'Then we can be stupid together.' I whisper
His eyes widened in surprise, but he didn't move. Instead, he leaned in, pressing his lips on mine. I wanted this more than I thought.
The moment he kissed me, all my fears faded away. I pulled him in closer, kissing him back. He didn't kiss me softly like he did last time. Every kiss was deep, making me breathless. His hands were clutching on my shirt roughly. I could feel the fabric almost ripping. Being like this with him felt good. I wrapped my legs around his waist, feeling him bite into my lip.
His hand went under my shirt, sliding a bit above my waist to the back. His touch made me shiver, but in a good way. I squeezed my legs a bit around him, letting out a moan into his mouth as he pushed himself even closer.
He quickly pulled away, breathing heavily. 'We have to stop.'
'I don't want to.' I slide my hand under his shirt and my other hand in his hair, pulling him closer.
'Again?' He breathes out, trying to pull my hand out of his shirt
I just lightly nod, catching my breath.
'Why?' He breathes against my lips
'Why not?' I argue back
'Please, can you move your legs lower?' He asks while he's clutching my thigh. I thought I was hurting him, but he only pulled out his shirt from under my legs, then pulled the shirt off completely. He was half naked, his amazing body right in front of me.
'Is this what you wanted?' He asks, leaning back in
'Yes.' I breathe out, sliding my hand up his stomach, his abs firm under my hand. 'You look amazing, you know.'
He smiles, kissing me deeply once again. I let my hand explore his body, sliding everywhere I could reach. I want to feel his skin on mine. I tried pulling my shirt up to try and take it off, but he stopped me by grabbing my hand.
'Please, don't.' He says. I won't argue with him. I'm sure he has a reason.
'Okay.' I whisper, letting go of it. I won't push it. 'Just don't stop kissing me.'
'So needy.' He jokes but kisses me again. I don't think I can have enough of this. There are so many things I've never done or felt before. Maybe that's why I'm so excited.
'Aera!' I hear my mom's voice from downstairs. We both froze for a moment, just looking into each other's eyes.
'Aera, are you home?' My mom calls again
'Yeah, I'll come down in a second!' I yell back with Jimin still on me.
He got off of me in a hurry, putting his shirt back on. He grabbed the remote and quickly put on the TV so it didn't look weird. I straightened my shirt and looked into a mirror before going downstairs.
'Hiya mom.' I smile
'Oh, honey, there you are.' She says
'How was work?' I ask. My heart was so beating in my head, but I tried to look composed.
'Very tiring. But I have to go out again soon. I just wanted to see if you needed anything.' She is sneaking out again. Funny.
'No, I'm all good. I just came home from uni anyway. I will just stay home and have some food later, don't worry.' I say
'Is Jimin here?'
'Yeah, he's stuck to the TV, though, watching some dance documentary thingie.' I lie
'That boy can't get enough of it, can he?' She chuckles
'Nope. You know what he's like.' I smile
'Alright, honey. I'll just get ready and leave. I will see you later.' She hugs me
'Have fun.' I hug her back
I go back to my room, closing the door behind me.
'That was damn close.' I exhale
'I thought I'd have a heart attack.' He says
'Stupidity at its finest.' I sigh, jumping in the bed with him. 'What was all this about anyway? You were so angry last time.'
'I don't know. Just needed to get my mind off the tough day. I'm sorry.' He looks like he feels guilty
'It's okay. I can always practice.' I joke. He relaxed a bit and chuckled
'We better not do this practice thing too often.' He says
'Practice makes perfect though, doesn't it?' I joke. I wouldn't want to stop this, whatever this is.
'Do you not feel awkward?' He asks
'No. Never with you.' I smile
'That's good to know, but let's make sure we don't do it again.'
'Dammit. I just got you shirtless, and now I'm taking two steps back.' I joke
'Yeah, that's not happening again.' He shakes his head. 'Can't believe I did that.'
'You won't hear me complaining.' I tease, and he throws a pillow at me
'I didn't know you liked my body so much.' He teases back
'Neither did I. Turns out I do.' He blushed a little, turning his head away.
I was going to tease him about it, but I heard a knock on the door.
'Come in, mom.' I say, and she opens the door
'I'm going now. You two have fun.' She smiles
'Yeah, say hi to your boyfriend for us, will you?' I tease her, but she looks a bit shocked
'Mom, it's okay. I'm happy you have someone. Just have fun. Don't worry about us.'
A smile appears on her face, 'I was so scared to tell you.'
'You deserve it. Just be happy.' Jimin says, smiling
'Thank you, Jimin. I love you both.' She says
'We love you too, mom. Now go, enjoy.' She pretty much ran out giggling. It was hilarious.
'She's acting more like a kid than us.' I say
'We're not kids anymore. Not for a while.' He looks at me in a way I haven't quite seen before.
