SHEN CAN'T take her eyes off of Kade, he seemed fine, his well toned body didn't even change a bit, she even thinks that they're much 'well toned' as of now! Bahagyang tinapik ni Shen ang pisngi niya para tignan kung nananaginip ba siya o hindi, lalo na at hindi rin gumagalaw ang Kade na nakatayo malapit sa pintuan. She wasn't convince, so, she slapped her face harder and hissed loudly after.
"Why are you hurting yourself? Tinanong ko lang naman kung ano ang ginagawa mo sa kwarto ko..." Kade said in a low voice.
"You're here... Oh gosh! Are you for real?!" She exclaimed and covered her mouth with the back of her hand.
"Yeah? I'm home, I'm not a standee or whatsoever." He answered, smiling awkwardly at her.
Hindi niya alam kung bakit but she just burst into tears, she's been emotional for the past months that she couldn't take it sometimes! Dahil maski siya ay naiirita na sa sarili. She missed him so much that she started to burden his father in law. Ni hindi niya nga ito nakikita sa bahay maski sa mismong kumpanya.
Shen sniffed and stop whining when she noticed Kade was still standing, ni hindi man lang siya nito nilapitan. He's distancing himself. He was sighing a lot too. Now that he's acting like that, gusto niya tuloy malaman kung ano ang ginagawa niya at kung saan ito nagtago nitong mga nakaraan na buwan at kung bakit ngayon lang nito naisipan na magpakita sa kanila!
"You won't hug me?" She asked, still sniffing.
Kade stared at her and sighed. "I don't even want to touch you."
"Why?!" She can't help but to yelled at him.
Kade looks taken a back but still managed to collect himself and place his hands inside the pockets of his jeans.
"Don't yell. I'm afraid. Baka masaktan ulit kita, that's why..." He answered.
"Alam mo ba kung gaano kami nag-alala sayo ha? Saan ka galing?! Bakit ngayon ka lang?!" Pasigaw na tanong niya rito. Kahit pa sabihin nito sa kanya na huwag siyang sumigaw. Hindi niya mapigilan! She just can't.
"I'm sorry..." Kade sincerely apologise instead of answering his question. Natigilan siya dahil doon. "I'm sorry, if I hurt you, I was so selfish, I wasn't thinking right. I inflicted physical and emotional pain to you, its your body, not mine... I'm sorry..."
"What are you..."
Kade smiled at her gently. "I promise myself that I will apologise to you again and again once I came back, so..."
"You don't need to,"
Kade just smiled at her again and walk towards her. "Seems like I need to work hard to have you in my arms again. I'll do better this time." Anito at ginulo ang buhok niya na parang bata.
Shen must be insane for expecting him to kiss and hug her. But then, naalala niya ang sinabi nito. Ayaw siya nitong mahawakan man lang. Tahimik niya lang pinanood si Kade na ibalik ang mga damit nito sa closet, maayos na ang pagkakatupi ng mga damit niya pero kapag may nakita ito kahit na kaunting gusot lang, ipapagpag nito ang damit at itutupi ulit.
She was staring at him intently.
"Shen..." Nagtitimping tawag nito sa pangalan niya.
Shen glared at him. "Its 'Ma'!" She corrected.
"Bakit ba panay ang titig mo sa akin? If you want to sleep and cuddle all my pillows, then do it."
"Actually, nagbago na ang gusto ko. Can you make a souffle pancakes for me?" She asked.
"Okay, I need to shower first and then I'll make one for you." Agad na sagot nito. But she's not satisfied.
"Mamaya ka na maligo. Make me one. I want a souffle pancakes now, Kade. Now." Madiin na utos niya rito.
Namilog ang mga mata ni Kade, malamang dahil sa asal na ipinapakita nito sa kanya ngayon, she actually wanted to asked Avis kung may kakilala itong magaling na psychiatrist dahil baka lumuwag ang tornilyo niya sa utak sa pagka miss sa lalaking nasa harapan niya at ayaw siyang igawa ng pagkain na gusto niya!
Tumaas ang kilay niya nang magkamot ito nang ulo at tahimik na lumabas sa kwarto. She smiled triumphantly and grabbed her phone to inform her secretary that she's now in a good condition to work. She's been cancelling a lots of important meetings for the past months, reason? Its either she felt like sleeping all day or she's staying inside her comfort room, vomiting nonstop. She finds it weird. But she's too lazy for check ups.
"Maybe, I just call Avis. She's still a Doctor. Siguro naman ay alam niya kung ano ang sakit ko..." She grumbled and held her stomach. She's hungry.
