Next day morning Magnus was getting ready for the office… he was standing in front of the mirror, he was buttoning his shirt, the pink and purple hickeys were still there around his chest, lips and neck.. He saw that and swallowed hard…
He used to see this on every Monday morning, hickeys, marks on his body especially on his torso but not on neck and lips… this is the first time it felt like he wanted to Stay in his room… but he has to move on, he knows these feelings could kill him Or take him back to those dark days of his life .. He get on his car by saying the word again and again" hookup nothing more "
He went to his office and dived into his work… he was normal after a busy Monday…. He tried to get back to his older form…
He refused to look after the cafeteria or parking lot, he try to hold himself from those strange new feelings
Few days passed really well, he worked hard, did plenty of projects, and used to go to field works..Raphael went to meet Simon more often.. But Magnus stayed in his place, sometimes he visited his own company (bane industries) to check the auditing file, payments and work status… he is active like he used to be…. He went to parties but he didn't hook up with anyone, he drank till neck and got back to his bed… because after what happened sleeping is a bit of struggle for him… either he took sleep Pills or drinks to get one peaceful sleep
*ALEC
Everyday went like a hell for him. "Magnus might found so many hookups in meantime.. Why should he think about me? "sometimes he thought and assure himself like this
One day
Izzy :Did you text him?? (leaning on the couch next to alec)
Alec :no!!! (he said looking away)
Izzy :you are hurting yourself you know that?? (he turn alec's chin to face her)
Alec looked weak and tired and he completely looked like a mess…
Izzy :What happened? You never talk about that after you came here… are you and Magnus?? … did you express your feelings…
Alec :no!!!I didn't… I just want to be with him.. At Least once so I had a ummm… one night stand with him..
Izzy :jezzzz!!! Alec.. You didn't even say that you have feelings for him…??
Alec :no!!! I don't want to break him again… he is not interested in relationship kinds of things… you know what the most horrible thing I did? … I said to him.. I will disappear in the morning… but I didn't plan to do that, he is cuddly, I want to stay with him… and then dad called me early in the morning saying that it's an emergency… I thought something happened to you or mom… so… (his word cut off by his own Tears)
Izzy :So you left him alone like you said…
Alec nodded in return sniffing in between
Izzy :dad??? He tricked you.. I saw him talking on the phone last night… he is talking about you and the man in a blue shirt…
Alec :God!!!(he felt some kind of fear) Izzy it's magnus.. He was in a blue outfit that night… (he said nervously)
Izzy :Alec relax!! They said you both disappeared and they didn't see Magnus clearly.. They just saw you!! That's what I heard when they talk on phone
Alec calmed himself in izzy's words
Izzy :you should talk to him…
Alec :What should I say izzy.. I left him alone.. If I talk now.. I will definitely say that I love him.. And look at the situation here, he is planning my wedding with Lydia… (izzy looked at him worried ) what if I can't give him the relationship he wants.. I don't want to push him into his past again.. He tooks years to recover from that…
Izzy :Are you gonna marry Lydia??
Alec :no!!! … if it's not magnus then no one else… (Alec said and stood on his feet) I am hungry..(he said and left)
Izzy was sitting on the couch holding her head… she didn't know what else to do..
*MAGNUS
It's the day of presentation for the bigger project.. Every officiant was there to review their company work.. His MD chose Magnus and Raphael to complete the project; they did it before the deadline..
Raphael :Did you take everything.. Pen Drives, work file and the model everything…?? (he asked holding a bundle of papers)
Magnus :relax buddy… all done.. Everything is in the presentation room.. I kept it in order..
