*3 weeks later*
"How u feeling?" Keon asked grabbing my plate and putting it into the sink. He had cooked me some breakfast this morning.
It was pancakes, sausage, and eggs with cut up strawberries on the side.
"Good, I lowkey feel like I'm healing fa real" I said drinking some orange juice.
"That's good" he said hesitantly, it felt like he was nervous about something but I didn't know what.
"What's wrong wit u" I asked getting up wincing a little out of pain
"Nun, just tired. I'm finna take a nap" he said going upstairs dismissing the conversation before I could even respond.
I knew that something was wrong, he just wasn't telling me. He'd been acting like this for a while now, but I never acknowledged it considering it was already enough going on, I didn't wanna bring on extra issues.
He made it very clear that's he's taking the blame for what happened to me, no matter what I say he's still sticking to it. His stubbornness gets highly aggravating at times.
Even though it's not really possible to forget, I really wish I could just forget about what happened, it's like that shit scarred me for life.
I've had nightmares damn near every damn day, of course Keon was there— but it's still scary to feel like I'm reliving that exact moment every night.
Almost felt like sleep paralysis at times— but that'd be a stretch.
"Whatever" I mumbled going to the kitchen to put my cup in the sink.
"Aye come hea" Keon yelled from upstairs.
"Yeah" I said walking in seeing he was on the phone with someone.
"Hea somebody wanna talk to you" he said passing me the phone for me to see it was his mama.
"Heyy" I said grabbing it putting it to my ear exiting out the room
"Heyy baby, how you doing?" She asked
"I'm doing good, how you been? It's been a minute since we talked." I said pacing around
"I'm doing good, I been meaning to check on you again. I been a little busy but I'm glad to hear you doing good. How Keon been? Cause no matter how much I ask all he say is 'I'm good Ma' which I know is a lie."
"Uhm he's been a lil off.. he been acting a lil hostile more than usual and he tends to be a little controlling more at times but I can understand that part. But yeah I think he's still processing the whole situation" I said honestly. I didn't wanna tell her the part about him blaming hisself cause I didn't know how he'd feel about it.
"Yeah that sounds like him, I just don't want him to take out his emotions on you cause trust me he will if you let him. But he cares about you a whole lot and I think he's a little shook up, so don't be too hard on em" she chuckled making me blush a little.
"Okay I got you, he has his moments but I've gotten used to them so I'll be good."
"I'm glad to hear that, but you keep healing baby take your time. Talk to you later" she said and hung up.
"What was she talking bout" he asked as I brought him the phone back.
"Nun of yo business"
"Nigga it's my mama the hell is u talkin bout" he said cocking his neck back as if that really offended him
"Boy shut up" I said bucking at him
"Bro who is u bucking at u already cripple"
"..."
".."
"Aye my fault" he said bursting out laughing while I stared at him blankly in awe that he just said that
"You ain't shit" I said walking out the room shaking my head
"Bae I was jus playing" he said jogging to me grabbing my waist gently
"Get away peasant" I said shooing him away moving his hands from around me
"Anything but that"
"Keon move u jus over did it" I mumbled trying to get away from him but clearly it wasn't that easy.
"Baby ass" he said mushing my head gently
"U finna be cripple right wit me" I said grabbing one of my crutches and hitting him in his ankle with it
"Stop playin wit me fa I throw you off the balcony"
"Throw me ho" I said but then flinched when he stepped towards me
"Jumpin ass u betta shut up" he said mushing my head jogging down the stairs.
I can only imagine how he was in school, he was definitely a fucking bully who picked on all the kids.
"Shut up dirt neck" I retorted
"That's why yo ear lobe stank"
"That's why yo bottom row of teeth bogus as hell, that shit look dysfunctional and it's overlapping so shut yo alien head ass up"
"..."
"Damn" he said scratching his head
"AW OKAY!" I said shouted as his face of embarrassment switched to a mug super quick.
"You think u funny"
"I'm hilarious"
"I don't got time fa u, finna go wit my other girlfriend" he said waving me off leaving out the house
"I'LL BLOW THIS MF HOUSE UP WIT ME IN IT!" I shouted out the door and then slamming it hard as hell
"I'll beat u how u did yo sister!" He responded getting into his car closing the door
I chuckled, just ignoring his comment whike locking the door. He always saying some out of pocket shit.
I was lowkey still scared to be home alone— but he moved to a new house which made me feel better.
He moved about a week after while I was still in the hospital, he said he wanted me to feel safe when I was able to come home.
I had been talking to my mom more, I guess she ain't that bad but I still have my moments where I remember all she did and put me through.
We talk every once in a while cause I wanted to take my time considering I'm letting somebody back in my life who I intentionally cut off for my well-being.
Keon isn't the biggest supporter but he claims if I'm happy he's happy, so I just go along with it.
My dad, we haven't really spoke that much. We talked twice— at the hospital and one time after I was released.
I feel like he hurt me the worse more than anyone. It's like I felt betrayed by him in multiple ways.
I just feel lied to by everyone, my mom, sister, dad, everybody. But I mean as long as I have my favorites K's— Keon, Kamora, and Kai.