'What?' I ask
'Nothing. Let's watch something.' He says, smiling.
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Another uni day. At least the lecture today isn't boring. Most of the people have been paying attention. Apart from Young, but she never does. It seemed to go a bit faster than usual,maybe because it was interesting.
'Do you think you'll have a minute after the class?' Taehyung asks me quietly
'Yes. It's perfect actually, I wanted to ask you the same thing.' I say with a tiny smile, but I'm actually really nervous. I need to tell him today. I feel bad but it can't be helped.
'Awesome.' He smiles and goes back to the lecture.
'How much longer of this torture?' Young whines
'Class dismissed!' Professor Kong announces
'There is your answer.' I didn't even finish saying it and she was already gettin up. She is unbelieveable.
'Where should we go?' Taehyung asks as we get ready to leave the classroom
'We can just sit in the park in front. We are going to Jungkook's later anyway, right?' I say
'Yeah, sounds good.' He smiles
Jimin was waiting with Jungkook in front of the class. 'You ready?'
'Can you guys give us a minute?' I ask
'Now?' Jimin raises an eyebrow at me and I just nod. He nods back at me, smiling. 'We'll wait here.'
Me and Taehyung walked over to the park on campus quietly. We sat down on the bench, still not talking. The weather was amazing. The early spring is always rainy, but today is nice and sunny. We sat there for a few minutes, neither of us talking.
'Should be talk or keep sitting in awkward silence?' He asks, joking
'As lovely as it is being awkward, I think we should talk.' I chuckle
'Do you want to go first?' He asks
'Yes, if that's okay.' I say
'Absolutely. Go for it, although I think I know already.' He smiles at me lightly, looking a bit sad
I take a deep breath before finally saying it out loud, 'I'm sorry, but I don't think I can go on that next date with you. Or any other date.' It's relieving, but also making me feel very guilty
He nods, still smiling. 'I know. I think it's for the better anyway.'
'You're not mad?' I ask, a bit surprised. I didn't expect him to be because he is always calm, but the fear of it was there.
'No, not at all.' He chuckles. 'I'm pretty sure I know why as well.'
'I do like you as a friend, but I don't feel anything more than that. Which is a shame because you're an amazing guy. I really did have a lot of fun going out with you, but it's just not working.' I keep explaining
'I felt it too. Don't get me wrong, I like you, not as a friend etiher, but I don't think I can compete with him.' He sighs
'Him?' I ask confused
'Jimin. I know that if I'm dating you, I'm kind of dating both of you.' He chuckles, 'But that's not the issue. The thing is that he set a bar up so high, that I doubt you would ever be happy with anyone else. No matter what I do, he did it first, or better.' I didn't even know what to say or how to react. He didn't say a single thing that wasn't true.
'I know you didn't realize, but throughout all of the dates, you talked more about him and what you guys did in the past, than you did about anything else. He even saw you out to the dates, and waited for you back home. I can't win against that. No one can. But the biggest thing is, no one can love you the way he does. Or the way you love him.' He stopped talking, and it felt like I was thrown under a cold shower.
'Taehyung...' I trail off, unsure of what to say
'You love him, and not it a brotherly way you've loved him all these years. I kind of knew all this time, but when I saw you run out of that classroom in tears, it confirmed all of my thoughts.' He didn't ask, he just stated it.
'Here I was feeling bad about having to tell you all of this, and then you go and beat me to it.' I chuckle. I'm still in a bit of a schock hearing all of these things he just told me, but he is right.
'So you finally realized that you're in love with him?' He smiles
'I'm not sure yet. It's confusing. I have to figure out a lot of things, but you might be right. I want you to know that I really do feel awful for not being able to like you back.' I give him a shy smile
'There is nothing to apologize for. You can't choose who you love.' He pats me on the head
'Do you think you would still want to be my friend?' I ask afraid he'll say no
'Oh, absolutely.' His bright smile made me exhale in relief
'Thank God. I was afraid you'd say no and we would never speak again.'
'Pfft, not likely. We didn't get divorced.' He laughs
'I guess you have a point. But thank you for being the first person to take me out on a date. I loved it. Truly.' I smile
'At least one thing I win over him. Yes.' He jokingly makes a fist, celebrating. It made me laugh.
'Let's head back. Everyone is waiting for us.'
'Friends?' I ask once again
He gets up, opening his arm, waiting for a hug, 'Friends.' I chuckle but I get up, huggin him.
We walked back together, remembering how I killed him tons in laser tag. They waited for us in front of the entrance. Seems Ona joined us once again. Probably invited herself, but it is what it is.
'You guys okay?' Jungkook asks looking over at him then at me
'Yeah, we're great.' He nudges my shoulder
'All good.' I smile, looking at Jimin who's smiling back at me.
'Let's go then. Party time!' Jungkook exclaims