothing but look down feeling dizzy I rock back
Sam grabs me
"When last yuh eat,?" She says I say nothing
"Amelia," steph calls my name
"Four days ago," I say looking up at them
"FOUR DAYS MIA ARE YOU CRAZY YUH KNOW HOW YUH STAY AND A FOUR DAYS YUH NO NYAM NUT'N FAH,?" Sam shouts at me
I look down she gets up walking out as steph calls after her
I understand why she is mad I deserve to be yelled at
"It's alright I deserve it," I say
"No no mia don't cry," Steph says as I sniffle
"But yuh shoulda know betta yuh know how yuh stay yuh suppose to eat daily unless yuh chest hurt yuh," she says rubbing my back
"She yelled because she care bout yuh we all do ," she continues
Sam walks in with a tray putting it on the bed she took up the cup of tea standing Infront me
"Drink di tea then eat the sandwich ago cook when mi dun," she says stirring the cup
I smile a little
After drinking the tea and eating the sandwich well forcing myself to I sighed
"Why didn't you tell us," Sam asks
"I didn't want you guys to worry," I say looking down
"Mia we're your best friends since preschool weh yuh mean yuh neva wah we worry," steph says
"Exactly we do everything together go through everything together we ago always deh ya fi yuh always," Sam says wiping her eyes
"I know I'm sorry I just couldn't be around anyone," I say sighing
"That's understandable but yuh coulda mek we know di situation," Sam says
"Exactly ano like we wouldn't understand," steph says
"Well I'm sorry I won't ever fall for anyone again so it's fine," I say
"You know we have your back no matter what we'll always be here," steph says
"Yeah nah go no weh just forget bout him and mek we just chill and talk," Sam says wiping my face
We're all a crying mess
"Group hug," Steph says hugging me as sam joins in
Pulling away sam frowns
"Mia mi no wah say it but yuh need fi go bade mon," she says
I gasp
"Fi real girl yuh smell trang," steph says laughing
"Unuh disgusting eh mon," I say laughing they join in
"Mi no smell dat bad," I say smelling myself
"Yuh right...yuh smell worst," steph says laughing I take up a pillow she runs out the room I aim it at sam letting go she runs out too in a laughing fit
Well it's nothing but it's a start right?
I'll be just fine
Tae's POV
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Parking my car I got out making my way to the building I did the routine and went to the waiting room
He walks in
"About fucking time," he says walking towards me
"Aye watch yuh mouth," a police officer says
"Watch yuh mada big pussy," he says back to him
"Want another life sentence,?" The officer asks
"Want another bruck hand,?" My sperm donor asks
My eyes find the officer I look at his hand which had a cast on it I chuckle internally
The officer hisses his teeth walking away my father turns his attention back to me
"How yuh look like so ute,?" My father asks scrunching up his face
I sigh neva come yasso fi dis eno I hiss my teeth
"Yuh look like dem run yuh ova and den bury yuh dig yuh up and run yuh ova again," he continues then laughs
"Jah know," he says holding his chest laughing
I hiss getting up
"Bill mon a likkle joke," he says still laughing then he stops
I sit back down looking at him
"So yuh think bout mi offer," he says getting serious
"Yeah," I spoke
"Good and yah go do it?," He asks
I still haven't thought about it that much I just-
"Yah go dweet,?" He asks again
"Mi no know," I say honestly
"So weh yah do yah then,?" He asks
"Mi no know dat either," I answer
He chuckles
"Like di gyal mek yuh tun eediat tpc," he whispers to himself
"She leff yuh weh yah fi lose now,?" He asks after a minute
**𝑭𝒍𝒂𝒔𝒉𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒃𝒆𝒈𝒊𝒏𝒔**
"𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒗," 𝒎𝒚 𝒎𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒔𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒕𝒐𝒖𝒄𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒚 𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒅
"𝒀𝒆𝒔 𝒎𝒐𝒎𝒎𝒚 𝒎𝒊 𝒅𝒆𝒉 𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒚𝒂𝒔𝒔𝒐," 𝑰 𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒘𝒆𝒓 𝒔𝒊𝒕𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒆𝒔𝒊𝒅𝒆 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒐𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒐𝒔𝒑𝒊𝒕𝒂𝒍 𝒃𝒆𝒅
"𝑴𝒊 𝒂 𝒅𝒆𝒂𝒅," 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒂𝒚𝒔
"𝑵𝒐 𝒎𝒐𝒎𝒎𝒚 𝒚𝒖𝒉 𝒏𝒂𝒉 𝒅𝒆𝒂𝒅," 𝑰 𝒍𝒊𝒆 𝒕𝒓𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒗𝒊𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝒎𝒚𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇
"𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒗 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒆 𝒎𝒊 𝒔𝒖𝒑𝒎𝒖," 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈
"𝑨𝒏𝒚𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒐𝒎𝒎𝒚," 𝑰 𝒔𝒂𝒚 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒕 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒔𝒊𝒄𝒌 𝒇𝒂𝒄𝒆
"𝑷𝒓𝒐𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒆 𝒎𝒊 𝒚𝒖𝒉 𝒏𝒂𝒉 𝒈𝒐 𝒇𝒐𝒍𝒍𝒐𝒘 𝒊𝒏𝒏𝒂 𝒚𝒖𝒉 𝒇𝒂𝒅𝒂 𝒇𝒐𝒐𝒕𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒑𝒔 𝒚𝒂𝒉 𝒈𝒐 𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒖𝒆 𝒔𝒄𝒉𝒐𝒐𝒍 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒃𝒆 𝒔𝒖𝒑𝒎𝒖 𝒊𝒏𝒏𝒂 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆," 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒈𝒂𝒔𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒈
𝑰-
"𝑴𝒐𝒎𝒎𝒚 𝒎𝒊 𝒄𝒚𝒂 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒆 𝒚𝒖𝒉 𝒅𝒂𝒕," 𝑰 𝒔𝒂𝒚 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏
"𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒗 𝒚𝒂𝒉 𝒇𝒊 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒆 𝒎𝒊," 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒗𝒊𝒈𝒐𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒔𝒍𝒚
"𝑰 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒆," 𝑰 𝒔𝒂𝒚 𝒖𝒏𝒔𝒖𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒉𝒆𝒓