About my sister.. she hadn't reached out to me or sent me anything ONCE, and she's fully aware of what happened to me. I didn't think she'd be that evil but I mean, it is what it is.
Speaking of Kai, we been talking almost everyday. She's been there just as much as Keon which is a huge help and it feels good to have more than one person to be there for you.
I decided not to go back to school, even though I should've and could've finished, I just didn't want to.
I knew it'd be too much with everyone asking about it, all in my face, and all the 'are you okays' from people who probably don't genuinely care— just need something to gossip about.
I haven't told Keon yet because I know he'll be against it, but I have to tell him sooner or later, so I guess today is that day.
I was going to wait until he got back, cause I feel doing it over the phone would be childish.
I sat down on the couch and grabbed the remote to turn on All American: homecoming. I been watching for weeks waiting for Simone and Damon to get together, but I don't think it'll happen— considering Thea in the picture now.
But I mean since Jordan has Layla now it ain't really shit Simone can do. But if she ended up with Jr I wouldn't be mad.
I sat there laying down with the cover over me, paying close attention to what was currently happening.
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"Wake up" Keon said gently waking me up with some harolds and a Tahitian fruit punch immediately bringing a smile to my face.
"Awnn thank you" I said still sounding a little tired.
I sat up and began eating while he sat beside me rubbing my thigh gently while scrolling on his phone.
KEON
While Kianna ate her food, I scrolled through Instagram seeing pictures of my niece. Her birthday was a few days ago, and she turned about 5 or 6, ion kno. One of em I'm not sure though.
I don't be talking to my sister like that but I did tell my niece happy birthday, we still ain't that cool though cause I don't give a fuck to have a relationship with her.
Just cause I kept it cordial with her don't mean we cool, her lame ass excuse don't mean nun so I'm cool on her.
I'm lowkey getting tired of everybody, I think me and Kianna should move outta state and live our damn life cause this shit stressing the both of us out.
Of course Ian tryna leave my og but at the same time she grown so she should be good, plus she got dae dae irritating ass.
It had been a minute since I talked ta Tyrell, but ion care nigga was on some hating shit so he lowkey cut.
It's like he start acting weird and being a damn creep and ain't nobody tryna be around that unordinary behavior
"What you thinking about?" Kianna asked with mild sauce on the side of her mouth making me smile a little
"Nothing, jus sum shit. U done eating?"
"Do I look done?" She asked and when I looked she had 2 wings left already. Fat ass mf
"I was jus asking fatty" I said frowning at her
"You don't want none?"
"Na I'm good, finish yo food"
"mhm" she mumbled.
I tried getting better at acting like I was good but on the inside I'm real life hurt about that shit, and I probably ain't ever gon get over it.
If I was there that shit wouldn't have happened, but it's good cause I already got them niggas back.
Got it back in blood y'all jus don't know that's how it supposed to be 🤫
"You wanna watch a movie?" I asked turning my phone off grabbing the Roku remote off the couch arm
"Yeah, NOT Friday." she said making me chuckle a little
"You is a bug, what's wrong wit Friday g"
"We go through this every.single.time. Why can't we watch a romance, like the titanic they got it back on Netflix."
"Foe ain't nobody tryna watch that 3 hour ass movie. Shit wayyyy too long"
"But it's worth it, you probably never even seen it while you so quick to judge it" she said glaring at me while cleaning her hands off with a napkin
"Girl ion care bout nun of that you talking bout, we can watch Menace 2 Society" I suggested
"Okay"
"finally we agree" I muttered
"Pardon me?" She asked leaning in close to my face putting her ear to my mouth. I was finna bite that mfn me Mike Tyson but she already damn there disabled
"Nun start the movie" I said mushing her head
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After the movie ended we was both on our phones until she put hers down and began speaking
"So .. I've been thinking and I'm not going to finish school off."
"What?"
"I said I'm not going to finish sc- no why" I said turning my phone off
"Because Keon I just don't want to do it, I really don't feel like explaining so if you could please not interrogate or question me on it right now that'd be very helpful."
"Ok Kianna" I said huffing scratching my head.
"Oh and also what's been wrong with you? Like your energy seems off and it feel like you hiding something from me and ion like that."
"Man what" I smacked my teeth scrunching my face up
"Don't look like that I'm serious, like you been moving very weird."
"So what u think I'm cheating on u ah sum?" I asked sarcastically
"maybe.." she mumbled looking down at her hands
"Kianna stop playing wit me" I said getting serious
"I'm just saying, that's how I feel."
"I get that but don't accuse me of cheating, ever."
"Okay I won't but you missing the point."
"Ight I get that but I don't really know what to tell you, I'm not hiding nothing from you so" I shrugged nonchalantly
"Ok Keon." She sighed getting up
"Now u mad" I squinted
"I'm not, you just could've worded that better or sum."
"Ight man."
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I'm back, sorry for taking so long to update. I was tryna see what I wanted to happen and if I was going to end it now or not .. (I'm not)
Hope y'all enjoyed 💝