Author's note: All I can say is sorry...-Ian
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I accompany Eren back to the room after working out with the boys. Mikasa and Annie stood outside of their room ahead of us. I groan. Eren nudges me.
"Stop," He tells me to stop being mean. I roll my eyes, facing away from him. We stop as we walked in opposite directions. Annie looks at us, displeased. Mikasa keeps a neutral face, I'm assuming for the sake of Eren.
"You just came back from working out?" Mikasa asks Eren. He nods.
"Yeah, I'm about to shower and probably hang out with Jean and the rest," Eren replies. She nods. He signals with his head.
"What are you guys up to?" He asks.
"We're about to get some drinks. Wanna come?" Mikasa asks. Eren shakes his head with a disinterested expression. He turns to me.
"You wanna go with them? Can Y/n go with you guys?" Eren asks. The three of us looked at him, caught off guard.
"I mean...If she wants. Do you want to come?" Mikasa nervously asks me. I look back at the three of them, puzzled. I look at Eren once more and he tilts his head, trying to convince me to try to make amends. I take a deep breath.
"...Sure," I reply, unsure. Mikasa keeps a neutral face but I can tell she's disappointed with my response.
"Okay then. Have fun. Be nice to each other, I'm serious," Eren warns us.
"Relax," Mikasa replies.
"No, I'm serious Mika. If I hear anything from either side, I'm not gonna be happy. So keep it cute," He warns before walking down the hall, into our room, leaving me with Annie and Mikasa...Alone. We awkwardly stand for a minute before Mikasa and Annie walk to the bar. I follow behind them. Mikasa looks back at me and stops. Instinctively, I stop too.
"...Walk with us. Not behind us. We're not babysitting you. You're hanging out," Mikasa tells me in a pained tone. Almost as if she hated being nice to me. I skeptically step in between them and we continue to walk.
The walk to the bar was mostly silent. Annie complimented my perfume. I told her I liked her shoes. Mikasa commented on the nice weather a few times before we reached the bar. We sat at the bar stools and waited for the bartender to assist us. I checked the time a couple of times because I had no idea what to do with my hands. I cleared my throat before speaking.
"So Mikasa...What's your major?" I ask her casually. She looks at me, surprised I spoke the first word.
"Uh...Astrophysics. I like space a lot so I've been studying for that...What about you?" She asks me, cringing at our conversation. I lick my lips before speaking.
"I'm undecided right now but I think I'll switch to business. You know, for obvious reasons..." I awkwardly reply. Mikasa shoots a look at Annie.
"I'm majoring in criminal justice. I wanna be a counselor for juvenile delinquents," Annie chimes in, deadpan. My head turns to her.
"That's interesting. What made you decide your major?" I ask her curiously. For some reason, speaking to Annie had less pressure. Annie's mellow, relaxed eyes looked at me as she shrugged her shoulders.
"When I was a kid, I thought I was a monster. I wasn't loved. Went to juvie a couple of times. So maybe kids like me need kids like me," She briefs me. I nod, understanding.
"That counts for something then. I'm sure you'll do well," I tell her. The tenseness on her forehead disappeared suddenly. She gave me a small smirk before turning forward. I turn back to Mikasa and I make eye contact and quickly looked away before a bartender came.
I ordered a whiskey on the rocks, Mikasa ordered a Bloody Mary, and Annie ordered a bottled beer, Corona. We drank as Mikasa and Annie engaged in conversation, laughing occasionally. I was nervous to address the elephant in the room and I think she was too. So we avoided each other's gaze and kept our conversations separate. As Annie calmed down from her laugh, she watches us. She looked at us with a smirk still on her face, her sharp canines showed through her small effort of a smile as her lazy, sunken eyes, stared at us. I blushed at her attractive demeanor before looking forward.
"Let me ask you guys something," Annie speaks more loosely as she had alcohol in her system. Mikasa and I look at her, waiting for her to speak again.
