despair - h.hyunjin ★

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after years of chasing him, she gives up. [started: jan '22] hyunjin x reader #1 in skz #1 in ff #1 in skzhyu... Více

intro
chapter 1
chapter 2
chapter 3
chapter 4
chapter 5
chapter 6
chapter 7
chapter 8
chapter 9
chapter 10
chapter 11
chapter 12
chapter 13
chapter 14
chapter 15
chapter 16
chapter 17
chapter 18
chapter 19
chapter 20
chapter 21
chapter 22
chapter 23
chapter 24
chapter 25
chapter 26
chapter 27
chapter 28
chapter 29
chapter 30
chapter 31
chapter 32
chapter 33
chapter 34
chapter 35
chapter 37
chapter 38
chapter 39
chapter 40
chapter 41
chapter 42
chapter 43
chapter 44
chapter 45
chapter 46
chapter 47 (final)

chapter 36

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no ones pov

hyunjin went after them slowly, he knew y/n would be mad at him. but he didn't have any guilt, for him he did nothing wrong. she warned him about school, she never mentioned she would be bringing seungmin over.

he stopped at the door after y/n and seungmin left, because he didn't feel like following them out. he heard seungmin yell and peeked out a little, but quickly went back in when he saw him walk away, expecting y/n to come back.

a few minutes pass, and she never returns, as much as he wanted to ignore it, he couldnt. he opened the door and and peaked his head out to look for her, but she was nowhere to be seen. all he saw was the rain pouring down. he took a look back into the house and saw y/n's shoes, realising she didn't even put them on when she left. he quickly grabbed a plastic bag and put her shoes in them, then walked out.

as he took a few steps he noticed it was raining hard and it probably wasn't stopping anytime soon, so he thought it would be better if he took a umbrella with him. as he was about to go back into the house, he saw someone walk towards the door, seungmin.

he quickly walked to him instead of going back in. "where is she?" he asked, glaring at seungmin already.

"she isn't picking up my calls, is she not home?" seungmin worriedly asked instead

hyunjin sighed deeply, "if anything happens." he said, he didn't even need to complete the sentence, the look he gave seungmin said alot.

they both quickly rushed out in different ways trying to look for y/n, the first place seungmin decided to go was the rooftop building. and he got even more worried when he found it empty.

hyunjin continued to look here and there nearby, half an hour passed and he couldn't take it anymore. he took out his phone and started texting and calling y/n like crazy, but she wasn't answering to anything. he didn't know why he was looking for her so desperately, he didn't even know why he was getting so worried in the first place. he just was. and the only priority to him right now was to find her.

a whole hour passed, and he was pretty far away from her place, constantly calling her every ten minutes.

the rain almost stopped when he reached a park, and he was about to get out when he noticed someone sitting on a bench holding a umbrella. he tensely walked closer, now to finally realise it was y/n as she stood up and turned.

he sighed in relief, and called her again before finally walking up to her.

y/n pov

"hyunjin? what are you doing here?" i asked confused

"what do you think? do you know what time it is??"

i slowly took out my phone and looked at the time, "uh.. its 10 something.. did something happen?" i asked in low and even more confused voice. then it hit me. "have you been looking for me?" i asked him again

he sighed, his face clearly shows how worried he was. dont tell me thats why i have so many calls from him and seungmin.

he was about to say something when he noticed me fidgeting my toes, because they were cold. i walked in the rain with just socks on for a whole hour. he started walking towards me, i was about to take a step back but he suddenly got down as he took out a pair of shoes from the plastic bag he was holding, my shoes.

"put them on, its cold" he said as he laid my shoes infront of me. "have you looked at yourself? you're all soaked" i muttered back as took my socks off and put on my shoes. so he had time to get a plastic bag for my shoes but not a umbrella for himself

he stood up, "do you have any idea how worried—" he stopped, then continued after a second ".. your mom would have been?"

mom isnt even home. if she was worried she would've definitely called me up a thousand times, you're the worried one hyunjin. you just don't wanna accept it.

i sighed, "there's nothing to worry about, i just came out to get some fresh air." 

