Even when I am with my closest
Friends I feel so left out
Do they really care about me or
Want me around I really doubt
I hate that I let my voices
Control me, they tell me
It was always them to begin
With there was no 'we'
By nature I am quite clingy
But I am not like that around them
Scared they might find it cringy
I hide who I really truly am
Sometimes they show they do care
But my mind screams they don't
Times when i feel like trusting is rare
I hope none of them read this poem
I think it's partly my fault
I shouldn't be so insecure
To get rid of these feelings
Is there any kind of cure?
I certainly don't need hundred friends
It's enough just one true best friend
With whom I feel secure and happy
And I will care for them till the end
-Niki