Joshua dreaded the moment he made eye contact with Wonwoo after explaining everything. The hands around him had either accidentally or intentionally fallen. Joshua had no idea how he managed to tell his story to Wonwoo, even with all the stuttering and hiccups in between his sobs.
But he had. Joshua had managed to show Wonwoo the rawest part of him. He broke eye contact almost immediately, not only because eye contact was too much for him to handle, but at that moment, he was scared to look at Wonwoo's eyes in fear of seeing pity.
Joshua didn't want the look of amused adoration that Wonwoo always looked at him with to change to one of constant pity. The same way everyone once had altered their perception of Joshua. "Pl-Please say something" and Wonwoo didn't instantly, he leaned towards Joshua before wrapping both his arms around Joshua in a tight hug.
Joshua's head automatically pushed into Wonwoo's chest, settling there as he sobbed silently. "It's not your fault" Wonwoo's voice sounded cracked, but still he managed to fix it before Joshua noticed.
"It's not your fault that happened to you, and it doesn't change anything" Wonwoo ran his hands through Joshua's hair as he let him cry on his shoulder. "Don't cry. Why are you crying over some dickhead?" Joshua looked up slightly to see even Wonwoo's eyes welling up slightly.
"I'm sorry I wasn't there to break his bones" Joshua lifted his hands that were hanging limp beside him for however long he'd been crying before wrapping them around Wonwoo's neck and pressing himself closer to the boy. "You're here now" Joshua didn't know where his confidence was coming from. He left small kisses on Wonwoo's cheek before trailing them to his lips.
"I trust you" Joshua said lacing his fingers with Wonwoo's before pulling the boy with him as he got up. "I want to be- I want to be with you tonight. I want to..." Joshua let the sentence drag on as he unbuttoned Wonwoo's shirt slowly.
"So much for movie night" Wonwoo glanced at the tv that had Minions all ready to be played. Wonwoo didn't mind the idea, quite the opposite. He craved to touch Joshua in ways he hadn't been able to before, but after hearing how the older's first time had quite literally ruined his life, Wonwoo didn't know if it was right for him to rush it.
"Are you sure?" Wonwoo licked his lips as he looked at Joshua clinging to his shirt. "I know I am, I said it...I- I trust you" Wonwoo held Joshua's hand tighter before leading Joshua to his room.
Wonwoo wasted no time kissing Joshua again, holding the petite waist the latter possessed in such a delicate way that Joshua couldn't help but melt. Wonwoo made sure to lock the door before softly pushing Joshua onto the bed.
"Was he any good at least?" Wonwoo couldn't help but ask the question before he attached his lips to Joshua's collarbone. "N-No" Wonwoo smirked against Joshua's skin as he sucked harder, making sure he left a mark and getting a soft moan from the one below him.
Wonwoo made sure to look at Joshua, trying to sense any discomfort as he played with the hem of the boy's sweater. "I want to" Joshua repeated once more, quickly reading Wonwoo as he played with his hair.
Wonwoo placed small kisses on Joshua's stomach before carefully pulling the sweater up over Joshua's head. "How sensitive are you?" Wonwoo traced his tongue against Joshua's stomach, seeing him flinch in pleasure below him. "Sensitive" Wonwoo chuckled lowly as he tried kissing lower, watching as Joshua's head shot up.
"I can tell" Wonwoo slipped his fingers into Joshua's jeans before pulling them down swiftly. "I can already see you're going to squirm when I kiss here" Wonwoo was right in his judgement as Joshua moaned quite loudly and slapped a hand over his own mouth when Wonwoo pressed his lips to Joshua's thighs.
"Sensitive" Wonwoo repeated what Joshua said before marking the pale skin with hickeys trailing all over. "For my eyes only" Wonwoo mumbled as he kissed the skin he had drawn over, but this time softly, so softly.