"this late? this far??" he crossed his arms, i dont even know why im standing here and explaining shit to him.

"does it matter? i never asked you to look for me in the rain," i was gonna say some more but my phone rang again, this time it was seungmin.

"dont pick up" hyunjin said as he noticed the caller id, "he'll be worried" i replied.

"do you think i wasn't?? i was losing my fucking mind" he said, finally accepting he was.

"and since when do you worry about me?" i argued back, ignoring the call ringing in my hands.

hyunjin sighed again as i waited for his answer, but he didnt say anything. i scoffed and picked up the call, as i was about to put it up to my ear hyunjin grabbed my phone and answered it instead.

"i got her, go home" he said and hung up. i looked at him annoyed. but I didn't bother calling seungmin back again, if he's worried, he should be. he had no right to yell at me before letting me explain.

we started walking, he was right. i did come pretty far away, and I didn't even realise it. i looked at him walking beside me from the corner of my eyes, and he was shivering. of course he was, its cold and he's completely soaked.

"I'll get us a uber" i said as i pulled out my phone, he nodded.

-

when we reached, i saw seungmin sitting on the door to my house, all soaked as well. what is wrong with them ugh. i quickly got off the car and went to him, he stood up as soon as he saw me.

"y/n, I'm so sorry-" he said, but i cut him off,  "lets first go inside, you both need to change" i said as i unlocked the door and went inside, both of them followed me in.

"ugh, look at yourselves. i still dont understand what you got so worried over, its not like i ran away or anything" i told them, hyunjin just shrugged and seungmin still felt sorry, i knew he wanted to talk but they'll more than probably catch a cold if they stay like that any longer.

i sigh, "go take a shower both of you, hyunjin can you let seungmin borrow your clothes?" i know, this is such a bad idea, but i have no other options. theres no other male in this house whose clothes i can give seungmin to.

"no" hyunjin said straight forward, "you used my room without my permission, dont you think you owe me this?" i bugged him again, lowkey blackmailing him but oh well.

"would you have preferred me pissing on the stairs instead?" he said annoyed, "is he staying here?" seungmin finally spoke out his confusion. "yes, i am" hyunjin said with a slight proud tone, even though im the one seungmin asked.


"ill explain it to you later" i assured seungmin, "hyunjin, give him your clothes, its just for one night" i asked him again, "whatever" he said and walked up to his room.

theres a bathroom in the hallway downstairs, and a bathroom in every other spare room. i went in one of them to let seungmin use it, but it was locked. i moved to the next one, locked. i checked each and every one of them, and they were all locked. i dont even know where the keys are. i guess they'll have to take turns in the bathroom downstairs.

i went back down and hyunjin already returned with some clothes by then, "the rooms are all mostly locked so just use the same shower" i told both of them, but i guess i worded it kind of- wrong. they looked at each other and then gave me a weird look, "TAKE TURNS I MEANT!" i quickly added, "unless.." i winked at both of them before running away to my room to grab a towel for seungmin.

when i returned with the towel, i saw them playing rock paper scissors.. they're so weird.

hyunjin won, "I'm going first then" he smirked at seungmin and went in, so that was what they were competing on. i slightly smiled.

but i dont think it would be a good idea to let seungmin stay like that for any longer, "you can use the shower in my room" i told seungmin as i handed him towel

hyunjin quickly peeked out of the bathroom, "thats not fair??" he said dramatically, i kind of missed seeing that dramatic face of his. "yes it is, infact this one is bigger" i told him and asked seungmin to follow me

seungmin stuck out his tongue to hyunjin and mocked him before walking away, "you guys are so childish" i said as i shook my head.