"Why?" She asks. We look at her, obliviously confused. She looks at us with a displeased expression.
"What's the beef?" She asks us. Mikasa and I look back at each other before looking back at Annie.
"Don't act like an outsider in this Annie," I tell her. She looks at me with creased eyebrows.
"I'm not. I'm a bitch to you because Mikasa is my girl. I'm a loyal friend. That's my truth. Now you two," She dismisses me, pushing us to speak.
"...I never had a problem with Mikasa. Even when we first met at the party, I was defending her from Eren and the other dudes when they treated her like a little prize. I don't like when people kiss and tell. But I don't know where it went wrong," I talk to Mikasa indirectly through Annie. Annie looks at Mikasa, expecting her to speak. Mikasa sighs, uncomfortable.
"It's personal shit that made me treat you like that. I guess it isn't your fault... I treated you like an invader. And I wasn't used to a change like you so I act like a bitch," She tells me. Personal stuff. I know what personal stuff. Not fully, but I have the idea. I have the courage to turn and face Mikasa.
"Can I ask you something?" I ask her. She looks at me, a little nervous before nodding.
"Are you dependent on Eren? Or do you think you are? Genuinely asking," I tell her with a disarmed tone. She looks at me for a moment, not knowing what to say.
"...Why do you wanna know? You wanna butt in?" She asks, defensive. I shake my head.
"I wanna understand. Are you being nasty towards me because of Eren? And why?" I rephrase my question. She licks her lips nervously before responding.
"Yeah," She blankly replies.
"I'm not in love with Eren and I'm not a possessive person. Eren and I have known each other for a long time so naturally, I'm protective. I guess that isn't enough of an explanation for you because I think my problem with you is way deeper than that, honestly," Her tone changes.
"Okay...So what's your issue then?" I ask her. She leans a little closer to me, watching me.
"I think you feel really entitled to certain things. I think that you feel the right to know everything from everyone. I can tell that a secret doesn't sit right with you...When you don't know it." She inches away from me, back into her seat comfortably. I watch her, with a hint of annoyance.
"So I have an issue with you, yeah. Because I just have a gut feeling that you will twist a narrative until you benefit from it." She takes a sip from her drink before finishing her sentence.
"And I've never been wrong about my gut feeling...So I'll stick to it. We don't have to be friends. I have no strong desire to do that anyways. But I have a strong desire to watch you unfold. I have a feeling you will. So let's call it neutral," She finishes. I look at her for a moment before scoffing.
"Okay," I tell her. We look away as we hear a group of boys laughing and chatting. The boys stopped by the bar. I sigh with relief before giving them a small smile. I try to pick my mood back up before they approached us. Everyone went to their roommate, naturally. Eren approached me with a smile before putting his arm around me.
"Did it go well?" He asks me in my ear as he kissed my cheek. I nod.
"Yeah. Nothing major," I lie. Not ruining this trip. Nope.
"Good. That's a start then. Proud of you for swallowing your pride because if I were you, I wouldn't," He tells me. I chuckle.
We hung out in the lounge area at the outside bar. Eren sat with the boys as Sasha and I crack jokes with Marco. Sasha looks past me and covers her face. I look at her before looking back at the boys. I see Eren sneaking a photo of me. I laugh before standing up and approaching him. He closes up on my face and takes pictures from funny angles. We chuckle.
"Wait, wait. Let me take a picture in .5," He tells me. I laugh before hiding my face, embarrassed.
"No my forehead is gonna look huge," I reply, laughing. He takes my hands out of my face. I reluctantly cooperate, still embarrassed. He laughed at the product, showing me. I wheezed in laughter, laughing into his arm and hitting it lightly. We laugh it off before I start to walk back to Sasha. Eren grabs my hand before I could and pulls me with him. He sits back down at the table with the boys and taps his lap, wanting me to sit on him. I sit down and face the boys. Eren keeps his hand casually on the small of my back.