With her hands placed above her stomach, Shen walk downstairs humming a song. Her mood suddenly change. Again.
Kinakalkal na niya ang utak niya kung may history ba ang side ng mommy at side ng daddy niya about bipolar disorder, that would be impossible. Dumeretso siya sa kusina at ngumiti nang makita niya si Nanay Lorena na naglilinis sa kusina, habang si Kade naman ay ginagawa ang souffle pancakes na ni request, more like, inutos niya. Ilang beses na silang nag try ni Nanay Lorena na gawin ang Souffle pancakes at ilang beses na rin silang pumalya.
Naniniwala na si Shen ngayon na may favoritism ang mga pancakes, sadyang kay Kade lang ang mga ito nasunod!
"Hungry? I'm almost done." Bahagyang lumingon sa kanya si Kade.
"Nahilig si Shen ngayon sa paborito mong pagkain." Nanay Lorena blurted out and she blushed furiously. Agad siyang yumuko para maitago ang mukha niya kay Kade. "Hindi nga 'yan kumakain kung hindi pancake ang ihahain sa kanya." Dagdag pa nito at binuntunan ng maiksing tawa.
"Hindi po kumakain ng kanin?" She heard Kade asked. Hearing the tone of his voice, he sounded pissed.
"Kumakain naman, pero kaunti lang. Isinusuka kasi niya pagtapos." Pagsusumbong pa nito kay Kade.
Totoo na puro pancakes lang ang palagi niyang kinakain, ano ang magagawa niya kung 'yon lang ang tinatanggap ng tiyan niya? Wala.
"Here, eat up."
Umangat ang ulo niya nang maamoy ang pancake na gawa ni Kade. Nakataas ang kilay nito sa kanya habang siya naman ay nilalagyan ng honey at chocolate syrup ang pancake niya.
"Pumayat ka. Are you sick too?" Nag-aalalang tanong nito, her heart stop beating for a second when Kade raised his hand and tucked some strands of her hair behind her ear.
"Akala ko ba ayaw mo akong hawakan?" Pabulong na tanong niya rito, her sharp eyes darted at him.
"I meant hugging and kissing." Nakanguso na sagot nito sa kanya. Pagalit na tinusok ni Shen ang pancake niya gamit ang hawak na tinidor habang nakatingin lang kay Kade. She saw with her own two eyes how he gulped hardly.
"Kade, I'm not mad. I give you my consent that time! Well, not directly, but still!" Pagpipilit niya pero umiling lang si Kade sa kanya.
"Alam ko naman na papayagan mo ako, but still, what I did to you that time wasn't right. It's against my principle. Until now, I can't believe na nagawa ko 'yon. My friends hates rape, so am I, but I felt like I did it to you..."
"Do you want me to file a case against you?" Sarkastikong tanong niya.
Kade's side lips lifted up. "Honestly? Yes. I want you to file a case against me. I know a good lawyer. I'll give you his contact information,"
"May sira ka ba sa ulo?!" Frustrated na tanong niya kay Kade at ibinagsak ang tinidor na hawak sa lamesa. Creating a loud thud and hurting her hand a little.
"I'm definitely sane. At least, that's what Dr. Clemente said." He answered, his face looks so honest.
Shen can't read what's he's thinking. She's tired and sick of playing with the man named Kalvin Demon.
"What the fuck!? Fine, you don't want to touch me? You don't want to hug me nor kiss me? Do whatever you like, asshole!" Shen hissed and stood up. Dala dala niya ang pinggan niyang may isang pirasong souffle pancake nang mag walk out siya.
HONESTLY speaking, Kade's having a hard time to rein the desire to hold her, to lock Shen in his arms, to kiss her and do something more than that. But whenever he's mind wander over that scene, he doesn't know if he should be thankful or what, but he's slowly, slowly backing down.
Malakas na bumuntong hininga si Kade nang umakyat ulit sa taas si Shen, dala ang pinggan nito. As far as he remembered, mahaba ang pasensya ni Shen, she's always calm and think first before talking. Palagi nitong kinakalkula ang mga salita na bibitawan niya, because she always thinks that her words might hurt the person she's talking to, she always believed that words are powerful. Dahil kapag nakapag bitaw ka na ng masasakit na salita, mahirap na 'yong bawiin.
He picked up his phone and contact his friends. Their group chat was surprisingly silent after Yved asked them about their lunch.
Kade: Shen is acting weird today.
JyrelleVraxx: How so?
Kade: She's bossing me around.
Kyst: Natural?
Esel: Natural? (2)
And the counts continued. 11 of them says 'Natural?'.
