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This chapter has some spoilers for an episode in season 2 or 3 I can't remember but it's about doug and his family trauma.
TW: SUICIDE, ALCOHOL ABUSE, DRUGS, OVERDOSE. please don't read this if this triggers you. I hope all is well, take care of yourself <33
'finally' you think as you pull into the familiar Chapel or jumpstreet headquarters as some people call it. You felt relieved to be back yet nervous to see everyone again. You walked in slowly hesitating before opening the door. You decided to go to the Chapel early so you wouldn't see everyone at once. You walked into the Chapel and you were met with a gasp. You followed where the sound came from and you were met with the gaze of doug. He dropped the papers he was holding and ran over to you. "you're back?" he asked but also celebrated as he embraced you in a strong hug. "no..oxygen" you say as he squeezes you even tighter. "she's gonna collapse if you don't let her go penhall" Hanson says swinging in his chair. Doug let's you go and you make your way over to Hanson. He stands from his desk chair. "oh yeah you're new desk is the one infront of mine" he says pointing to a wooden desk near his. "welcome back" he puts a hand out for you to shake but you run into his chest pulling him into a hug that was strong but not as strong as penhall's. Tom laughed and hugged you back "ooh la la" Doug says while walking to his desk with the papers from earlier. You pull away from Hanson. "thanks for uhm.." you say not wanting Doug to hear. "no problem" Hanson says smiling at you. You walk to your desk and sit down. "hmm" you say out loud as you reach into your bag and pull out a framed photo of you with Hanson, Doug, Judy, Ioke and Captain Fuller, you place it on your desk and smile while admiring it. "Y/n, Hanson, Penhall" Captain Fuller calls from his office. 'yes! A case' you think as you walk to fullers office with Tom and Doug. Tom sat on the couch beside Captain's desk, Doug stood against the wall beside the door and you sat in the chair infront of Fullers desk. Fuller sat tall in his chair. "I have a case for the 3 of you" he said stern. The three of you looked at Fuller and listened attentively to his words. "this case is very serious as it is about a school where students are..." Fuller hesitated. "committing suicide" he finished. You stared at him with wide eyes of shock. Oh no. I can't work on this case. You start to panic and it becomes visible. Captain Fuller looked at you concerned. "y/n?" you snapped out of your thoughts. "mhm" you said in response. "are you okay?" he asked. "of course why wouldn't I be happy to be back and working on a case again" you said quickly playing with your hands. "okay get to work the three of you" Fuller said not taking his eyes off of you. Oh god you think to yourself while walking back to your desk. You begin reading the file and notice that Penhall was acting strange. What's up with him?
// going to the school
The role you were given for this case was a depressed teenager looking to buy a gun to kill herself. Doug and Hanson are both jocks getting to know everyone to try get information. You were nervous as you walked to the school. You let out a sigh as you opened the doors to the school. Classes went by normally except for English. In English you seen someone giving a guy money and the guy telling him to meet him behind gym after school. You told Tom and Doug this during a class swap, the guy was a jock so they became friends with him. During your visit to this school you made a friend, Mia (change name if your name is Mia if you'd like).She had straight blonde hair and green eyes, she dressed in dark clothes (mostly grey and black) and she was very pale. Mia was very sweet but told you that she also wanted to kill herself, not now but after graduation. It was the start of an hour lunch and you and Mia were walking to her locker. "College exists" you say trying to sway her opinion on killing herself. "it's already decided, you can't change that." she said opening her locker. "so you were bullied right?" she said rummaging through her locker. "yeah, that's why I moved here" you said sounding genuine. Mia nodded her head. "sorry to remind you" she said closing her locker. "it's fine" you say leading her to your locker. You opened it and took some books out. "why did you want to know?" you question. "just interested" she said looking away. "do you get bullied" you asked staring into the locker. "of course, the jocks don't know what it's like. The things they say.." she trailed of. "what" you coughed, trying to hold back