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this isn't gonna be anything interesting to read i just wanted to vent because how dare he how dare he laugh and smile and have friends when i can barely trust anybody when i bear the weight of what he did alone when i push the people i love away how dare he live his life without the ache of shame of embarrassment how dare he let me become a stranger in his life when he's the fucking specter haunting me every single night HOW DARE HE