The next day I was at the library starting as usual… .
Still sleepy… didn't sleep yesterday properly but this is the only place I love where I can be alone without any worries.. The quiet place… .now just holding a book… it’s better way to cover my face… . Library is the only escape for my anxiety issues… so quiet and relaxing I can hide myself in the corner of the library .....its the history section .....here are many books I love their smell and they all like all friends for me ...each of them has their own story to tell.....I pick up some of my favourite ones and started to read its like another world for me the only thing I like except Allie {oh GOD what am I thinking She could never agree to date someone gross like me. .....she's totally out of my league ...I should never get my hopes up..it will only bring pain and misery and nothing else}.I was so much absorved in my thoughts that I was totally unaware of whats happeninhy in the outside world ...suddenly I heard something
"oh no....."
when I take a peek diverting my eyes from the book I was holding I saw a total mess.....many books were scattered on the ground ...I saw a girl with slender figure holding a pile of books ...I cant see her face only her curly black hair[step layer cut or v cut maybe]....none used to come to this corner of the library as obvious everyone hates history
"um ...hey I dont mean disturbing you but could you please help me to pick up the books as both of my hands are occupied ...." the girl saiud this in a shy trembling and low voice tone
I stand up " um sure " I stand up and again got stuck between the chair and table because of my fat belly ......maybe the gitrl could see it too omg she would think I shoul;d never ask help from this pathetic loser .....
"um please hurry I cant hold them anymore theyu will also fall eventually
um...but if you dont wanna help sorry I should not have asked you in the first place" she said in a sad tone
"no its not like that wait a minute " I protested
I came to her and started to pick up the books one by one from the ground
I collected all the books and put them on the table
I saw her hands are trembling she's still holding a pile of books upto the height of her head
both of us could not see each others face…
I took some of the books from Her hand and place them on the table in that process I touch her hand by accident
And then we are totally exposed to each other
Now I can see her eat a girl with glasses … two or three curly bangs decorating her small face… she was Still lowering her gaze did not attempt to make an eye contact… I thought maybe she is too shy. . But then the worst possibility came to my mind. …
“ oh my God what I have done so sorry I should not have taken the books without asking you. .. I did not have any
bad intention”… .. I thought maybe she is very embarrassed to think what a fat ugly guy taking advantage of her… now she is regretting she should never have asked me for help in the first place… . ..
“ hello are you listening”
The girl for the first time look that me and then again lowered her gaze… .. “Um both of my hands are occupied so could you please pull the chair from the table so that I could seat. … if you don't mind “ She stood there are waiting for my reply… . I soon realized she was talking to me… . “ oh yeah sure” I pulled the chair from the table and signalled heart to sit… . .
She shyly took her seat and began to adjust her glasses… .
Then she took some of the books and started to search for something. … .
“Here, there Oh nothing found again I totally confused… what I will do now “
She began to tremble and almost on verge of crying she removed her glasses and begin to wipe out the tears with her handkerchief… . ..
I noticed it “hey um… .. if you don't mind can I ask what's wrong”
I thought she was ignoring me intentionally
I again decided to call her " hey...um...."
thankfully this time she lifted her head and looked at me but then again shyly looked away ,she adjusted her glasses ad then spoke in a low voice
" umm sorry to bother you unnecessarily but actually I am a fresher history major I got an assignment but cant find the necessary materials thats why I thought to come here but alas I picked up so many books but totally confused how to start it "
She began to remove her glasses a few drops of tears fall down from her eyes
"sorry for this sceen create ....this is an important assignment If I dont submit it by the dead line I will be in problem"
She began to rub her eyes
I pulled another chair and sat sat beside her " hey um I dont know what asignmwent you got to do ...but I have studied history a lot European,Ancient American Asian history if you want, I can help you "
the girl for the first time looked at me properly with a stunned face ": um really .....um if yopu really dont mind I would be more than grateful if you contribute some help" then she smiled a little , that time I realized by looking at her properly she is haslf asian
She then again diverted her gaze aqnd looked down and began top speak in a low voice "um....its an assignment given by our professor .....its about Balkanisation and the relation between Otoman empire and Balkan states"
Then I began to look at the books scattered on the table
" um but you see these are the books you picked up , are all about African history"
The girl looked at me " but Balkan is a part of Africa right"
I smiled " no silly its in the Eastern Europe"
She first looking at my face cofused but then became embarrassed aftetr realizing the fact
then I began to calm her down "dont worry its okay ....I myself dont know too many things thats how we are ....Its okay not to know something"
She smiled a little
I then stood up and began to pick up some books from the bookshelf and put them on her table
" I am sure they will sure help you ....you can collect so much data from those books"
I then opened the chosen books "here page no 40 you can find here the history of Otoman empire ....and there is another book....here look page no 78,you will find ancient and recent history of Balkan states and started to explain historical contexts and gave her the directions how she could start the whole assignment "
"wait wait wait" the girl stopped me waving her two hands in the air
I suddenly realized I grew overboard , "um sorry you did not even ask ...... Here I was just being overfriendly..sorry for bothering"
I became sad and began to stand up....