After alec left this is the first he is going to the presentation room.. One they enter the room it is dark as always.. Everyone is waiting eagerly for the presentation…
Magnus starts with a welcome which spreads a smile on everyone's face… his MD nodded with a smile…
The thin curtain moving on the window disturbing him but emitting lights on the gap… magnus looked at the curtain more than 5 times while presenting the project… it's distracting him too much… so He stopped for a second and continued…
He was facing the monitor And explaining the project.. A limited amount of air sneaks through the thin gap which caresses his neck and he feels goosebumps all over his neck and shoulder… he stopped his words and swallowed hard by rubbing his neck…his sweating all of sudden..
Raphael :buddy are you okay
Magnus :yeah!! (he smiled and
He tried to ignore and continued again)
All he can feel is goosebumps again…
Magnus :Raphael could you continue this..(he asked)
Raphael :sure!! (he looked him confusingly who is leaving the hall by apologising everyone)
MD :Are you okay Mr. Bane??
Magnus:yes sir.. I am a little drowsy.. I will be back… just give me 5 minutes (he excused and walked away)
He stood in front of the window which opened up to his waistline… he took a water bottle from the vending machine and drank it in one sip.. When the fresh air slapped on his face again . He suddenly turns around and sees Alec's chair which is empty.. He got the same feeling he had the night after their hookup.. That's a weird and lonely feeling again like something is missing …
Magnus sat on his chair and he didn't move an inch… thanks to Raphael he completed the presentation… they are all happy about it…
Magnus saw his MD walking towards him.. "sir..i am sorry.. I" he couldn't finish it..
MD :it's okay man.. your work is good… but take care of your health too (he said and patted)
Once he left.. Raphael approached him… "are you okay buddy??" he asked…" yeah… can we go for lunch ??" I think I am hungry,"Magnus said to change the subject…
He knows it's just a minute of feeling, he will be alright soon.. At Least that's what he hope…
They were in the food court.. Raphael was talking with Simon on the phone… Magnus was staring at the seat opposite to him while playing with his spoon on his plate… Magnus left the place without eating a spoon a good.. Raphael looks at his plate and saw a magnus leaving without eating
Raphael :Hey, aren't you hungry??
Magnus :I lost my appetite… (he faked his smile and walked away)
The day was hell.. He can't do anything.. He just kept staring at the empty monitor screen.. He went to the parking lot in the evening… he opened his car door before getting in.. He looked at the bike parking section and shook his head.. He got inside the car.. He is full of anger, he doesn't know why… He drives to his place forgetting to take Raphael with him.. Because he was shouting his name and running behind the car till The exit gate…
Raphael :what happened to him?? (he asked to himself)
Throughout the way Magnus feels like shit…he kicks the steering wheel often and often with his fist..once he reaches he shuts the car door without locking it….he storms into the room.. He hates himself for being like this… he throws everything on the floor, table, chair, decore items, books everything… he had plenty of hookups but why is this bothering him so much..
He took the bedspread and rolled it like trash, he threw it on the laundry.. He doesn't want those intoxicating smells to take him over anymore.. This loneliness is totally consuming him… "ARGHHHH" he held his head and shouted like a mad person, tears falling without any reason… he threw a waise on the bed which hit on the nightstand, he push the night stand down in anger, the wine glass fell on the ground and the lid hit his flew and hit his hand … a bit of paper under the lid stuck on his wet hand … he took it In his hand..
There written
Thank you for the wonderful night magnus!!! 😊.. With a smiley
(And at the bottom around the corner there written )
With love
Alexander!!!
He held it tight on his chest and smiled through tears…. He doesn't know whether it's pain or happiness.. It's kind of mixed feelings for him… he smiled like he found a lost piece of his soul.. ("what if I want this with you?? "."looks like your party today" .. "I don't believe in rumors.. I don't care even if it's true"...... "you are the person I used to read in fairytale"... "trust makes you to do strange things".... "why don't you find someone else?" ) the words of alec were echoing in his head and the laughing sound of alec was playing on repeat mode like a scratched recorder…Now he knows what he wants, now he knows what is bothering him…and now he knows what he has to fight for.. He know that he can't bottle up those feelings anymore 💝TBC 💝