𝖈𝖚𝖗𝖗𝖊𝖓𝖙𝖑𝖞 𝖑𝖎𝖘𝖙𝖊𝖓𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖙𝖔: 𝖇𝖑𝖆𝖈𝖐 𝖈𝖑𝖔𝖚𝖉𝖘 - 𝖓𝖈𝖙 127
TW// mention of self inflicted blood
chenle and jisung sat on the ledge for hours, until jisung decided it was best for him to get back.
after all, he didn't know just how long they had sat there.
"i think i should go. i need to get back early before any suspicion. thank you for taking me around and it was nice to spend this time with you."
"it was nice for me too ji; i never thought i would be bringing anyone here but... you're very special."
jisung smiled endearingly at the comment and stood up, "let's go shall we?"
chenle also stood up and they both went back the way they came, ending up next to the tree that allowed them in here.
"are you staying chenle?"
"yes, i need to tend to daegal, i noticed her food had run out just then. also there's a lot of time left before i really need to go. i'll see you tomorrow, ji?"
"sure thing, bye lele!"
chenle waved and jisung turned around and walked through the tree, disappearing.
he lightly smiled and his heart felt incredibly warm.
he wanted to spend a long time with jisung.
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chenle awoke the next day to a noise i don't have to elaborate on anymore, and decided to go and visit his friends today.
happier than usual, he did his daily routine of getting dressed, eating breakfast and going back to his room.
again he grabbed the same cloak, put it on, and swung himself out the window, descending to the ground.
he took the same route, blending in with the crowd.
this time the homeless man was not there.
it was unusual.
he shrugged it off and went down to the shop, and the familiar jingle of the door caught mark's attention.
he was in the middle of dealing with a customer, and so chenle kept his head down to avoid being recognised.
he pretended to look through the sweets on offer until the customer had left, and haechan immediately came speeding in from the back room to envelope chenle in a hug.
"we missed you chenle!"
"i missed you too. i can't breathe again"
haechan let go and yangyang this time came over, "how are you doing? glad to see you're alive. it's such a bummer, isn't it? i know you trusted him."
"...what are you talking about?"
the 4 stared at eachother.
"you haven't heard?"
chenle just looked at them with a confused yet upset face. he was sure they were talking about a specific someone.
"i'm sorry to break this news to you" , mark started, "that hooded guy you've been meeting? he's been spying on us. the whole kingdom. everyone is suspecting he's looking to see any weak spots for an attack. they are already on bad terms with us, aren't they?"
chenle's heart dropped to the floor.
he didn't believe it.
"how do you know this for sure?"
"your brother. he's out all day isn't he? he came racing back yesterday and informed your parents that there was this guy with the exact same description as that hooded guy camped just outside the forest. staring right at the kingdom with a scope. he's not ours, we don't have that kind of clothing. i'm sorry."
before kun could pitch his words in, chenle was out the door, running full speed back to his bedroom, tears streaming down his face.
he hadn't fully processed what this meant when he collapsed into his bed, curling into a ball.
he just sobbed, for hours.
only when his tears died down a little bit was when he could really think.
he brought him to his safe place. the only safe place he had. and now he betrayed him.
chenle punched his bed side table, not caring for the blood now creeping down his fingers.
it didn't hurt as much as what he was feeling emotionally.
chenle really trusted park jisung. more than anyone. and now that's broken. just like that.
he thought about all the things he told jisung about himself and his circumstances, he thought about introducing him to his 'home', he thought about everything that could now be used against their kingdom.
everything that could now have a negative affect on his actual home he was fixed on, and it was all because of him.
he was the reason that they could now be taken over. because he trusted the traitor park jisung.
watching as the blood seeped into his bedsheets, he blamed everything on himself.
"you're such a fucking idiot", and he punched the table again.
he decided that that would be the last punch as that one hurt incredibly, and he sat up.
"fuck you park jisung."
he sat there for another few hours, deep in thought.
when he noticed the dried blood becoming uncomfortable, he went to the bathroom to wash it off.
he looked into the mirror while dipping his hands in water, looking at what a disgrace he was.
chenle chuckled, "this hurts so bad"
not the outer wounds he was now vigorously rubbing with water, the internal ones.
wrapping his hand with gauze, he left the bathroom and noticed the sun going down.
he obviously wasn't going to go out that night.
instead, he went to the one thing he had left, yeji.
👑
knocking on the spare room she was staying in, he called her name, "yeji?"
"yes honey?"
he still didn't feel that this was right.
"can i come in?"
"of course!"
chenle opened the door to see yeji sat in her bed, sheets covering her legs.
"have you been crying?"
chenle hesitantly walked over to the bed and sat down.
hating the thought of what he was about to do, he did it anyways, because that was the only support he would get in that moment.
awkwardly, he leant into her, putting his arms around her neck and dug his head into it.
yeji smirked, seeing this as an invitation, and layed down, bringing chenle with her.
he was now cuddled into her side, hating every second of it, but this was what he deserved, right?
"stop crying, for me"
chenle held his disgust down after yeji said that.
he was doing nothing for her, he was the one that needed the help.
he couldn't believe he was now cuddling a terrible person to sleep, but he thought that this would teach him a lesson.
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(an. .... sO
'chenle became increasingly paranoid about jisung' in my notes turned into this LMAO
I'm sorry I had to include the Tw material but it really shows chenle's emotions in that moment
I might be projecting how I would act in this situation onto chenle but WHATEVER
it's been 5 days since I last wrote because I've been revising and doing homework ❤️
2 BADDIES 2 BADDIES 1 PORSCHE
outsold
anyways LEE JENOOOOOOOOOOO?????
HE IS SO FAMOUS AND SO HOT AND SO FINE AND IDK HOW HE CAN WALK IN THEM HEELS
god he's so iconic
uh
angsty moment <3
um IDK WHAT TO SAY
uh the year 7s are little pricks omg they were kicking the back of my bag 'dO iT agAiN dO it aGain'
I'm so short they probably didn't think I was a yr11 but if i turned around THEY WOULD HAVE SHIT THEMSELVES
but I didn't turn around ❤️)