"L-Lube I have- I have lube" Joshua tried to be quiet while trying to grab his bag with his eyes still shut at the way Wonwoo was gripping onto his thighs. Joshua tried to close his legs in oversensitivity with Wonwoo's head still between them.
The pressure only turned Wonwoo on more. He tried his best to keep Joshua's legs open with one of his hands as he leaned over to grab the lube for Joshua. "I'll be soft" Wonwoo's fingers went to dip in the liquid, stopping at the feeling of Joshua holding it.
"Be rough. I-I think I want...I w-want it rough" Wonwoo couldn't hide his surprise as he looked to make sure he heard it right. "Yeah" Joshua answered Wonwoo's gaze, blushing as he looked away.
"F-Fuck me like I want you to" Joshua leaned down to play with Wonwoo's hair again, pulling it back so that he looked at him. "I want co-control" Wonwoo smiled softly before agreeing without hesitation.
"I wa-want to decide wh-what happens to me" Wonwoo felt his hands stop in their movements but let them stay on Joshua's thigh. "Okay" Wonwoo kissed Joshua's hip, soft yet hard enough to leave a hickey. He has lost count of how many hickeys he had littered over Joshua's skin by that point.
Wonwoo traced his lube-soaked finger against the other's entrance before pushing in, still careful not to hurt his boyfriend. "Is that good?" Joshua watched Wonwoo through his eyelashes. "It's good" Joshua threw his head back as he wrapped his legs around Wonwoo's neck. "Ke-Keep going" Wonwoo was never one to listen to instructions, but he listened so well to Joshua.
He wasn't sure how Joshua was suddenly the dominant one, and all he was doing was listening to every instruction that came out of the other's mouth. All Wonwoo wanted was for Joshua to love every second of their first time and not regret letting Wonwoo be the one he trusted.
He would be lying if he said the dominance wasn't turning him on a little too much. His dick strained painfully against his pants. Wonwoo's free hand went down to release himself, stopping in his fingering as he did so.
"Why did you stop?" Joshua's lack of stutter had Wonwoo stuttering. "I was ju-just" Joshua noticed the hand that wasn't on him. He sat up properly before going to trace his fingers over Wonwoo's, holding onto his hard-on.
Joshua positioned himself so that he was sitting on Wonwoo's lap right over his restrained dick, already wet with precum. Joshua was also very hard as it lay on his stomach while he moved. Wonwoo was confused for a second before realising that Joshua was riding his fingers.
He didn't get enough time to recover as his free hand was brought up to Joshua's mouth. Joshua was too lost in pleasure to realise what he was doing or even to think it over. He was doing whatever his body wanted him to. To be awfully honest he was thinking with his dick.
Joshua licked a stripe across Wonwoo's fingers before placing them against his tongue and sucking on them with intention. Eyes closed shut in pleasure, unable to see how Wonwoo's eyes were wide as he stared.
Wonwoo knew he wasn't even being touched, yet his stomach felt funny as if he was going to cum by just looking at Joshua. How could someone be so insanely attractive? The mere thought of Joshua finding pleasure with just his fingers inside him in every way.
"Your turn" Joshua stopped moving as his breathing became laboured, knowing he was about to finish with just Wonwoo's fingers. Wonwoo was still unresponsive as Joshua took matters into his own hands.
His hand found its way to Wonwoo's dick again before letting him free of his pants, pushing it down and moving his fingers against Wonwoo's slit. That seemed to have done the trick as Wonwoo groaned while letting his head drop on Joshua's shoulder.
"Hyung..." Joshua was happy with himself at the desperate plea that left Wonwoo's lips. He agonisingly ran his hand along Wonwoo's length. Wonwoo was long gone to realise that Joshua had replaced his fingers with his mouth. He was sucking so well. He should've known the fingers were some kind of practice.
Joshua grabbed a condom before mentally thanking Jeonghan for getting an XL. Joshua's tongue swirled as he bobbed his head up and down while multitasking and ripping the packet simultaneously.