"𝑰 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖," 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒊𝒔𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒔 𝒃𝒆𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒄𝒍𝒐𝒔𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒆𝒚𝒆𝒔
𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒎𝒂𝒄𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒆 𝒃𝒆𝒈𝒂𝒏𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆𝒆𝒑 𝒔𝒊𝒈𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒃𝒐𝒅𝒚 𝒅𝒆𝒂𝒅
"𝑰 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒐𝒐," 𝑰 𝒘𝒉𝒊𝒔𝒑𝒆𝒓 𝒂𝒔 𝒅𝒐𝒄𝒕𝒐𝒓𝒔 𝒓𝒖𝒔𝒉 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒓𝒐𝒐𝒎
**𝑬𝒏𝒅 𝒐𝒇 𝒇𝒍𝒂𝒔𝒉𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌**
"Sorry mi cya do dis," I say getting up walking away
"Mi did know yah fassy," he says
"Then mi afi go just kill har den," he says this makes me halt
I turn and walk back to the table
"Wah,?" I ask him now fuming with anger
He chuckles humourless
"So it's true she leff yuh," he says smiling
"Sit down," he says to me
I sat down the mention of her name makes my heartache
"How yuh know dat,?" I ask him trying to remain calm
"Remember mi a di don mi know everything weh gwaan inna dah country yah," he says smirking
"Weh yuh mean yah go kill har,?" I ask him
"Well she no valuable again to yuh so I can kill har," he says leaning back
"Not when me alive," I say to him
He gets quiet looking at me he rubs his chin something he does when he's thinking
"So yuh did love har," he says
I look down
Of course I did she's the first person I've loved so much since my mother not even brit I loved as much as her
"Yeah," I say looking at him
"That's how I felt when your mother died I can see you loved her with all yuh heart," he says
Isn't it obvious
"But yuh cheat pon har wid british," he says shaking his head
How him know-
Memba him a di don
"Yuh claim yuh love har don't but yuh cheat pon har wid british how dat work," he asks
"I love her yes mi neva wah brit it just happened," I say sighing
"How yuh cheat pon somebody yuh love wid somebody yuh no wah,?" He asks me
"Dat no mek sense," he says
(Exactly dat no mek sense)
"Everything just happen," I say
Why mi a vent to him doh him outta everybody mmctt
"Mi know mi ano di best person but yuh lose a good ooman fi a one night stand yuh nah no sense," he says shaking his head
Not him lecturing me
"Mi know yah seh who am I to lecture you but yah fi understand seh mi live dis before ute," he says looking down
Oh yeah Stacy....years before my mother died he cheated on her with her "best friend" in her house
Since then she been sick that's how it all started
I remember coming home to see her ok the floor drunk and unconscious
That's when she started drinking and smoking all because of what he did
A month after he went to prison since then he's been in there 45 years he got for multiple murders and other charges
"Nah go lecture yuh but yuh lose a good thing and she won't come back I know," he says
After the whole cheating incident he tried to get back with my mother but she wouldn't budge she hated him so much it broke her completely before he went to prison he tried over and over again but he never got her trust again
"You're going to regret all of this soon but yah fi man up and accept your consequences to yuh own actions," he says
I sigh looking down he's right he might not be the best person but he gives great advice
"Yuh know wah I agree fi run di business under one condition," I say to him
He smiles
"You leave her alone no harm should ever come to her," I say to him he smiles
"Deal," he says stretching out his hand I look at it
Sorry mommy afi do weh mi afi do
"Deal," I say shaking his hand
****Two months later****
Omniscient POV
Mia and her friends walk out if the store chatting and laughing as they talk about what they bought
Mia tells them she left something in the store she walks back inside
Spooky and darkness stand at the car waiting on tae to come out the barber shop
Just then mia comes out the store walking towards her friends who were standing waiting on her
Tae exits the barber shop walking towards his car where his friends were
Darkness spots mia he stares at how happy she seem spooky looks at where he's looking so does tae
His heart leaps it's the first in months he has seen her well other than the photos off Instagram it's the first in person he observed what she was wearing
A oversized hoodie and sweatpants she had her natural hair in a ponytail she looks beautiful her skin is glowing
He sighs
Steph spots spooky and darkness and touches sam's hand san looks in their direction as kia stops and stare too
Tae and mia eyes make four as they stare at each other both hearts pounding
The air from both their lungs leaving their body quickly they felt suffocating looking at each other
Both wanting to look away but can't the compelling feeling of their love drawing them in
The sound of a horn beeping pulling both out of the trance mia looks away first at the car her friends were in waiting on her
She looks at tae once more then touches her stomach opening the door getting in they drove away as tae stare at the spot she was just standing at
"We afi go meet di prime minister in an hour," darkness says touching taes hand
He looks at his friend then back at the spot where she was standing he sighs getting into the car
"We'll find our way back eventually," tae and mia whispers looking out their car windows
The end 🙃
Y'all it took me so long to write this chapter for no reason I have so much assignments I'm sorry but this book is complete 🥳 let's go through hard work and determination I've completed this book I just want to say I'm grateful for the constant support and I'll have book two ready by february hopefully but I'm the meantime thank you for everything and continue to be great love you guys
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That's all folks bye
Sign management
Kaylabia ❤️