I love you,
I love you beyond belief,
But there's something wrong,
Something I have to say.
I'm scared.
I'm scared of what you're doing.
You're planning my life,
I'm scared to tell you no.
You want to have kids.
That's nice, I'm only seventeen.
I wish you would stop touching me,
I wish you would give me my space.
You want us to live together,
You want me to be with you forever,
You want this, you want that,
But I don't.
You want to marry me,
But like I said,
I'm only seventeen.
Give me my life back.
I don't want to hurt your feelings,
I don't want to break up with you,
But God, please give me my life back!
You said you'd make me the happiest girl,
The happiest in the world,
Well you're failing,
Because I'm scared of you.
I'm scared of us.
You're such a sweet guy,
We have all the same interests,
We have fun together,
And we laugh together.
I don't want this to end,
But oh my god.
We started dating two months ago,
And you're not giving me a choice.
You don't talk to me about marriage,
Especially when I'm still in High School.
You don't tell me how many kids we're going to have,
Because I'm not getting pregnant at seventeen.
I can't handle a child as is,
I'm still a child for crying out loud!
I don't want to move in with you,
I have plans already set.
I'm going to go to the city,
I'm going to live with my BEST friends,
And we're going to work, and have a good time,
And I'm going to University.
I'm not moving with you,
I'm not being your stay at home wife,
With four kids running loose,
At the age of seventeen.
I haven't even started life,
And you're taking it away from me,
But I'm scared,
I'm scared of what you will say.
You get mad so easily,
You yelled at me for touching your hair,
But it's alright for you to touch me?
It's alright for you to be forceful?
Stop touching me.
Leave me alone.
I love you.
But give me space.
You're immature,
You're perverted,
You anger easily,
You scare me.
Stop planning my life,
I hardly know you,
Even though I have known you for 4 years,
I don't know you anymore.
You changed so much when you moved,
You just honest to god scare me now,
You were so nice, and timid before.
Now you're a man.
You're a possessive,
Egocentric,
Man.
I can't say this to your face,
Because I don't know how to.
I'll suffer through this,
I'll give you the fighting chance.
But if you don't change by the end of June...
It's over.
~Shoukyoku.
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Ahhh... Well...
This is true. I'm in a relationship with this exact man.
It was written about him.
I'm scared, nervous, and...
I don't know.