As Harry and I made our way back to where everyone else was waiting, the slew of emotions I felt was heightened knowing I was going to be able to spend more time with him.
"Wait, can I see something?"
"Sure, love, what would you like to see?"
I pulled Harry back towards where Laurie and I stood while we watched the concert and pulled him onto the stage. The arena had emptied out and only a few lights were left on now. I dropped his hand and ran up to the front of the stage to look out at the view. My eyes looked from left to right at all the seats that were once filled with screaming fans. To think they were here to see him was exhilarating.
I felt him come up behind me and rest his chin on my shoulder.
"Incredible, isn't it?"
"It really is, Harry, like this is your job. Its-its amazing. You have the best fans in the world."
"I know, love, we really do."
We stood together for a bit longer before stage crew began breaking down the outside parts of the stage. I saw Laurie's bright hair as we came off the stage.
"Hey, there you are! Listen, I'm going out with some of the sound guys for a drink! They are so hot, like all tatted up, my favorite! I figured you were going to stay with Harry."
"You figured right! Oh God, well be careful please and text me when you get home or a home...," I said to her before she quickly hugged me and then ran off into the night.
"She'll be ok, those guys are harmless," Harry said recognizing my worry for her as I watched her run off. I smiled at him and pressed my body into his as we waited for his crew to pack the black SUV I was very familiar with now. Just as we were almost ready, I heard and saw pandemonium from somewhere beyond the gates. Screaming fans were lining the gates where Laurie and I had entered earlier. They seemed to be behind some kind of barrier but I could still see them a bit from here.
"It'll happen every time that gate opens, darling, nothing to worry about."
This world I was now really apart of was surreal. The person who had his arms wrapped around me was loved by so many other people. I wrapped my arms around his tighter and leaned in closer. I was excited to see where this would all go but so very scared at the same damn time.
After the crew was finished, we got into the SUV and made our way out of the arena. I wasn't sure where the other members were but I assumed they had left already. I nestled into Harry's arms as we waited for the gates to open to let us pass. I quickly peeked up at him and he had his elbow propping up his chin looking out the window. He was watching the girls scream and wave from where they were standing. He had the smallest smile on his face that reached his sparkling green eyes. It was a rare scene to watch someone so incredibly famous just quietly sitting and admiring fans when they loved him so much.
"You are quite incredible, Harry Styles."
I must have caught him off guard because he looked down at me with a confused look on his face. I sat up from where I was and looked at him right in the eyes.
"You have all these fans all over the world and you talk to them like you've known them for years. You never let this world of fame change you. You are just sitting here so humbly, looking out at them with the sweetest expression on your face. You're not distracting yourself with a phone or computer...you're just sitting here and watching them...those fans are the luckiest fans in the world."
He sat and just looked at me. He didn't need to say anything back to me because I knew that no one had made this observation about him before. I smiled a small smile and tucked my head back down into the crook of his arm. He responded with tucking my hair behind my air and kissing me softly on the cheek.
"Thank you, Rowan, thank you for seeing me like that."