Kade: Nasaan doon ang natural? She's not like that before I went MIA. I mean, she's independent okay? Kaya niyang magluto ng sarili niyang pagkain.
Castiel: Boo! Hindi mo kaya pagsilbihan future wife mo? Big yuck sayo Kade! 🤮
Kade: It's not like that Castiel you moron!
Killian: Ano pa ang nagbago sa kanya?
Mikael: Ayaw ba magpahawak sayo? Buti nga 🤭
Kade: @Mikael, I'm sorry to burst your bubble but it's the other way around. And @Killian, mainit ang dugo niya sa akin. Sabi rin ni nanay panay pancake lang ang kinakain niya.
Castiel: Noong buntis si Devi panay coffee cake ni Rion ang kinakain niya.
Esel: My wife loves baked sushi.
Kade: She's not pregnant!
Ryker: Sigurado ka?
Ranger: Oo nga, sigurado ka ba?
Light: I'm in a meeting. Off chat muna ah? Baka ma late kami sa tsismis ni Laur.
"Nanay? Did you bought a napkin for Shen?" Tanong niya.
Palagi kasi nitong isinasabay ang napkin nito kapag mag g-grocery na si Nanay Lorena. Her brand were a bit different and expensive.
"Hindi... Ilang buwan na rin yata, hindi pa kasi nagagalaw ang huling bili ko sa kan— jusko pong bata na 'yon!" Nanay Lorena exclaimed. "Hindi dinadatnan? Tama ang hinala ko kung ganoon... Mabuti nalang at pinaalala mo sa akin ang napkin!"
"Ano po ba ang hinala niyo?" Kade asked. Sunod sunod siyang napalunok nang malawak itong ngumiti sa kanya.
Makahulugan lang na ngumisi sa kanya si Nanay Lorena bago siya nito iwanan sa kusina. His brows furrowed while watching her back, Nanay Lorena was humming happily. What was that?
Tinapos ni Kade ang ginagawa niyang souffle pancakes at maayos na inilagay 'yon sa pinggan. He grab the small wooden table, at doon inilagay ang pinggan at isang baso ng gatas, together with the bottles of honey and chocolate syrup. Kailangan niyang bumalik sa Hospital agad kaya ipinahatid nalang niya sa kasambahay nila ang pagkain ni Shen sa kwarto nito, but then, Shen was nowhere to be found.
Pasimpleng napailing si Kade kasabay niyon ay ang pag ngisi niya. Alam na niya kung nasaan ito. Hindi alam ng mga kasama nila sa bahay na pumapasok si Shen sa kwarto niya, kaya hindi siya ng mga ito mahanap.
He walk towards his room and he's not wrong. Shen was sleeping peacefully on his bed. Linapitan niya ito at inayos ang unan na hinihigaan nito and then Kade covered half of her body with the comforter and open the air-conditioning, para hindi ito mainitan. He kissed her forehead softly before he went to his bathroom and took a quick shower.
Sa loob na rin siya ng banyo nagbihis. Paglabas niya sa banyo, he saw her eating the remaining souffle pancakes he made. Tumaas ang dalawang kilay ni Kade nang makita ang matalim na tingin na ipinukol ni Shen sa kanya. He smirked and ready his things. He placed his pen type vape and vape juice, his phone and his wallet inside the small bag he's going to use.
"Aalis ka?" Shen asked with her stern voice.
"Babalik ako sa hospital. Walang kasama si Dad, you'll be fine here, right?" Tanong niya pabalik dito at bahagya niya itong tinapunan ng tingin.
"Babalik ka naman diba?"
Kade smiled softly. He sat beside her and carefully placed his hand on her cheeks and rubbed it gently, hindi na mapigilan ni Kade ang mapangiti nang makita ang pamumula ng mukha ni Shen. Mas lalo itong gumanda sa paningin niya. He can't believe that a demon like him captured a beauty like Shen.
"I'll be busy tomorrow and the next day too. But, I'll make sure na uuwi ako, uuwian kita hmm?"
"Nasaan ang 'I love you' ko?" Shen asked and pouted her lips.
Bahagyang umatras si Kade, natutukso siya na halikan ito.
"I live for you. I will continue to live my life for you. Sheila Eiran Nyx Avanceña." Kade said sincerely and pressed his forehead against hers.
It was his promise. A promise that he'll never break. He almost died once, no, twice, but he's still living because of her.
Isusuko lang niya ang buhay niya kung wala na si Shen sa tabi niya.
☕
sobrang stress ko lately soooo pasensya na kung sabaw hshs