"Me and Y/n want to personally apologize for the noise last night," Eren brings up. We laugh. I point at Connie.
"Connie was so mad. He came up to me at the gym this morning and lectured me about the noise," I tell them. Connie shakes his head in disapproval.
"Because it was loud as fuck! Like good for you Eren but damn...Keep it down, please," Connie desperately pleads in humor. We laugh. Mikasa walks back to the table and gives Reiner the drink that he asked her to get for him. She smiles at us.
"You guys look cute together. Let me take a picture," She holds her hand out for a phone. Eren hands his phone to her and starts taking pictures of us. Eren messes up my hair for the photo and I laugh before fixing my hair. I put my arms around his shoulders and turn towards the camera and pose. We did another pose with me kissing his cheek. The last pose was Eren grabbing my face and kissing me. The boys shouted with disgust before Eren let me go. Mikasa keeps her neutral smile, handing Eren his phone back.
"They came out good but the lighting is a little off," Mikasa comments before walking away.
"She's starting to warm up to you," Eren tells me as we both look through the photos.
"You think so? I don't know..." I tell him. He nods happily.
"Yeah, I think so. I know her. She's giving you a chance. I hope you do the same," He encourages me. I watch him as he chuckles at the photos. He was so happy we were getting along. I didn't want to damper anything. I snapped out of it and picked my mood back up to look through the photos.
"You can't tell me you guys aren't together at this point," Reiner comments.
"Right. Just ask her to be your girlfriend," Jean chimes in, bothering Eren. Eren shifts in his seat.
"Shut up," Eren nervously chuckles. I get off of Eren's lap and go back to Sasha, who was still talking to Marco. I sit back down in my old spot before butting back into the conversation. Sasha glances at me, noticing my mood was a little off. She turns and faces me.
"What's wrong?" She asks me. I look at her and shake my head.
"Nothing? Why do you think something's wrong?" I tease, deflecting.
"I dunno...You just look a little off in the face. Did your social battery drain?" She asks me. Mikasa approaches us.
"I'm heading back to the bar. You guys want me to get you anything?" She asks us. Sasha smiles.
"Can I get a vodka cranberry?" She asks Mikasa. She nods before looking at Marco.
"Uh...Maybe another beer is okay?" He asks her. She nods and turns to me.
"I'm good. Thanks," I tell her. She walks away. I thought to myself for a moment. Of what Mikasa told me. Do I believe what she said to me? I don't know. I don't really do well with self-reflection. Maybe it is true. But I don't think that's where my problem lies. I just don't know if I should talk to Sasha about it.
Well. Fuck it.
I turn back to her and stand up, signaling for her to follow me inside. Sasha stands up and hurried behind me as I opened the glass door, back inside the resort.
"Are you gonna tell me you're pregnant?" Sasha jokes. I scoff.
"Yeah right. I wanna tell you about how Mikasa and I spent our afternoon together," I tell her. Her eyebrows crease, confused. She chuckles.
"What happened?" She asks me.
"I just asked her what the animosity was and she tried to read me. Saying shit like I'm entitled and that we don't have to be friends because she wants to observe from afar. I have no clue what she meant by that but does that sound a threat?" I ask her. Sasha looks outside as Mikasa holds her drink for her. She looks back at me. She looked conflicted about what to say.
"I...Have no clue Y/n...Mikasa is pretty unpredictable. Did she say anything about Eren?" She asks me. I shrug my shoulders.
"She just explained that Eren is a friend that she cares about and she's just protective. But she told me her problem with me is deeper than Eren. But Eren thinks we're getting along so I don't want to ruin the mood," I explain. Sasha nods.
"Yeah just steer clear of her. Focus on the trip. At least the air is sort of cleared," Sasha tells me.
"I'm just gonna go back to the room. I'm done drinking," I tell Sasha before she walked outside.
"I'll tell them," She tells me before walking back. I head to the hotel room, checking the time. It was 9:22 already. We had spent all day in the outside bar, relaxing and talking. As I unlock the door and go inside, my phone buzzes. I see a text from Eren.
