You don't know how.
You don't know why.
But being with Karina again, alone. Feels so awkward to you right now.
You just talk to each other last night, yet here you are stuck on a store while the rain continues dropping. Heck, you don't know where the others are.
They said they'll just go somewhere and buy stuffs and that they'll go back quickly yet no one to them have go back.
" They said they're at the hotel already " Karina cleared her throat. Yeji just message her that all of them are at the hotel already including Beomgyu.
" Great " You sighed. " They definitely planned this " you assumes.
Karina look at you and for a second, she realized once again how coward she is. She's too coward. Who would dare to left a person who didn't do anything but to love and understand her ?
Maybe Karina is the first one who does that ?
" I have an umbrella. You can use it "
You heard her said, looking beside you when you saw a hand holding an umbrella infront of you.
You shake your head.
" Use it. I'll just wait till the rain stops or I'll just grab a cab or taxi " You look back at the road.
Karina bit her lower lip as she remembers what Beomgyu said.
"she still loves you"
"she cares for you"
She quickly shake her head and just put the umbrella back to her small bag. If you're not leaving then she won't too, it's late already.
" It's late already. I can't even see vehicles passing infront of us " She spoke.
With that, You check the time on your watch and sigh it's really late and it's true that there are no enough vehicles passing infront.
The road is just infront of you, and the fact that it's raining, it's either you wait or get rained again.
" Why aren't you leaving ? " You confusingly asked. She have her umbrella why won't she leave. " You have umbrella with you "
Karina look at you and chuckles, now that confuses you.
Last night she's wasted, hurt and crying, but now she have the strength to chuckle no matter what. So you thinks, maybe that isn't a big thing to her.
But looks like Karina had read your mind.
" You might be thinking that what happened last night is nothing to me, It still hurts but I'm trying to be better "
You look at her and she just chuckled again while shaking her head.
" To answer your question " she paused. " I rather stay here with you. It's dangerous if you're alone " she explains and well you agrees with it.
So you simply nodded your head, and since it's rainy day you smiles and check the road if there's a near convenient store and you're glad there's a 7 11 near by.
" I'm going to go buy ice cream. Do you want to come with me ? "
Ofcourse you're not heartless to offer her, and Karina definitely didn't expect that. She look at you with wide eyes while you waits for her answer.
" Yea-h sure "
Hearing that word coming from her, you extend your hand asking for something. She frowned didn't know what does that suppo to mean.
" Umbrella "
" Ah right " Karina chuckled awkwardly before putting the umbrella to your palm, you opened it and step out of the store and face her.
" Let's go " you motioned her to join you.
For Karina that sounds wrong. Exes sharing one umbrella ? is that even possible ?
But well who is she to disagree, she definitely love that idea.
After joining you, You and Karina started walking to the 7 11 store across the road. The girl shiver on coldness once she felt the aircon touch her skin.
" What do you want ? " You asked her while checking the ice cream inside the cooler.
" corneto " She smiles before grabbing one inside.
You hummed and check the ice cream again with your pouted lips.
Karina knows it's your habit to pout when you're thinking seriously and she could only fimd it cute to the point she let out a chuckle, which obviously didn't escape from you.
" Why did you laugh ? " You look at her.
Karina shake her head. " Because you're cute "
With the unexpected response, you rolled your eyes at her. " Oh. Shut up "
Sitting on one of the tables and chairs just infront of the store, you and Karina sat there beside each other while waiting for the ramyeon to cool down a little.
" Are you stupid ? " You asks Karina.
You were talking about random things while finishing the ice cream before eating the ramyeon.
" Why were you even listening to what they're saying ? "
You and Karina are talking about what happened yesterday and some tough times in her life. Actually Karina insisted the conversation and you're not against it after all.
" You're right " She chuckles. " I'm stupid "
Finishing your ice cream, you speak again. " No, that's not what I meant "
Karina hummed ofcourse she knows, but she's just really thinking that she's literally stupid. " I thought I would be able to do everything by myself and think matured once I turned 20, " She sighs. " But I was wrong "
" I even feel like you've became an adult but not me. You think matured while I thinks stupid "
" I feel like I'm still the same high school student. I can't get anything right and think right " she licked her ice cream that's almost done.
You look at her. " What are you talking about ? " she looks at you. " I feel the same as you " you admits.
" Nothing is easy for me " You look away. " Everything is new and tough but, " you paused. " I think that's how life it's supposed to be "
" You think ? " Karina asked.
You nodded your head as an answer. " I mean just because you're not a teenager anymore doesn't mean you become an adult just like that "
Karina stared at you with amusement.
She don't know how did both of you ended up being comfortable with each other again after the talk, but somehow she likes what's happening. She's satisfied, actually.
" Aren't we all supposed to go through trials and errors like this to grow into adults ? " You look at her who just finished her ice cream.
Karina nodded her head in agreement. " That's.. really comforting "
You hummed.
" How was your job ? " Karina brought up a another topic.
" It was okay " You simply answered. " Tiring, And at the same time satisfying especially if you give justice to the one who deserves it "
Karina smiles, she felt the same to her job.
" How about you ? " You asks her back. " Was it okay to be lawyer than be a singer ? "
" It's fine. I like what I have now " She looks at you and you nodded your head.
Grabbing her chopsticks Karina split it into two. " Eat the ramyeon before it gets soggy "
You nodded your head once again before doing the same and after splitting it you started grabbing some noddles but once you put it in your mouth.
You cough.
Karina look at you and didn't waste a time to offer her bottled water which you gladly accept while you continued coughing.
Once you're done drinking you put the bottle on the table while Karina look at you with concern.
" It tastes like hell " You said earning a chuckle from her.
" Why did you even pick that ? " She laughs, " The lady suggested so " You answered once you stopped coughing.
Karina shake her head and smiles. " Have mine instead. It's not spicy "
With that, you look at her with shocked and confusion.
But Karina didn't wait for your answer instead she already switch her ramyeon with you. " Let me switch the chopsticks " she added.
You remained silent.
You hates spicy food and you didn't know that the lady suggested to you earlier is a spicy one. You were nice enough to not complain and just grab what she suggested.
Karina who seems notice that you were looking at her decided to not look back and pretend that she's busy mixing the ramyeon infront of her.
She then realized something from what she did.
Karina changed the food like what you both used to when one don't like it, when you're still together.
Karina stop mixing the ramyeon.
She realized you're not together anymore.
Looks like
Old habits really die hard.
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