your tears. This is the same as high school you think as you look at Mia. "what do they say?" you eventually said. "the usual, kill yourself and do us all a favour, slurs, calling the girls fat, useless and ugly. Whatever they can pick on they will. She said folding her arms looking disgusted. She seen how uneasy you looked."dont let it bother you y/n" she said linking your arm with hers. "I'm here with you plus we'll be dead soon anyways" she finished as she brought you to the cafeteria. You smiled as you walked in. You seen Hanson and Doug sitting with the jocks. Doug was staying quiet and to himself. Mia and you both got lunch and sat down at an empty table. "you got any friends?" you ask Mia as the two of you sit next to each other. "you" she says picking up an apple. You smile and put your books beside you and open your chocolate milk. "Hey" Hanson sat beside you. Mia looked at you and slowly bit her apple staring at Tom. "hi" you siad turning to face Tom. "I'm Tom, nice to meet you" he puts a hand out for you to shake and you do. You hear laughing from the jocks table and you look over and they hide their faces. "ooh nice books" Hanson says putting his hands over them. "thanks" you say suspicious of what he's gonna do. "oh is that chocolate milk" Hanson says. Before you knew it chocolate milk was on your face, clothes and books. Hanson bust out laughing and got up and ran back to the jocks table. "HEY YOU ASSHOLE COME HERE AGAIN AND I'LL KILL YOU" Mia shouted at him. Mia put a hand on your shoulder. "come with me" she said leading you out of the cafeteria. You stayed silent as you were brought to the bathroom by Mia. The flashbacks hit.
// FLASHBACK
"James!" you shout as the chocolate milk drips down your face. "BAHAHAHAHAHA" James laughs that annoying laugh. "I hate you!" you roar at him. This makes him laugh more. You grab your books and go to the bathroom to clean yourself up. In walks your English teacher Ms.Fead. She was your best friend, as sad as that sounds, it was true. "ill get them boys" she would always say but nothing would happen. Can't blame her James was the principals son so he could do anything and all he did was pick on you. Everyday. He would torment you to the point of...
//END OF FLASHBACK
"y/n?" Mia called out to you. "oh, yeah?" you said realising where you were. You were sitting on the countertop in the bathroom and Mia was getting milk off of your face and clothes. "he's just being annoying" she said wiping your shirt with some tissue. "I know" you said watching her clean your shirt so gently. "I hate to be the bearer of bad news" she began. "but it's best to forget this happened" she said making you stare at her. "why not report it?" you ask. "jocks. Leader is principals son. Nothing ever happens and if someone gets in trouble. It's always one of us" she said as she finished cleaning the milk off of you. Wow. Blast from the past. You think as you get up and walk back to the cafeteria. When you walked in the jocks looked at you. James-I mean Tom got up and walked towards you. Why does it matter what I say? I'm not going to correct what you seen. You seen James walking towards you. He'd always have one last laugh. He always had a trick up his sleeve. Mia moved to step ahead of you. You stopped walking and pushed her behind you. James stood infront of you. That prick. How could he? "listen I wanted to say sorr-" "fuck off" you slapped James right across his smug face. You slapped him hard. So many years of rage in one single slap. Gasps filled the room and then reality set in. TOM! YOU SLAPPED TOM! You stood in shock as you looked at Tom who was sitting on the ground holding his cheek wide-eyed looking at the ground. Mia pulled you to a table in the corner where the two of you stayed for the rest of lunch. Tom went back to his table and lunch continued like normal. You just sat staring at the table as Mia rambled on about an upcoming test. The school day finished and Tom, Doug and you went back to jumpstreet. You were a bit late and when you walked in you were met with silence and darkness. You walked to your desk and put your bag down. The lights turned on and you turned to face the switch at the entrance. Doug. "we need to talk" he said. "I have to go report to captain Fuller" you siad trying to avoid the conversation. "he knows that we need to talk" Doug said. You sighed and walked towards him. Doug walked outside with you and the two of you sat in your car. "do you want to talk about it?" Doug asked. "about what?" you questioned. "the slap" he said looking at you. You sighed. "in high-school" you began explain everything.
