your eyes go wide
y/n: no
Vinnie: y/n show me your arms
y/n: FINE
you say as you pull up your sleeves Vinnie walks forward and takes your arms
Vinnie: y/n my love why
you start to cry as Vinnie pulls you into a hug
Vinnie: shh it's okay baby
y/n: I'm sorry Vinnie
you say as you cry more seeing the pain in his eyes
Vinnie: did you clean them
you shake your head no
Vinnie: come on let me clean the
you nod your head and he leads you upstairs and into your bathroom, you sit on the counter as he gets the first aide kit out of the cupboard, he puts it next to him as he takes a deep breath, and starts to unwrap your bandages his eyes go wide as he sees the deep cuts with little bits of dried blood around them he does the same to the other arm sighing seeing what you have done. he can see the old cuts starting to scar over tears start to prick his eyes he quickly blinks them away as he gets the disinfectant wipes from the box and the anti-septic cream with some fresh bandages
Vinnie: this might hurt a little bit
you nod your head as he takes the wipes ad gently wipes your cuts trying not to hurt you, you wince in pain as Vinnie looks up at you
Vinnie: sorry baby
y/n: it's okay vin
once he finishes wiping the cuts down on both arms he puts a little anti-septic cream on his finger and slowly rubs it on your arm trying not to hurt you once he has done that to both arms he gently wraps the bandages around your arms to keep them protected
y/n: thank you vin
Vinnie: it's okay baby but please if you ever feel like you need to hurt yourself again please ring me or Bryce or charlie just please let one of us help you I don't want you going through this alone
there's a tear running down his cheek as he finishes his sentence you wipe away his tear
y/n: ill try baby I promise I just don't want to force all of my problems on you and I don't want to worry you
Vinnie: baby I swear you're not putting your problems on us we want to help you we love you so much we want to help you
you nod your head as a tear runs down your face Vinnie pulls you into a hug as you try to stop crying
Vinnie: come on my love let's go lay down and watch a movie
you nod your hard in agreement as you jump off the counter and you both walk back into your room and lay down on the bed
Vinnie: what movie do you want to watch
y/n: I don't mind
Vinnie; you sure
y/n: yeah
he puts on a random film as he slowly drifts off to sleep as you lay next to him you feel really bad about what he had to do today you hated seeing him cray t broke your heart seeing him that sad after. about an hour you look at your phone and see its 1:22 am you slowly get out of bed and quietly walk downstairs you go into your top cupboard and reach into the back and get your joint you have had hidden there for a few months you tried to stop because it started to get out of hand but you can't help your self you love the feeling of having no worries or problems you also get your bottle of vodka that you keep there and go and sit on your back doorstep making sure you are quiet so you don't wake Vinnie up you put the joint to your mouth and light it then take a puff you enjoy the high as you open your vodka and take a mouthful enjoying the fell you have it takes you about an hour to finish the joint and vodka you stand up and walk to your trash can hiding the bottle so Vinnie doesn't see it then you close your back door then you walk back upstairs and spray a bit of perfume then you get back in back in bed with Vinnie enjoying the high as you slowly start to fall asleep you wake up to vinne softly saying your name
Vinnie: y/n wake up I've made breakfast
you nod your head and slowly get out of bed and follow him downstairs and into your kitchen and take a seat at the counter
Vinnie: I've made you some pancakes and put all of the stuff you like on top
y/n: oh umm thank you vin
Vinnie: it's okay baby
he walks over to you with both plates in front of you both as he sits down in front of you, you look at the food and take a deep breath as you pick up your fork and knife and cut a piece of pancake, and bring it to your mouth squeezing your eyes shut trying to push the thoughts away you set your knife and falk on the plate as your hands shake and you swallow the food, Vinnie puts his and on top of yours while giving you a reassuring smile
Vinnie; keep going baby your doing so well
you nod your head as you repeat the process of eating the pancake you keep doing that until you are left with only a little bit left you look at Vinnie who is smiling at you
Vinnie: well done baby, you did so well
you smile at him
y/n: thank you vin
you stand up and take both of your pates to the sink growing what's left of yours in the trash and washing everything up and putting it away as you both. you both walk upstairs and go into your bedroom
y/n: I'm just joining to go to the bathroom real quick
he nods his head as you walk into the bathroom you do your business then you stand in front of the mirror you quickly examine your body looking at your tummy it looks so much bigger than last time you sigh washing your hand and walk back into the bedroom and walking to your closet you grab a grey hoodie and some black jeans and quickly go and change brushing your hair and putting it into a messy bun and brushing your teeth and putting on some deodorant then walking back into the bedroom as Vinnie look up at you
Vinnie: hey baby where are you going
y/n: oh I'm just going to go on a quick walk
Vinnie: why, are you okay
y/n: yeah I just want to get some fresh air and clear my head
Vinnie: oh okay do you want me to come with you
y/n: no I won't be long baby
he nods his head and you walk over to him and kiss him then you walk out of your room and go into the kitchen and grab a bottle of water then you walk to your front door and put your headphones in and put on some music then you start walking and walking until you reach the beach