*Four days later*
"Have you lost it?" asked Gilbert sitting next to me as we drink our supper.
"Lost what, darling?"
"Your virginity?" He looked at me in my eyes as I froze. So many thoughts went throught my head like what if he asks to who? Or what if he asks when and then he figures out who? "Aurora?" Gilbert tries to grab my attention waving his hand in front of my eyes.
I clear my throat answering the question "yes, why?"
"To who?" he asked and I start to shake.
"An old friend, darling, what about you?"
"Not yet I wanted to lose it to you."
"Oh." I said finishing up supper, grabbing his plate and washing it. He heads up stairs and I head up after getting ready for bed. "Why me, darling? Why did you wait for me?" I asked as he took off my corset.
"I waited for you because I was in love with you. I believe people should lose their virginity with the person they love. What about you?"
"Same" I said turning to him giving him a kiss. He picks me up placing me on the bed as we began to makeout, his tongue looking for the entrance as I let him right in. His hands touch my whole body but they land on my waist he starts placing wet kisses on my kneck and I start letting out soft moans. He licks from my underwear to my breasts as he gives me hard eye contact. The type of eye contact you cant look away from. "You sure you want to do this now?" I ask as he pulls down my underwear softly and the only thing i felt was the tips of his fingers. He opens my legs and I sit wanting to take off his underwear. I got flashbacks from the dream and it drove me crazy. I unbuckle his pants licking his abs a his hands went on the back of my head. I smirk pulling his pants down seeing the erection infront of me. I put it in my mouth so he could get that feeling first.
"Oh that feels good Aurora" he tilted his head back closing his eyes, I knew he didnt want to put much pressure but I knew he wanted me to go faster. His erection touches the back of my throat as I gag taking it out for a second jerking him off. I hear his groans and they turn me on as I look up at him and we make eye contact. His groans got louder.
"You ready for the second part?" I asked for his consent and I wanted to know if he was okay. He nodded his head as I got on top of him, he sat up straight putting his hands on my waist. I put his erection inside of me gasping at the feeling. I look in his eyes as he looks into mine, we both felt pleasure in doing that. The room got hotter as I went faster and faster and we got louder and louder. He starts sucking my breasts giving hickies on them as I felt close tomy climax. His hair was messy and it was hot, his eyes looking into mine gave me that feeling, him inside of me wanted to scream. Having those three things was such a delight.
"I-" he sounds like he needs air. "God, Aurora ur good at this I feel like, mm this feels good." His hands tighten on my waist and make me go faster, our skin clapping against each other. My moans so loud I cover my mouth. We both reach our climax at the same time as Gilbert gives me a kiss. We are both sweaty, my legs are shaking, but oh how I wanted more of him.
"How do you feel, darling?" I asked as I put on my night gown with shaky legs.
He smirks standing up holding my thighs.
"I want more of you" he said and I gave him a smirk kissing him as he picked me up.
We go all night when I looked to the side it was day time already. Two days left until the wedding. I didnt know if I was excited or scared. We reached our climax at the same time for the last time as gilbert lays next to me. We are both drenched in sweat and I get up to take a shower falling.
"Did it feel good?" asked Gilbert.
"Too good but I gotta make breakfast, darling we cant miss breakfast."
He gets up to carry me back to bed. "Let me make breakfast" he said passing me my night gown giving me a peck on the lips. "I love you" he said
"I love you too"
He put on his clothes for the day walking downstairs. I lay in my room looking at the cieling. "I'm about to get married in a couple of days I connot believe myself" I thought placing my hand on my forehead wiping my hair off my face.
"I can't believe I died before I got to see it" said a familiar voice as I looked next to the window.
"Arthur??!!!!" I shouted, but thankfully Gilbert didnt hear.
"Shhhhh I'm not actually here, but congratulations you got married to the man that left after you didn't say I love you."
"I know"
"Did you invite Thomas?"
"I forgot I got to invite him, I'll pass by his home later today to give him an invitation."
"I hope hes okay"
"Same, I miss his comfort." said Arthur as Gilbert walked in with a plate of burnt bread and eggs.
"Oh god" Me and Arthur said at the same time looking at that plate. "Maybe I'll skip breakfast. You can have it though"
I got up ignoring my legs putting on my dress grabbing one of the invitations heading out.
It was a long walk to Thomas house but I made it thankfully. I knocked on the door as thomas opened it.
"Aurora?"
"He doesn't look good" said Arthur behind me.
"How have you been Thomas?"
"I've been okay, would you like to come in?"
"Sure" I said walking in. The house smelled like alcohol and my heart broke for him as I saw a portrait that he drew of my brother.
"I apologize for the mess I haven't been up to date."
"It's ok"
"I'm still figuring out a way to forget Arthur, I'm sorry forbringing him up."
"I was the cause of this?" said Arthur as he sat next to me on the couch. I know Arthur wishes he could see Thomas but he can't.
"Arthur died weeks ago you have to-"
"Don't tell me I have to move on, he was my first love and not only that he understood me, he understood my background, he undertook where I came from. I had the same childhood, a father who would use alcohol to cope-"
"Doesn't mean you have to turn out like him, now I am going to get married in two day here is the invitation. Thomas clean your self up, if anyone walked into this home they would think a pig lived here. This is not a way of coping nor is it a way to get over the person you love." I turned for the door seeing Arthurs eyes in tears. Seeing thomas like this broke his heart, it broke mines aswell but i knew how to hide it.
"Wait" said Thomas as i stopped. "I apologize for the drinking and I apologize for everything, I loved your brother and he was the only person in my life that actually gave a damn about me so I apologize. I just can't find no one else to love because I love men not women, and if anyone knew my head would have been chopped off already."
"I understand that you have to hide yourself but just because that one person that had took so long to look for is gone that doesn't mean their won't be another, believe in yourself and they will come and you will love them with all your heart." I said leaving heading home.
"I did that to him." said Arthur tears still falling from his eyes.
"No you didnt dont blame stupidity on yourself you didnt do nothing."
"Remember when mother used to do that? Blame everything on herself and when you think about it now, it was her fault."
"Your not mother and your not father so just because they did something doesnt mean you have to do it too."
"Fine" he said as we walked home in silence. Before opening the door he said "congrats on not being a virgin no more"
"Remember what mother used to say about first times."
"She said to do it with the person you love and not with the person you think you love, she said, your mind makes you believe the wrong thing love is someone you gives you comfort and who knows what to do when you feel a certain way. Someone who cheers you up and makes you laugh. Does gilbert make you feel that way or Louis?"
"How did you?"
"I was protecting you from above, I saw that you needed helpso here I am. I'm your guardian angel."
"I think I loved him but not truly"
"What about Gilbert?"
"I love him"
"Okay then their is your answer you welcome now go tellyour husband that"
I laughed at his words giving him a hug.
"I need you here" I said tears on my face as i felt the last touch of my brother.
"No you need me up there, now goodbye I love you and take care I'll protect you and I'll help lead you away from harms way."
I walk in seeing Gilbert and Sebastian cooking. I smile at them looking at gilbert as he come gives me a hug.
"I love you" I whispered.
"I love you too, beautiful."