//FLASHBACK
"James leave me alone" you said bluntly to James as he won't leave you alone to study in the library. "awh is y/n getting annoyed" he took your book and put it down. "go away" you said picking it back up. "ugh I hate you" he said getting fed up. "leave then" you said not giving him a glance. "kill yourself" he said getting up and walking away. You stopped reading and put your book down. What. Why would he say that
//FLASHBACK NO.2
"Y/n"James called from the back corner of the class. You didn't say anything. He threw a piece of paper at you, you picked it up and opened it. It was a drawing of you with a rope around your neck hanging from a tree."Miss y/n" Miss Fead said from the top of the class. You looked at her. "no note passing" she stated as she walked towards you and took the page out of your hand. "who gave you...this?" she asked staring into your soul. "James" you said looking at your desk. "JAMES" She yelled. "What? It was a joke" he said laying back in his chair. "what if y/n actually killed herself, huh?, how would you feel then?" she questioned watching him swing back and forth on his chair. "the world would be at peace if she did" he says closing his eyes and putting his arms behind his head. Miss Fead's jaw dropped and you ran out of the class. Leaving the room filled with laughter.
You ran into a genderless bathroom and locked the door. Do the world a faver huh? You put your hands on the sink in the bathroom and look in the mirror. "Y/N! OPEN THE DOOR" Miss Fead called from the outside world. No. Looking in the mirror you see the face of weakness. The face of someone who had lost all hope. Someone with no will to live. James. He had finally won. You grab your bag and open a hidden pocket. Pills you found in the medicine cabinet in your house. Nothing else mattered in that moment... You fell into a black pit of ecstasy.
END OF FLASHBACKS
"Im sorry you had to go through that" Doug said putting his arm around you and pulling you into a friendly hug. "Doug" you said looking out the front of the car. "yeah?" he said rubbing your arm. "how did you know" you stated. Doug sighed. "when I was 6, my mum commited suicide" he said, he put his head on yours. "my dad was an alcoholic, he did nothing but drink. When I was 8 I tried to overdose on vinilla essence" he said, his voice cracking a few times. You looked up at him. "I'm so sorry" you said crying for him and yourself. Doug let a few tears fall. The two of you stayed in your car for 3 hours just crying into each other. Comforting one another.
"we got the guy" Doug said after the two of you stopped crying. You smiled but it faded. "what about-" you began Urgently, "Mia is getting the help she needs" he said smiling at you. You laughed and hugged him tight. "thanks Doug" you said. "no problem y/n" he kissed your head and got out of your grip to leave your car. "oh and" he began, "you might want to apologise to Hanson" he finished. Your face went red and Doug left and got on his motorcycle and drove off. "shit" you said as you began your journey to Tom's apartment.
You knocked on Tom's door, swaying on your heals waiting for him to answer. He eventually did, "y/n?" he said confused. "the one and only" you responded letting yourself in. You and Tom sat on his couch. "I'm sorry" you said when he sat down. "I forgive you" he said instantly. You were suprised that he had forgiven you so easily. "really?" you said baffled. "yes" Tom said, "also" he said. You looked at him and listened. "James didn't amount to anything, he married a high school sweetheart and is drinking his life away" he finished. You looked at him in pure shock. "how did-" Tom placed a finger on you lips, "shhh" he said "I have my ways" he continued. You hugged him and went home wondering how he knew about James but you were also comforted with the information he gave you.
Work got easier the next few days. You and Doug grew closer and it was great. Hanson and you also became alot closer. Everything was perfect. Everything was going smooth.
Until....
A/N
Thank you so much for reading! I hope you enjoyed. Thanks for your support!!
- J 💕