Xamarah's POV:
With heavy thoughts and feelings I tried and tried to fall asleep, I need energy for tomorrow's class but I guess it will not end up that way anyway.
I keep looking at the ceiling thinking of what she said before she left the house, I don't want to assume things as I don't get over those things and just keep overthinking about it. As much as I want to forget it and think about something else that can help me forget it, I just can't.
Just how in the world can I stop overthinking things I am not suppose to think about.
I am just her....slave yet I am here in her bed overthinking those things she said.
I need to loosen this even a bit.
mleona:
Just take what
The maids cook
For your breakfast
mleona:
Can't drive you
To school for now
Message nito saakin sa instagram pagkabukas nang pagkabukas ko.
I sighed and look at the clock.
It's quarter to 5 in the morning and I barely get any sleep. I will just freshen up for a minute.
I went to the closet and get the clothes I needed for.
I took a shower for a minute and went downstairs to eat the breakfast with my Mother.
Binilisan ko na lang rin kumain kahit wla akong gana, to be honest halos wala akong kinain. Kung tumingin si ma kunwari namana kong ngumunguya kahit wala namang kinakain.
Inaayos ko na lang ang lahat ng dadalhin ko bago pumunta sa Unibersidad.
"Anak" pukal sa atensyon sakin ni mama.
Napatigil ako sa pag ayos at napa buntong hingang tumingin sakanya dala dala ang halo halong nararamdaman ko.
"Po?"
Hinawi niya ang i-ilang hibla ng buhok na humaharang sa aking mukha at ngumiti na kay tamis saakin.
"Kung mayroon kang problema 'nak nandito lamang ang iyon ina ha, wag mo isosolo ang sarili mong problema"
Tumango ako at hinalikan na siya sa pisngi para maka alis na at makapunta na rin sa Unibersidad.
Naka punta na ako at dumiretso na sa unang subject sa ngayong umaga, hindi ko man lang kaya pakinggan ang sinasabi ng prof na kasalukuyan nag tuturo sa harapan ng dahil na rin sa ibat ibang iniisip at ang naguguluhang damdamin na dala dala ngayon.
Bakit ba kasi ganun na lang ako maka overthink ni hindi ko man lang alam kung bakit dapat ko pa isipin mga bagay na ito in the first place.
Natapos ang klase na wala man lamang ako na intindihan ni isa.
"Class dismissed, Miss Alfonso stay" awtoridad na sabi ni Ma'am Denziel that made me stop from walking awat from this class.
"Yes Ma'am?" Takot ko naman na sabi rito. Isa rin kasi siya sa terror na propesora sa Unibersidad na ito kung saan tinatakutan siya ng mga studyante at parang wala nga tong kaibigan dahil na rin sa ugali na mayroon ito.
Ngunit rinig ko nga na may issue si Ma'am Denziel sa isang Model na di ko naman alam kung sino pero basta narinig ko lang na isang model ang napa issue sakanya kung saan sila ay sinasabing naga-date.
Di lang namin ma wari kung totooo hindi dahil na rin sa hindi naman siya nagsasalita tungkol doon.
"If you are going to my class be sure you are all focus on it, not on unpleasant thoughts you should be bothering with." She said with authority as she fix her things that made me sweat from my forehead down to my cheeks.
"Y-yes Ma'am, I will go ahead na po" sabi ko at aalis na sana nang hatakin niya ang damit ko kaya napatigil naman ako sa pag alis at dahan dahan na tumingin sakanya na tparang takot na pusa dahil di ko na alam ang gagawin sa sitwasyon na ito.
"If someting is bothering you just-"
She wasnt able to finish her sentence when someone open the door so loud that it made me startled but not Ma'am Denziel who is just looking from my behind to see who was the person that open the door.
"Get your hands off her Denz" that familiar voice sent thousand of electricity in my body as if I was finding it to hear this morning. I dont know but I feel like I need to hear her voice just like this moment.
But I was confuse by what Maxine called her....are they close to each other somehow?
