Tell me,
What am I to you?
I want to speak.
My mind binds my throat.
I want to speak.
Will you hear me out?
Will you understand,
And never tell me not to shout?
My voice is failing me.
No one ever hears.
So I won't speak at all,
I won't let you see my tears.
I always shout.
No one hears.
So I'll just shut up.
Everything's okay.
Someone just turned invisible.
I envy the clouds for crying so freely.
Maybe if I did better.
Maybe if I tried harder.
I'm angry.
I'm angry that no one will listen.
I'm angry that I can't speak.
I'm angry that you caught me
In the trance before I could look away.
I'm angry that I can't tell you that I liked you for so long,
And that you will never know.
So I'll just shut up.
Maybe I'm just better off alone.