WAITING FOR SADIQ
CHAPTER 31
When people tell Nanah marriage sometimes can be complicated at times she never take that statement very serious until now, 2months after her marriage nothing seems to be on track, she have try countless times to speak to abubakar but it's as if the more effort she put the more they both drift apart, she feel fed and completely tired of everything, she doesn't want to drag parents into this especially since there wedding is still new but how can she continue like this, it's been 2weeks since she last saw Abubakar, he told her he's traveling the most upsetting thing that worry Nanah is that he doesn't pick her calls whenever he leave,
As she quietly arrange her clothes into the small suitcase she try to think of a lie she will come up with to tell her mum, staying here alone in this big house will never give her the answers she wants.
Once she's done arranging the clothes she look around the bedroom and is satisfy by how everything is, she grab her veil and open the door with a sigh as she hear a shuffling sound behind her making her to quickly turn, suprise to see abubakar.
"Where are you going to ?"he ask glancing at the suitcase and back to her face.
"Home."Nanah grumble and grab her suitcase handle but abubakar grab it to.
She release a tiring sigh and look up at him.
"Abu what do you want?
You are not even at home all the time,
We are married but it's better we are not,
It's been two months and..........
"If you leave today you will loss me forever."he say and Nanah stare at him for a while.
"Then prove to me that you love me as you always say,
62days Abubakar, for 62days we've been married but it's as do we are complete strangers."Nanah yell to his face and abubakar facepalm.
"I know nanah,
It's just..........
Forget it you will never understand."he say the frustration clear in his voice.
"Then make me understand Abu,
All i want is a small little affection from you,
Abu i love you,
I miss you an.......
"Stop saying that Nanah."abubakar say and quickly grab her by the hand.
"I...I love you to."he say and Nanah stare at him.
"Then prove it to me,
I'm not asking for much Abu,
just be there for me,
Let's act like normal couples,
Let's do what normal couples do that's all I want."Nanah say and abubakar release a heavy breathe.
"Let's go inside."he say and grab the suitcase in his other hand.
That morning Abubakar and Nanah had a long talk, even do he didn't tell her the reason why he's been keeping distance and avoiding her, he let her know he really do love her and that he's sorry for everything, somehow it's a new beginning for Nanah but a start of another problem one that will test her patience and perhaps tear them apart once again.
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Nanah's POV
Five months into my marriage and abubakar have not lay a finger on me, we share thesame bedroom and bed but the highest thing we do is cuddle and maybe once in a while shared a kiss, there are moments where I try to go beyond kissing with him and he just politely stop me, it gat me worried honestly and whenever I try to bring up conversation about that, he always tell me he is not ready or we should wait for the right time,
Abubakar is sure a complicated man.
I'm currently laying on the bed with my head on his chest, I look up at him and sigh, he's peacefully sleeping,
I glance at the digital clock that shows 10pm and i release a heavy breathe.
I slowly trail my finger circling around his nipple and his eyes instantly open in alert.
"Stop it."he say and remove my hand from his chest making me to sigh.
"Abu we need to talk."I say and sit upright and he just turn his back against me clearly not interested in whatever conversation i want to start,
It's not the first time i try to speak to him about our inactive nonexistent sexual life in our marriage..
"Abu what's going on?"I ask and remove the duvet from his body.
"Are you impotent or what?
We can.......
"Don't call me that."he snap looking up at me and then go back to his laying position.
"Is this how we are going to continue living?
Aren't we going to have kids of our own?"I ask and he sigh before sitting up.
"Is that all you care about?
If you want to have a child I told you I'm okay with you bringing your sister daughter here,
If you are not happy with the way things are then leave,
I can't do more than my best."he say and lay back on the bed.
"Abu if you........
"Nanah not a single word about this,.I have a long day tomorrow,
If you are tired of staying with me the door is open widely."he say and i keep quiet since he sound really upset.
"I'm sorry."I say and lay back next to him, I grab hiss hand and put it around my waist making him to release a calming breathe.
He go back to sleep almost instantly while i stay half the night up thinking of how to come up with a solution to this abubakar weird nonexistent sexual appetite.
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Abubakar POV
Time they say wait for no one and like a slug on it's way to the mountain hill it's been 11months since i married,
There's nothing enticing about my marriage life especially with Nanah and i now always quarrelling about not introducing sex into out marriage life, I feel so fed up with everything,
Today I wake up with this intense pain in my leg, I have been laying down all day and Nanah seem not to even care at all, it's weekend we are both home.
I look up at the wall clock and it's 12:30pm, I'm hungry and si extremely tired, the bedroom door open and she comes in and walk to the closet without even sparing me a glance.
"Nanah."I call and she peek from the closet.
"What?"she bark and i I sit upright supporting my back with the pillow.
"Where's my breakfast?"I ask and she give me a certain look that i know this conversation won't end very well without a fight.
"Come and eat me."she say and i massage my forehead.
"My leg is paining me,"I say and she sigh.
She continue doing whatsoever it is in the closet and after a while she come out wearing the usual palazzo trouser and a shirt she wears for work.
"I'm going to work,
They call me to replace someone."she say and i stare at her for a while.
"I don't want you to leave this house Nanah,
If you leave consider it a divorce."I say seriously and she stare at me for a while.
"Ohhh really."she say and i ignore her.
I gently place my leg on the floor and cringe at how the electrifying pain trace back to my spine.
"Get me......
"Get it yourself Abu,
You know what?
I'm fed up with you,
Your attitude, this marriage the I'm not benefitting anything from it and everything."she say and i just stare at her, she reminds me of the girl that slapped me two years ago, the arrogant selfish girl i hate to have fallen in love with.
"You know what Nanah,
You are never going to change,
It's who you are and i hate the fact that i love you even after all you did to me."I say and she just hiss.
"Same boring conversation every single day,
Man up and do what your mate do to there wives on bed,
Abu next month we will be 12 months together, a year and you haven't even for once.......
"And you think I'm doing this on purpose or what?"I yell and she snort.
"Then what excuse do you have Abu,
If you are impotent then tell me,
If you can't tell me then tell your mum who's always budging me about not conceiving a grandchild for......
"Don't drag my mum into this conversation."I warn and she just twist her nose up in annoyance.
"Whatever."she say and i shake my head.
I use the little strength in me and endure all the pain i have to weight on my leg and stand up.
"If you are impotent you.......
I don't let her finish sentence i grab her by the arm, I couldn't feel the pain any longer, I'm just fed up and tired of Nanah calling me names because of this.
"Did i look impotent to you?"I yell looking at her as she stare at me.
"You aren't a wife material Nanah,
You weren't a girlfriend material either,
You are just a self-centered,egotistic and rude girl who doesn't care about anyone but herself, all you want and ever care for is what you will benefit from,
I'm glad God put me in this situation for now because had it been he did not i wouldn't know that you aren't a wife that will understand the pain her husband is going through.
Do you want to know Nanah?
Yes impotent, matter of fact i don't even have a single sexual whatsoever in me and it was all because of you,
My whole life come to a halt since that accident,
It has affected me emotionally, physically, psychologically and sexually,
I don't know either and when I get to find out our wedding was fixed and that was why i wanted to call it off and now,
you just make regret why i didn't listen to my heart and called of the wedding."I yell in frustration and let go off her in anger.
"Abu........
"Not a word,
Leave my bedroom."I say pointing the door.
"I'm sorry a........"I grab her by the hand and throw her out of the bedroom before slamming the door shut ignoring her pleading voice.
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