Eren
I'm gonna take you out to dinner tomorrow for a little date. I wanted to tell you but you left. You okay?
Y/n
That's cute of you. Thank you :,) I'm fine, just done drinking so I headed back. When are you coming back?
Eren
Whenever you want me to be.
I put my phone down and get in the shower, preparing for bed. I only slept last night for less than eight hours since I woke up so early today. I'm ready for an early bedtime tonight. I just wish Eren was here. But I feel like lately I've been super attached at the hip with him. Maybe I should just cool off and let him hang out with his friends without asking when he's coming back. I think I acknowledged that recently. Even before the trip, we always hung out and he slept over at my place a lot. We still haven't been on a date but this trip kind of counts, right?
In the middle of the night, I woke up to Eren's steps as he closes the door gently, trying to make sure I don't wake up. My eyes peek open to see him approach me and give me a kiss on the forehead. He sighs before going into the bathroom, I'm assuming to wash up. A few moments later, I see him turn off the bathroom lights and take his shirt and pants off. He unties his hair and quickly brushes it before slowly crawling into bed. He gently grabs the sheets and covers himself with them. I feel his hand wrap around my waist as he wiggles himself closer to me. He slowly exhales on my neck before falling asleep.
I woke up before Eren did today. I groggily looked over and saw him sleeping on his back. His arm laid over his eyes to avoid sunlight. I take a deep breath before yawning and getting up. I look at the time before going into the bathroom.
I spent the morning eating breakfast and spending time alone. I walked along the clear, cool water and walked around the resort casually. By the time I went back to the room, Eren was fresh out of the shower. He looks at me with a smile.
"Hey. I woke up and you left me. Where were you?" He lightheartedly asks me. I sighed before smiling at him and sitting on the bed.
"I took some time to myself. I feel like I'm suffocating you a little. We spend too much time together," I tell him. He looks at me with creased eyebrows.
"What do you mean we spend too much time together? Do you feel suffocated?" He asks me. I shake my head.
"No. But-"
"Me either. What made you think that I would get annoyed by spending time together?" He asks, confused. I shrug my shoulders.
"Because you're a young dude and I imagine you don't always wanna spend time with me. Don't feel guilty for having fun or anything," I tell him. He chuckles.
"I don't feel guilty for having fun. Do you?" He asks me.
"No. But I'm just being careful. I don't want you to think you're obligated to spend time with me," I tell him. He sits down on the edge of the bed, by me. He looks at me.
"...I think you're feeling a little insecure about us. But I really don't know why. Did something happen? Did you hear something?" He asks me. I swallow before answering.
"No. I was just in my head too much then..." I lie. He puts his arm around me and pulls me into him, kissing my forehead.
"We're gonna have dinner and have a relaxing night. Maybe in the hot tub? Or a nice bath. And I can give you a full body massage..." He teases me as he kisses my ear, making me flinch from sensitivity. I chuckle.
"Sounds fun. What are you up to today?" I ask him. He stands up and goes into his luggage.
"I'm not sure yet. Jean wanted to do some paragliding and shit but I told him we should do it tomorrow with everyone. You up for it?" He asks me.
"Paragliding? Yeah, that sounds fun. We haven't done anything really fun yet," I tell him excitedly. He chuckles.
"Yeah, I texted everyone telling them we're gonna do it tomorrow morning. So be ready. We can't go to bed too late," Eren tells me. I smile at him.
"That's if you don't keep me up," I tease.
Dinner time approached soon and I wore a nice, sleek, bodycon dress that reached up until my calves. I wore Eren's ring and the bag he gifted me. Eren comes out of the bathroom in semi-formal attire. He approaches me with a kiss.
"You've been so affectionate lately," I compliment him. We hold hands as we walk out of the room.
