Originally Written: March 2021
Revised / Published: August 7th, 2022
This is a song I wrote around an early 2021, when I thought I was going to be writing a folklore inspired fanfic, which was mainly in August's pov. Obviously, I never got around to writing further, but I did write a song based off it.
This is my interpretation of what August felt when James left her for Betty. As a Leo and August bby, I've always resonated and related to August and the song was instantly my favorite when folklore was released. I've never been anyone's first choice either and constantly pushed aside when I fail to lure their interests.
I like to say I'm an August girl all the way 🙌
Seriously, if you disrespect her in your folklore love triangle book I'll come at you, because she deserves better. In my mind, August and Betty end up together and James has no one. Oh, To Be So Lonely.
On to the lyrics ofc :)
1ST VERSE:
The water rushes through my veins
In quite an erratic rush
The adrenaline flow never to stop
Even if I chose to pause
Your touch is one that'll cause all sanity to vanish
Until the next day
You perceive me as some mistake
You made when you weren't thinking right
As if our love never happened
Yet I recall all the times
I lay in your bed, warped in bedsheets
And believing you were mine
CHORUS:
I'll deal with the afflictions of my actions
When I thought I had it, turns out you were just acting
For a while I felt worthy of someone's loving
And all due to your menacing affection
When jn reality, all I'll ever be
Is a sinking ship lost in the memory
2ND VERSE:
I've always wanted to be someone
And make some grand impression
My gullible belief really got the best of me
Didn't our shores erupt in infedility?
You never once told me about Betty
For once, I believed something 'good' to be
I conceived I got the guy
Naive enough to think
You were the love of my life
Until I watched you leave
And that's when it hit me
You never did love me
You only used me to infatuate jealousy
But it backfired
Like your summer days spent in Tennesse
You chose to let it all prespire
So when you returned to New York City
You poured the blame on my oblivious being
I really thought you loved me
CHORUS:
I'll deal with the afflictions of my actions
When I thought I had it, turns out you were just acting
For a while I felt worthy of someone's loving
And all due to your menacing affection
When jn reality, all I'll ever be
Is a sinking ship lost in the memory
BRIDGE:
Forever forsaken, through your eyes
It's all my fault, ain't it?
I think you're mistaken
You were prospering in blight
When you caught me in vacant sight
All your claims tint as bullshit
When you beg to her
Do you know you sound like an idiot?
The waves kept on rushing
And the lies continue to erode
I allowed you to steer the wheel
And be in command
I gave you my love, my trust
And you messed it all up
Soon enough, our ship flowed in a flood
And I was covered in blood you caused
CHORUS:
I'll deal with the afflictions of my actions
When I thought I had it, turns out you were just acting
For a while I felt worthy of someone's loving
And all due to your menacing affection
When in reality, all I'll ever be
Is a sinking ship lost in the memory
OUTRO:
I really thought you loved me
But you never did you?