𝐅𝐫𝐢𝐝𝐚𝐲 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝟏𝟑𝐭𝐡 ( 𝒎𝒚 𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒈𝒔 '𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒗𝒂𝒖𝒍𝒕')

Beautiful

Written: April 7th, 2021

Genre: Mellow Pop

A/N: This was supposed to be the first song I was gonna post on this account and then I was gonna start a songbook in April ofc. I was fairly new, it being my new (2nd ) acc ( been here since April 2019, switched fandoms and acc March 2021 ), so I then decided not to, especially since this song was so personal and vulnerable. I think that maybe my fate could've been different if I would've posted this song back then, as this was a few months before I started to restrict calories and I think maybe someone could've recognized the signs and warned me from falling into that rabbithole and all the hell I put myself through could've been avoided.

 So y'know, maybe if you relate to these lyrics, take it as a warning sign and just don't do anything stupid, because you're amazing just the way you are. Okay, I know those are lines to Bruno Mars's song, but idk. Point is try to love yourself the way that God made you!

Don't we all love the triology? Beautiful ( 2021 ) < Beauty Is Pain ( 2022 ) < Beauty Queen ( 2023 ). Dw, Beauty Queen is a song on WHY you shouldn't let insecurities get the best of you. It's never worth it </3

( 1st verse )

I joke around like nothing's wrong

One look at myself, and I'm all gone

What must it be like to be beautiful?

Is it my fault I was born this way?

Head to toe a faltering mistake

Fear to run and fear to hide

Afraid to find out what's on the other side

Never been accepted, that's nice

I wake up everyday, wondering what it would be like if I lived a different life

Perhaps one where my flaws are non-existent

I'd have friends who'd listen and understand

( pre-chorus)

Do they know that it kills us to watch them

I'm nothing like them with a glimmering complexion

If I was I wouldn't mind my reflection

I know I'm not the only one who feels this way

( chorus )

Just a young girl in a man's world

Told that's the way society is and will always be

What I see on tv, that's the way all us girls dream to achieve

So that we won't be body shamed

Oh how lovely it'd be if we all felt equally beautifully

I feel hurt, broken and dead inside

Because I don't have what the beautiful do

If only society could accept the inner beauty within

Not every girl has a nice body built in

( 2nd verse )

I want to be pretty, be praised like Lily

Her rosy pink cheeks

The way she speaks to guys with ease

If only I could be as confident

Instead I'm insecure and despise everything about me

I might've liked a guy once, we used to be friends

Years later I sent him a note in high hopes that this would be the beginning of something

But instead it was the end

Used to wonder if I wasn't ideal

Thus seventh grade taught me tough lessons

You are who you are; It stays stuck with you like a permanent scar

I felt the need to be as beautiful as she, eventhough I knew I'd never be

It was then I realized that my perspective in life would never be the same

( pre-chorus )

Do they know that it kills us to watch them

I'm nothing like them with a glimmering complexion

If I was I wouldn't mind my reflection

I know I'm not the only one who feels this way

( chorus )

Just a young girl in a man's world

Told that's the way society is and will always be

What I see on tv, that's the way all us girls dream to achieve

So that we won't be body shamed

I feel hurt, broken and dead inside

Because I don't have what the beautiful do

If only society could accept the inner beauty within

Not every girl has a nice body built in

( bridge: )

They don't think I try

Yet I try and I try and I try

Every single day in my damn life

And I'll continue to try try try

Like a never ending verse

In order to escape this curse

Anything to feel slightly beautiful

( chorus )

Just a young girl in a man's world

I know very well that's the way society is and will always be

What I see on tv, that's the way all us girls dream to achieve

So that we won't be body shamed, but it's too late

You heard me! It's too late!

Some of us have died in order to feel the depiction of beautiful