the girl also stood up "Hey wait up ...dont misunderstand....I was just stopping you to take notes,I was just going to take out my notebooks, you really could explain things well, please sit"
She began to pull out the chair again but failed
"oh its too heavy for me"
I just smiled" I pulled out the chair and sat again and began to pick up one book and again started to explain things"
She then took out a notebook from her bag but in that process a small pouch of cookies came out along with it "
she began to scribble notes in the notebook
after 30 minutes
the girl stretched her arms took a cookie from the pouch and took a bite
"that was really helpful ....Now I have a complete overview about background history and the basics of Balkan problem"
"yeah but still I think some more explanations are needed pretty much ..if possible some more discussion rounds are necessary.....but I think that wont..."
she looked at me pleased "You are really going to help me there are many things I have doubts on ....I was hesitating at first asking you for more meet ups cause we just fist met .. I must say you have really incredible knoweledge of historical accounts...."
she smiled at me , a pure , heart warming genuine smile " I am really imptressed " she was directly looking into my eyes
I really blushed as I am not used to long eye contact
maybe she also realized this she soon diverted her eyes and looked away shyly then again adjusted her glasses
"um hey I have to go washroom , I will be back in a minute"
she stood up and left
I then relaxed stretched up a bit but a sweet fragrance caught up my nose , this was coming from the open pouch of cookies, those are looking delicious,tempting, mouthwatering I could not resist myself anymore really took a cookie from her pouch and trook a bite " delicious"
then I noticed she came out from the washroom and noticed me holding the half eaten cookie
"nope.. um sorry... its not like what you are thinking , sorry I really did a mistake I should not touch the cookies without permission"
She said nothing just came to me put her bag on the table and open the chain and take out another pouch of cookies
"here take it"
" no no you dont have to give me anything"
"this is the least I can offer you for helping me"
"No I dont take rewards for helping someone..also "
" you can have it.....but vwell if you dont like the taste its ok , actually These are homemade , I baked them...I am not a good cookie maker still I try "
she then sadly looking away
"no your cookies are great thats why I cant resist myself having a bite of it...I have never had these kind of tasty cookies in my whole life"
She looked very happy and gave me the pouch of cookies before I protest and began to leave
I called her "hey, listen I cant"
She looked back with a shy smile , just that moment my heart stopped to beat my mind could not think anything straight "I will be more than happy if you eat them all"
"bye" with that only the image of her heart warming smile left with me
I came to my senses "hey , wait up, hey....by the way whats her name I talked with her so long but dont even remembered to ask her name"
I came out of the library room but she had already gone
suddenly my phone rang it was Allie calling "hey fatty did yaa forget today my training day "
"so what "
"you literally only remember when to eat, sleep and study .....my training already over 2 hours ago now tell me what you supposed to do , you know I dont like waiting"
"oh sorry Allie I just forgot I was at the library and something important came up"
"whats more important other than me in your life, you made me wait now you deserve a punishment now come as quick as possible if I am in a good mood I may give you lesser cruel punishment"
" Allie sorry I will come as soon as possible"
"that sounds like my good boy...hurry up " she cut the call
she is always dominating but still I cant tell Allie abpout the library incident whetre I met this new girl ,
cause Allie sometimes gets very jealous amnd possesive
most of the girls in the college ignored me, but once in the high school I made a female friend , we were just friends she was really goood in accademics one day I praised how intelligent she is in front of Allie
I dont know why She did not like it at all "I know I am only good at sports not good in studies like you and that bitch,you dont have to tell me that "
then somethimg bad happened I dont wanna talk bout .........I personally dont want that kind of incident to happen again
{author note maybe some other chapter I will discuss it elaborately}
"well enough of those flashbacks I will have to go to Allies training centre or else I will be screwed"