'what' both their jaws dropped
'oh my god' jada said
'is she okay' dave asked
'nah she's not' cee sighed 'she's been crying for hours'
'shit man' dave said
'broke my heart seeing her when they told her' cee replied 'she don't deserve it'
'how do you think digga will take it' dave asked
'it'll be hard on him too' cee said 'he was gassed about having a kid'
'i just feel bad for mel' jada sighed 'he can't even be with her now'
i felt mels phone vibrate in my pocket
digga
You ignoring me today or something
'he's texting her now' cee said
'how' jada asked
'he's got a phone in there' dave answered
mels pov
i woke up and saw jada cee and dave all stood at the end of the bed. i didn't even know what to think of the whole situation. my heart just physically hurt
'hey' dave came and sat down next to me on the bed
'hey' i sat up slightly
'how you feeling' he asked
'shit' i sighed 'i wanna go home'
'when can you leave' he questioned
'whenever' i answered 'they made me take a pill and that's it'
'i'll just bleed for a few days or weeks'
'i'm sorry mel' he rubbed my hand with his thumb 'so fucking sorry'
'i don't know how i'm gunna tell rhys' my eyes filled with tears
'mel don't stress about that now' he said 'just focus on you'
'mel you wanna go?' cee asked
i nodded in response to
cee drove us back to my apartment
i walked into the living room and led on the sofa burying my face into a pillow
jada sat down next to me and pulled me into a hug
'i'm sorry baby' she said 'i know it's gunna be hard but we're here for you'
'i know' i replied 'thank you guys'
'i just wish i could see rhys' i sighed 'all i want now is to be with him'
'when can you see him' she asked
'probably a while now maybe week or two' i answered 'even in there it's shit obviously i see him but it's so different'
'i just want him home'
my eyes filled with tears, rhys was the only thing on my mind. how was he gunna take this. he was so excited to have this baby, he's wanted a child for a while now.
i can't help but blame myself for loosing the baby. what did i do wrong? why did this happen to me. the doctors said it's impossible to tell and it's usually genetic but i can't help but feel like it's my fault
dave walked over to the washing machine holding my stained bedsheets.
i couldn't ask for better friends at this time, i get rhys wasn't here but at least i had them
cee too, he helped me so much at the hospital. he's always been a good brother, always been there for me.
all i wanted to do now was get into my bed and sleep. it felt like my heart had just been ripped out my chest. i don't know how i'm meant to get passed this and move on.
'you hungry babe' jada asked me
i shook my head
'mel you haven't eaten anything all day' dave sat down and put his arm around me 'you gotta eat'
'i'm not hungry' i sighed
'i just wanna sleep'
i led down so my head was in his lap
'where's my phone' i asked
dave passed me my phone from his pocket
digga
You ignoring me today or something
just been busy
To busy to even reply
don't start
Probably out here fucking another man
you can't be serious
fucking grow up rhys
'ignore him mel' dave said clearly reading the messages
'he wants a reaction out of you because he misses you' he explained 'that's all'
'he's a prick' i replied
*incoming call from digga*
'decline it' dave said
i let my phone ring until it went to voicemail
*incoming call from digga*
dave grabbed my phone and declined the call
'does this guy ever fuck off' he said
*incoming call from digga*
'he'll carry on till i answer' i sighed taking my phone out of daves hand 'he always does this'
'do you want me to answer' dave asked
'nah it'll make it worse' i replied
'he's fucking crazy' dave said
*incoming call from digga*
i answered his call
'are you tryna make me mad' he asked
'why the fuck are you declining my calls'
'rhys i've just been busy'
i got up and made my way into my room, closing the door behind me
'with who'
'work' i sighed
'so you can't even reply to a text'
'can we not do this'
'i'm doing nothing' he replied
'i had a shit day rhys i don't have the energy to fight with you now'
'what happened' he asked
i did plan on telling rhys soon but i couldn't tell him over the phone. i wanted to wait until i visit him
'just been a long day babe' i sighed getting into bed
'talk to me mel'
'i'm just stressed' i lied 'and i miss you'
'i know baby' he replied 'it'll be okay tho, i promise'
i sighed as tears filled my eyes
'yeah'
'sure you're good' he asked
'mhm'
'you don't sound it' he said
'it's okay babe' i replied
i knew telling rhys what happened would break him. i couldn't tell him over the phone, it wasn't fair on him
'i love you' he said
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the next month was rough. i barely left the house anymore, not even for work. i hadn't seen rhys since i lost the baby. i know it wasn't fair to shut him out and not see him but i just couldn't face him. i know how hard it would be on him too knowing i had a miscarriage.
he'd texted and tried calling me for the last few weeks but i hadn't answered much and when i did i didn't say much
jada dave and cee had all been great the last few weeks too. dave moved back into his house but he was still round everyday. jada was still living with me. we decided for her to move in permanently. it was nice her being around, kept me company.
jada and dave also were also together now. dave asked her last week to be his girlfriend. i was happy for them, they're good for each other.
it was sad though. it reminded me how much i missed rhys.
daves pov
i worried about mel recently. she hadn't been herself at all. she just stayed in her room most days, hardly even came out for food. it was hard seeing her like this
i think it's worse considering digga is locked. he can't even be here with her to deal with it
me and jada tried with her but she would just say she's fine and just wanted to be alone
mels pov
'melll' dave shouted as he entered my apartment
i heard a knock at my bedroom door shortly after
'yeah' i replied
jada opened the door and i saw dave and fredo. she walked over and sat next to me
'you okay babe' she asked
'yeah' i smiled
'we're going to get food' dave said
'have fun' i replied
'nah you're coming' fredo said 'come on'
'nah guys i'm fine here'
'mel you know locking yourself in your room won't help' dave sat on the edge of the bed 'you know it won't'
'he's right' jada agreed 'we gotta get you out again'
i knew they were right. staying inside forever wouldn't help me move on. i needed to get on with my life, even though it would be hard
'fine' i sighed standing up
'really' dave raised his eyebrows
'don't make me change my mind' i joked