"Dont sweat it Alfonso" sabi naman sakin ni Maxine and gently put her hand around my waist and grab me closer to her.
She sighed and shook her head to Ma'am Denziel. "Me and you, Later" sabi nito sakanya at pagkatapos nun ay umalis na kami.
"What happened back there?" She calmly ask as she close the door of her office.
Her voice is calm but I know she is not calm at the moment. Well I can say she's angry by the grip in her arms and I can see veins that wants to come out from it.
"N-nothing" I gulped.
"Be sure its nothing for me to be worried like that" she faced me with a soft gaze and held my hand.
Maxine sighed and put her head int my shoulder.
"It's nothing.....Maxine believe me." I said and pat her head to ease the tension that's happening earlier.
"If she ever did more than that tell me" she said as she look deeply into me eyes.
I nod, its nothing serious what happened back there to be honest. I just dont get we she got angry that she wants to let out the rage bulding in her body eith bloodshot eyes.
"Did you eat your lunch?" Kalaunan na tanong nito matapos umupo sa swivel chair at naupo naman ako sa kabilang couch dahil doon niya naman ako pinaupo.
Pwede naman sa lap niya bakit dito pa, diba.
Joke lang, di naman kayo mabiro.
Pero malay mo hindi pala biro.
Anyways gutom na rin ako kaya nagsabi na rin ako na hindi pa since hindi naman talaga, alangan naman oo kahit hindi pa ako kumakain ng lunch ko.
"Thats good I just made us our lunch" sabi nito at linabas ang pinagluto niya para saaming dalawa.
Natapos na rin kaming kumain at ako na rin nag ligpit. Siya na nga gumawa ng pagkain namin alangan siya pa ang mag ayos.
Hindi naman naging boring yung pag kain namin ng lunch since she keeps opening topics that is interesting and doesn't get me bored at all.
Tamang sagot lang ako ng sagot kahit gusto kong magtanong. Just like why did she left the last evening without telling me.
I mean hindi naman required sabihin saakin dahil wala naman ako para sakanya para dapat i-update niya ako sa kung dapat siya pumunta kahit saan pa man. Pero nag aalala naman ako kung saan ba siya papatungo. Siyempre malay mo malayo at aasa ako sa pagdating niya pero matagal pa pala. So ano hihintay ako without assurance kung kailan siya u-uwi
Nakakapagoverthink rin kaya kung saan oupunta ang isnag tao without telling where they would go diba.
We seperated our ways dahil papunta na ako sa klase ngayong hapon which is isang subject lang kasi yun ang nakalagay sa schedule ko.
I dont know why pero naganahan na ako makinig ngayon. I dont know what gotten into me that made me listen all of the sudden.
Change of winds ika nga.
"So kamusta status niyo beb?" Tanong sakin ni Katherine na kasalukuyan kong kasama ngayon.
"I am her student and her is my Professor" Sarkastiko kong sabi at ngiti dito dahil parang tanga makatanong ang isang ito eh wala namang namamagitan saaming dalawa ni Ma'am Maxine.
"Eh ano yung mga bagay bagay na nangyayari sainyo ha" paglalaban naman nito. Palaban talaga ang isang to para lang malaman lahat ng bagay dahil sa baging chismis.
"Aish bahala ka---" napatumba naman ako dahil nakabanga ako ng isang bata dahi sa bilis nito nang pagtakbo at natumba na rin kaming dalawa dahil doon.
"Ouch" daing ng bata.
"I'm sorry baby cutie are you alright?" I said softly and held her for her to be able to stand...but my 'brows arched because I think she resemble someone.
Parang may kamukha siya na di ko mawari kung sino.
"I should be t-the one saying sowey poh" para nang maiiyak na sabi nito kaya yinakap ko kaagad ito para hidi na umiyak.
"Its fine baby cutie it's not your fault, why are you running baby?" I said at pinunas ang ilang butil ng luha na kumawala sa mata nito.
"I was finding Mommy Leo po"