-

a few minutes later seungmin got out of the shower, i was scrolling through my phone sitting on my bed while waiting for him.

i turned my head to face him, and he was walking out with the towel around his shoulders and his hair still kind of wet. i dont know if this is a bad thing to say but.. he looks kind of hot. like, actually hot. i quickly put my hand on my chest slowly slapping it so my heart slows down a bit. i never thought seungmin, this nerd, could look this attractive.

he finally looked at me and i quickly looked away as i took in a deep breath to pull myself together, i stopped patting my chest and got up, then faced him.

"you okay? did you catch a cold? you look all red" seungmin asked worried, "oh am i?? ahaha isn't it a bit hot in here?" i said nervously with forced chuckles as i fanned my face with my hands. sometimes im so glad he's a nerd. or maybe.. he's just pretending like he doesnt know— i need to stop.

i sighed deeply again, "ill bring us some coffee"

he giggled, "do you even know how to make any?"

right.. the maids all left already. damn it.

"well.. its just coffee, of course i do.." i said in a low voice, lying. i guess i really am spoiled enough to never have made coffee my whole life.

"ill make some, i work in a cafe remember?" he said and smiled, i smiled back and we went to my kitchen downstairs.

he started making some coffee as i told him where stuff was, i can clearly see on his face on how curious he is about this whole hyunjin situation, but he doesn't bring it up.

"three?" i asked as i noticed him pouring down the coffee to three cups, "hyunjin, i still hate him but he did find you so i guess he deserves it"

"aishh i dont understand why you guys are acting like you saved my life or something, its cringe" i said, he smiled as he handed me the cups of coffee and we went back up.
the bathroom downstairs is empty so i guess hyunjin's done, i knocked on his room's door.

i just handed him the coffee without saying anything, he looked a bit confused to still see seungmin here, but he didn't say anything about it. i was about to walk away when i heard him say something.

"i didn't mean to use your room, but all the other rooms were locked and i wanted to piss really badly, sorry for not asking" he said, he probably thinks im still annoyed at him. "im not mad" i told him, he nodded as he looked at the coffee.

"seungmin made it" i said, "for the clothes" seungmin added and shrugged. they're like preschoolers i swear.

me and seungmin went back to my room. as we sat down on my bed, i finally decided to tell him.

"seungmin, im sorry. i shouldve told you everything sooner" i said as i took a sip, seungmin took a slight glance at me and nodded, expecting me to say more. "hyunjin's dad is abusive and he beat his mom up to the point she's in the hospital. my mom found him in the hospital that day and she thought it wasn't safe for him to go back to his dad, so she asked him to live with us by the time his mom heals." i said as i sighed, seungmin took a second to process everything in.

"dont worry though, we dont interact at all, unless we somehow run into eachother i dont really exist for him" i added

"are you sure? because from what i saw today, you so did exist for him"

"well.. maybe thats because he saw me almost get kidnapped and thought something like that again"

"kidnapped?? when did that happen??"

shit. i shouldnt have brought that up. if i tell seungmin i drink im so dead. "well uh.. i was really tired and yeah.. you know..." i said pausing in my words, trying to think of a excuse.

he sighed, "you should take better care of yourself y/n, yes you're rich and everything but that doesn't really protect you from things that happen in this world" hearing that, i smiled without realising. i dont know why it made me happy that he genuinely does care about me. i shook my head, "you sound like a dad" i mocked, he smiled.

"I'm sorry as well, i shouldn't have yelled at you without letting you speak" he said, i shook my head, "dont be, its my fault. i would've done the same if i was you" i said and smiled back, he nodded slightly

"oh right, should i get you a car?? your mom would be worried, its really late"

"dont worry, shes working overnight so she probably thinks im home, sleeping" he said a bit low, i can tell how bad he feels about his mom overworking. and that makes me feel bad for him.

"well.. how's your dad doing? is everything going good?" i asked

"yeah, he's getting his last surgery next week and if things go well, he'll be healthy and out of the hospital by next month" his face brightened again, "im glad" i said with a warm smile.

"well, why dont you just stay here tonight? we can have a sleepover!" i asked him excited, but then looking at his face.. yeah bad idea.

"i was waiting for you to say that"

~to be continued

filler chapter except it's unnecessarily long


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