Wonwoo was whimpering helplessly at being sucked off so unbelievably well. It wasn't like he didn't get his good share of blowjobs before, but when it was Joshua, it was so different. Everything was like his first time with Joshua.
"Fuck, sweetheart stop before I cum" Joshua stopped, and Wonwoo immediately regretted his statement. He felt the condom being slipped on. He was too preoccupied with the edging to look as he fell back before putting an arm over his face.
"I hate edging" Wonwoo mumbled, but his lips were sealed by Joshua's lips kissing him as he pulled him up. "Rough" Wonwoo was suddenly all over his edging situation as he pushed Joshua back on the bed and got on top of him.
The lack of being able to dominate finally getting to him. "Rough it is" Joshua placed Wonwoo's hand around his neck as he looked at the boy innocently while biting his lips. "You're so fucking- ugh, god!" Wonwoo groaned at the way Joshua looked at him.
He wasted no time in positioning himself, not pushing in just yet. Wonwoo applied a little pressure to see Joshua gasping in pleasure. Wonwoo held Joshua's arms together above his head in one hand as he thrust in, taking Joshua by surprise.
He moaned loudly even with the way Wonwoo's hand restricted much voice from coming out of him. "More pressure" Joshua was in control, and Wonwoo pressed harder like he was asked to. Wonwoo fucked him so hard that the bed was shaking violently under them.
Wonwoo caught Joshua's lips in a heated make-out that kept getting cut off by Joshua constantly trying to moan. Wonwoo had given up his attempt at kissing Joshua's lips and instead kissed the wrists that he held. Joshua smiled at the small action before getting his hand slightly out of the hold to almost lace with Wonwoo's fingers while his wrists were still tightly held.
He found Wonwoo's lips in another kiss as he spoke against the other's lips. "I'm...close" Joshua felt tears spill down his cheeks as he cried from his pure pleasure. He was so happy he let Wonwoo in, and he was so happy that Wonwoo stayed.
"What's stopping you?" Wonwoo, let go of Joshua's neck as he went to help him out. Joshua loved how Wonwoo's hands moved at a different pace along his length, unlike how he was pushing into him.
Joshua let out a high-pitched moan before coming all over Wonwoo's hands. Falling limb as his body ached from everything. Skin slapping was still loud in the room as Wonwoo chased after his high, not taking much longer to finish inside the condom.
Wonwoo weakly pulled out of Joshua. His thighs hurt like a bitch, and he tried to ignore them as he tied the condom up before throwing it in the bin. Wonwoo admired the post-orgasm bliss on Joshua's face and his naked skin that glistened with sweat.
Wonwoo pushed the hair sticking to Joshua's face out of his eyes as he lay beside him, soaked in sweat himself. Wonwoo slipped an arm under Joshua's head as he let the older lay on his chest in perfect silence.
"I need to go pack everything up in the common room alone, don't I?" Wonwoo asked, and Joshua faked snores before opening one eye to look at Wonwoo. "You little-" Joshua laughed as Wonwoo tickled his sides in revenge for how Joshua acted like he fell asleep to avoid helping.
"L-Later, now stay" Joshua relaxed the arms that he used to defend himself from the tickles before returning to their earlier position. "Sounds like a good plan" Wonwoo kissed Joshua's head as he listened to Joshua's breathing turn more peaceful with each passing moment.
Wonwoo didn't move for a good few minutes after Joshua fell asleep, enjoying the moment which seemed way more intimate than having sex. If Joshua was still awake, he would hear the way Wonwoo's heart beat crazy under his ear.
Joshua was so special to him that it almost scared Wonwoo, but he was worth the risk. Joshua Hong was worth the risk of heartbreak. Wonwoo was ready to serve his heart on a platter for Joshua to do whatever the fuck he wanted to do with it. It was late anyway because his heart had decided for him already.
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