'what do you want rhys' i questioned
'i just saw your car outside' he slurred
'go away' i said
'where's your new man then' he asked
'i'm not doing this rhys'
'fredo init' he carried on
'so what if i was seeing him rhys' i snapped 'me and you are not together anymore'
'you're forgetting you're the one who broke up with me'
'so he's your man' he asked
'rhys it's not your business' i replied
'the sex is good though' i said under my breath
he kissed his teeth clearly hearing what i said
he turned my face to face him
'don't touch me' i moved his hand away
'what are you on' he looked concerned
'what' i questioned
'you're fucking wired mel i can see it in your eyes'
'i'm fine' i shrugged
i picked up my phone and called dave again, still no answer
'what did you take' he asked 'is fredo giving you this shit'
'why are you so worried about me' i said
'you're gunna fuck yourself up'
'you take this shit while pregnant?' he asked
'you can't be serious' my eyes widened
'no i fucking didnt' i said 'do you think i'm fucking stupid'
'stop trying to blame me for what happened' i continued
'i'm not blaming you' he said 'you didn't exactly want the child tho, you weren't happ-
'stop talking' i interrupted him 'do you seriously fucking think i'd intentionally kill our child'
'no but-
'so don't accuse me of something like that' my voice raised slightly
'mel i'm sorry' he sighed 'i still care about you'
'if you cared about me in the slightest rhys you wouldn't of broke up with me that day'
'do not fucking tell me you care about me'
i sighed leaning back in my chair
'where the fuck are they' i said
'mel it was hard on me too' he stated
'i'm not saying it wasn't' i replied 'but you blamed me for killing our chi-
'i didn't mean that' he interrupted 'i was upset'
'i don't care if you were upset' i snapped 'so was i'
'i'm done rhys i'm not doing this with you' i sighed 'go back to your party'
'i wanna talk to you mel'
'not now rhys'
'so when' he asked
'there's nothing to talk about' i replied 'just go back inside'
*incoming call from dave*
'where the fuck are you' i answered
'we're comingg' he slurred down the phone
'i'm not waiting all night' i replied as i ended the call
'go rhys' i said 'go enjoy your party'
'i miss you man' he sighed
'go rhys'
'melll-' he slurred
'why the fuck is he here' cee interrupted walking over
'he's leaving' i rolled my eyes 'get in'
jada and dave got in the back and cee in the front
'i'll text you' rhys shouted as he walked off
'what took you so fucking long' i sighed
'daves waved' jada laughed 'we couldn't find him'
i looked behind to dave to see he was passed out on the seat
'what did digga say to you' cee asked
'he wanted to talk' i said 'he's fucked he won't remember a thing'
i pulled up to my apartment not long after. fredos car was still outside, i was surprised he stayed
'david get up' i said as i opened his door
'mm' he groaned
'come on' i helped him get out the car, he put his arm around my shoulder to keep his balance
'cee get his other arm' i laughed 'he's heavy'
i made my way into my apartment to see fredo sat on the sofa watching netflix and smoking a spliff
i helped dave over to the sofa
'whys he here' cee asked giving me a dirty look
'we were just hanging out' i shrugged walking into my kitchen as cee followed
'what are you on' he questioned
'what' i turned to face him
'what's he given you' he kissed his teeth 'i can tell'
i shrugged
'i'm not mad mel' he said 'i'm worried about you'
'cee i'm fine' i smiled 'honestly'
'nah you're not' he replied 'this aint you'
'you don't do this shit'
'it's only been a few times' i said 'just to make me feel better'
'mel it won't' he sighed 'i've been there, it won't help'
'he blames me you know' i said 'he thinks i killed the baby on purpose'
'seriously' his eyebrows raised 'is that what he was talking to you about'
i nodded in response as he pulled me into a hug. my eyes filled with tears
'i still love him tho' i sighed 'i try to hate him but i can't'
'i know' he replied 'it'll take time mel your feelings won't just disappear'
'it's just shit' i wiped my eyes 'i don't think i'll get over it'
'loosing the baby and him'
'it'll get easier' he said 'i promise'
'drugs will not help tho mel' he sighed 'you'll get addicted'
'i won't' i replied
'just don't take it again yeah' he hugged me as i nodded
i wiped my eyes and walked into the living room with a glass of water and leftover pizza me and fredo had ordered
'eat' i handed the food to dave who was half asleep on the sofa
'melll' he smiled 'we missed you tonight'
i laughed and sat down next to him
'you should've came'
'maybe next time' i smiled
he put his head on my shoulder and closed his eyes
'go to bed' i said
'mm' he mumbled
'is he asleep' jada asked walking into the living room
'think so' i replied 'how much did he drink'
'alot' she laughed
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'just sleep here' i got into my bed 'it's like 4am'
'you sure' fredo asked
'i wouldn't be saying otherwise'
he came and led down next to me
'you okay' he questioned
'yeah' i smiled
'you see him?'
'mhm' i mumbled
'he speak to you?'
'a little' i said
'what did he say' fredo asked
'he blames me for what happened' i explained 'he was so drunk tho i don't think he meant it'
'why you defending him' he kissed his teeth
'i'm not' i replied 'but he was fucked'
'just ignore him yeah' he said 'he's a dickhead'
i nodded as i put my head on his shoulder
6:41am
rhys
I miss u
I'm sorry