What is this feeling?

I wish

I wish he could hold me and tell me he loves me. I wish he would tell me I'm beautiful and that I'm the one for him. I wish I was his. I wish he would brag to everyone for me to be his. I wish he would not be embarrassed if we ever got together. The two people he likes are lucky. I want him to love me the way I love him. I want him to love my hair like I love his. I want him to love my eyes like I love his. I want him to love my skin and how you can almost see through it when I get really cold. I want him to love my style like I love his. I want him to love every aspect of me like I love every aspect of him.  I want him to want me like I want him. I want him. I want him so much! He's all I want! I want his love. Those people that he likes are so lucky! He's friends with some people I don't like so it probably wouldn't work out. Sadly. I have liked him since last year. But he's liked someone else that whole time. Yes admittedly I'm jealous of them. I would gladly switch places with them just to be with him. I know it's selfish but I want him. HES ALL I FUCKING WANT!