Xavier's pov:
Bianca has broken her right leg and arm, her neck, a few ribs and fell into a coma
That's what the doctor said last month
Alessandro hasn't moved an inch from beside her and he doesn't talk to anyone
He just lays beside her in the hospital holding her hand at all times
Riley and I have grown really distant from eachother
I have to do all Alessandro's work now and I barely see her and she doesn't like that
What else can I do? If the Russians see that the Italian mafia is getting weaker because the boss is with his dying girlfriend they'll come for us
War will start and I can't risk anything happening to my family
Riley on the other hand thinks I've grown distant because she's not ready to have sex with me
I really wonder how that woman's brain is wired
Jasmine has been really clingy too
She thinks I'll leave her like Alessandro did
I tried talking to Alessandro telling him to just let her hug him but the one time i told him I'll bring her to him He yelled at me telling me to not bring her anywhere near him or the hospital
I don't know what's gotten into him Bianca just keeps fucking with his head no matter what she does
She can't let him be
Tyler has to sit with Jasmine when I have to leave or else she starts crying
So basically it has been a very stressing month
And to top it off Anastasia is coming over
That means I have to tell Riley who she is and with how she's been acting it's very likely that she'll do something stupid
That's what had me sighing as I took a deep breath before entering Riley's room
She was cuddled up with her pillows and blanket on the couch her laptop on her lap, her hot chocolate in her hand and my oversized hoodie and her grey sweatpants is what she wore along with her reading glasses and a messy bun
She looked focused on her work as the lines she wrote in her assignment occupied her ocean blue eyes
I want our kids to have her eyes, I really do
Woah where on earth did that come from? She's mad at you these days Xavier don't let your mind wander around
But fuck the image of her sitting on that couch with two little blue eyed kids now lives in my head
Focus
I cleared my throat making her lift her eyes up to look at me before they went back down quickly
I frowned
I want her eyes on me not on the damn laptop
"Do you want something?" She gave me little to none of her attention
This feeling is...annoying
I want her attention
But if she wants to play that game I'll show her who's the coach
"No I just wanted to inform you that my ex-fiancè is coming over today" I turned around to leave but a loud thud made me turn back around
I let out a hearty laugh
I can't even stay mad at her
She got tangled up in the sheets and fell on her face trying to get up
She frowned at me confused as to why I'm laughing
She just looks adorable with her mad frown
I pulled her up and checked if that fall hurt her in anyway before finally looking In her eyes
"Fiancè? Ex-Fiancè?" She whispered
"It was business related not a love engagement happened when I was 16 but it was stopped a year later nothing to worry about love I just thought I shouldn't hide that from you" I searched before on the internet how to be a perfect lover and give your girl what she deserves
I memorized everything the page written by a 13 year old had in it
One of those steps was be open about your past relationships so I thought I shouldn't hide Anastasia from her
"Oh" she stayed silent for a few minutes
"What's on your mind?" I asked gently
"It's just whenever I feel like I finally have you all figured out I finally know everything about you, you prove me wrong" she gave me a sad smile
Fuck that smile hurts
"Hey it's okay you can ask me anything I'll answer right away" I pulled her into my arms
When I felt her shaking I pulled away to look at her face
"What's wrong Riley?" I placed my hands on her cheeks looking in her teary eyes
"I don't want you to leave I'm just not good enough I don't want you to leave me but you're so perfect and god I'm so...me I'm annoying and broken and sad and-and weak and pure disgusting-" I cut her off placing my lips on hers in a soft kiss
I felt her lips shake along with the rest of her body
God the way that she talked about herself is just so...hurtful
I pulled away and wiped her pouring tears "I'm never leaving you baby I love you so so much and I'm planning to stay forever you're not anything from those vile traits you described yourself with, you're the most beautiful, clever, outstanding, amazing person I know you hurt me when you talk about yourself like that" I sighed resting my head on top of hers "I know I've been distant lately but God you don't understand how much work I need to do everyday, if I don't that would put you in danger and you should know that I'd give anything before something happens to you okay? I'm not being distant for any other reason except having a load of work get that in your pretty little head" she didn't say anything just snuggled into me hiding her face in my neck
We stayed like that for sometime
I didn't count but I sure as hell know it was long
But I don't care I'd stay with her for hours if she needs It, nothing matters to me more than her
And I plan on showing her that everyday
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Alessandro's pov:
1 month
4 weeks
30 days
720 hours
43200 minutes
2592000 seconds
That's how long it has been since she tried taking her life away
Since I've done nothing but sit beside her holding her hand
Why did she do that? Why did she do that to me?
She wanted to leave me again
She'll never give me a chance will she?
She'll always leave me
She'll always have the power to break me
I clutched her hand tighter resting my head on it
And what I swore I'll never do is exactly what I did
I saw a tear fall on her hand
That's when I realized it was my tear
I was crying for her
Again
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K.m.