"You're just so easy to be affectionate towards. You don't ask for it and it makes me want to give it to you. Weird logic," He tells me. I snicker.
"Maybe I'm just easy to like," I boast.
We took a car to dinner. Eren had set up the whole thing for us. There was a lit-up gazebo that stood in the water. A single table stood there with chairs and plates with glasses in their correct places. There were two men standing on each side of the gazebo with two dozen roses in each hand. Live music played from afar. Eren let me walk in front of him to admire what he had set up for me. The ceiling in the gazebo was draped with flowers and vines, making the space more intimate. He pulled my chair for me and I sat down. He sat in front of me. I look around before smiling at him.
"Thank you for this, psycho. You don't have to do this," I tell him. He chuckles.
"Gift-giving is one of my love languages. I enjoy doing it. It's worth seeing that look of shock on your face," He tells me. I couldn't help but smile at his gestures. A waiter poured our wine and Eren pulled his phone out.
"Pose for this picture. I wanna make it my lockscreen," Eren tells me. I smile at the camera for a few moments. Eren smiles at the outtakes.
"Let me see them. Can I pick which one?" I ask him. He nods before handing his phone to me. I look through the options before seeing a notification banner pop up on the top of his phone screen.
Boys only
Connie
Sent a link: "Looks like @Y/n's having so much fun!!"
Bro Eren. Someone posted this shit on a burner twitter account and @ ur girl.
Jean
Is that a sex tape? Wtf...Eren was that you in the vid?
Reiner
LMAOOOO bro wtf who did that. Did you post that shit Eren? glks LMAOOO
Armin
Oh my god...
Connie
Woah, wait she has the same tat as Riley.
Wait. WAIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTT WAIT WAIT
Jean
Nah there's NO way. Eren would've told us that shit
Reiner
This is getting even better
I press the link and there it was. The video of Eren and I posted on the internet...My heart beat through my chest and I felt all the blood in my face being drained. I slowly swallowed, feeling myself getting nauseous. My hands began to tremble. Eren noticed my silence and looked at me with creased eyebrows.
"Y/n? Are you okay? What's wrong?" Eren asks me. But I couldn't speak. Eren snatched his phone back and looked at the screen, soon reacting. He turns his head up and looks at me as I sat there in silence.
"How did that video get out...? Y/n," He calls for me, but I don't respond. I look at him as he frantically scrolls on his phone, trying to see who posted it. I stared at him before he noticed and looked back at me.
"Did you post it?" I ask him, idle. He looks at me, creased eyebrows. He was offended at my question.
"Are you joking? Did I post the video? Where we both are in it?" He rhetorically asks me.
"Who knows? Maybe you were out drunk and handed your phone to someone that thought it was a good idea to save it," I tell him.
"So it's my fault we both got exposed? Y/n be fucking for real. Are you serious?" He asks me abrasively.
"Whatever. I'm done. I thought I could trust you and your friends and be all good but clearly fucking with all of you was a big fucking mistake," I tell him as I stand up.
"What do my friends have to do with anything?" Eren asks, annoyed, as he follows behind me.
"Who else would upload the video and tag me in it? Whoever it was had to have known it was me. So it's fine. I'll pack my shit and take the next flight out of here and you won't have to hear about me because clearly, your friend group is fucking psychotic dick-riding assholes," I tell him. I turn around and continue to walk away.
"You really think one of us did it? You really think I did it?" He asks from afar. I turn around to answer, speed-walking towards him where I met him eye to eye.
"This is my fucking money, my image, my reputation, and my fucking life that depends on what is consumed by others in the media about me... You're taking it as hard as me, sure. But you're not gonna suffer from the damages I do. Clearly, they already made me out. I take care of a family at home. Do you get that Eren? So when you have it cracked down on who posted this bullshit, let me know. Because I don't trust any of you as of right now..." I tell him. He looks me in the eye.
"...So stay away from me," I finally tell him. I walk away.
I'll leave and never speak to them again. Fuck all of them.