despair - h.hyunjin ★

By bunsyy_

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after years of chasing him, she gives up. [started: jan '22] hyunjin x reader #1 in skz #1 in ff #1 in skzhyu... More

intro
chapter 1
chapter 2
chapter 3
chapter 4
chapter 5
chapter 6
chapter 7
chapter 8
chapter 9
chapter 10
chapter 11
chapter 12
chapter 13
chapter 14
chapter 15
chapter 17
chapter 18
chapter 19
chapter 20
chapter 21
chapter 22
chapter 23
chapter 24
chapter 25
chapter 26
chapter 27
chapter 28
chapter 29
chapter 30
chapter 31
chapter 32
chapter 33
chapter 34
chapter 35
chapter 36
chapter 37
chapter 38
chapter 39
chapter 40
chapter 41
chapter 42
chapter 43
chapter 44
chapter 45
chapter 46
chapter 47 (final)

chapter 16

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By bunsyy_

(idk why this got unpublished)

y/n pov

"oh, also mom,"

"hm?" she said while looking at the road, driving.

"Could we go see seungmin after all this? I talked to him already"

"oh yeah sure"

"Alright, thanks again"

she hummed and continued driving. as much as I try to ignore it, I keep freaking out

soon the time came and we reached, I was breathing heavily and mom noticed

"Are you okay y/n? What's wrong?"

"a-ah- nothing- im f-fine"

"sure?"

I nodded.

A few minutes later we reached, then we waited outside for them to arrive

a few minutes later another expensive car pulled over, then hyunjin and his family got out of it, this time I didn't look at him at all, because every time I do, we fricken end up making eye contact.

we greeted each other and got in, me and hyunjin sat facing each other on the table, I still kept trying my best to not look at him, but I felt like he was taking small glances at me, or.. maybe he wasn't and it's just me

as usual, we finished eating, and after that, I and hyunjin got sent out, but this time mom asked me if I wanted to go or stay, I told her I'll leave.
-
Me and hyunjin got out, this time I didn't really bother asking him anything and started walking the other side, but he called me. yes. for the first time he did, making me freak out even more.

"where are you going?"

"uh-"
"I thought you would wanna go somewhere alone as usual."

"oh.. okay" he said as he turned back and left me there in awkwardness again, weirdo

I decided to text seungmin

"Hey, could you come by the ***** restaurant?"

"Woah that's far, what are you doing there?"

"I told you it's our families"

"oh right"
"well could you meet me somewhere closer? I don't think I can go as far"

"Hm lemme see"

"okay"

well maybe if I take the car? Nah mom needs it too, dammit I'm doomed.

"nevermind I don't think
I can, I'll just pass my time here
and there till we can go back"

"oh okay take care"

-

hyunjin pov

I expected y/n to kinda follow me around, but oh well- I guess she did mean all of that. or maybe she's just- eh whatever-

but.. what if she really..- Aish whatever.
I took my phone out and texted sung hee, as usual she replied pretty quickly

"hi"

"hey!"

"where are you rn?"

"at work, ill text you later. sorry!"

"oh"
"thats fine"

I sigh, now i dont have anyone to hang out with. I guess y/n isn't the only one who missed out on making friends.

y/n pov

since seungmin couldn't come i decided to back into the restaurant, but i saw hyunjin standing outside, i thought he left..?

Dammit. How do i get in now- fuck.

should I try sneaking in somehow? nah i don't think that'll work, he'll most probably notice.

i stood there thinking what to do, then i looked at hyunjin for a bit, is he doing okay..? he looks kinda bland than usual. i wonder what's wrong
normally I'd go ask but I don't think i should for now, plus his little wench already said he's doing fine, infact "better" so meh.

Whatever, just because he's standing there doesn't mean I cant go in, he doesn't own the road.

I took a breath, and started walking in slowly towards the door, where he was standing, my steps got slower as i got closer but i kept walking, then reached the door, but the moment I tried opening the door to step in hyunjin said something, not looking at me still, as usual

"They wont let you in"

"What?"

"Why else do you think I'm standing here?"

"But why are they doing that?"

he just shrugged.

"I'll call mom"

"okay"

wow he's actually talking, imagine

"she's not picking up"

"I know, my mom isn't either"

"and your dad?"

"i don't know"

"try calling him"

"uh.. no"

"why?"

"not your concern"

"atleast try- fine whatever" i said and started to walk away, they're probably busy

"where are you going again?" he asked from behind

"not your concern"
-

i got out of there, but I didn't really know where to go or what to do anyway- i sigh

So, i kept walking and walking, i had no idea where, but.. yeah-
its pretty nice here actually, its not that sunny, nor is it too cold, its perfect. This isn't a very crowded place either, it doesn't have alot of buildings or isn't very populated, just how i like it pft, Its kinda romantic too. Should i possibly come here with seungmin someday? Hm.. now that i think of it.. i wonder if by any chance he..- no shut up y/n he's a good friend and thats that.

no ones pov

For some reason, you were really enjoying walking alone, without having to worry about anything else, you completely zoned out for that moment. For the first time, hyunjin wasn't the only thing going on in your mind. You saw a small park nearby, so you decided to take a walk there. Even though it was just a small park, it was really pretty. The flowers, the little pond, everything. You also saw a few couples wandering around, but you didn't really care right now about any of that, you were enjoying the time you were having.
-

hyunjin pov

where could she even go, she'll just end up losing her way back. idiot
or maybe she's hanging out with her so called friend again.
...should i go after?
no- what am i thinking. Aish.

no ones pov
(yes again shut)

"Ugh, I wish it was as peaceful like this.. always.." you said to yourself as you came over a bench across the pond and sat over it. "I should definitely come here again, its such a comfort place" you said as you took out your phone to click a few pictures.
While you were taking some, you noticed someone familiar.. it was a tiny looking girl.. you focused and zoomed your camera a on her out of curiosity

"no way its.. sung hee..? what would she be doing this far away?? and who is this weird man with her? hyunjin? no he doesn't dress this ugly" you said to yourself trying to figure out more about them.. then you slowly got up from the bench and walked a little closer

"oh my hell it really is her?" you mumbled as you got closer, then hid behind the closest tree around them

y/n pov

as i was close enough, i tried to hear what they were saying, but all i could hear were soft mumbles, i slowly took out my phone and sneaked a picture of them, now let's show this to hyunjin~

I walked out of the place, and decided to get a drink from the little stall near the park.
-
After I finished, I started walking back to the restaurant, but I got a little lost in the ways so i decided to ask some people around.

"There he is" I said as I watched him from a distance all alone, with their picture in my hand. As I was walking closer to them, I heard another shrill voice coming from behind.

"oppa!" ..do i even need to explain. did she see me sneaking on them? ugh ruined the fun
But, I still decided to walk to them, cus who cares.
When i finally reached, she went with her regular 'innocent' "hey unnie!" and smiled, i smiled back, then hyunjin talked to her.

"weren't you at work?" he asked her

pft, 'work' I rolled my eyes

"yea i was.. but i thought maybe if you needed me"

"you didn't have to come this far, I was fine"

"well too bad!"

oh my she's so annoying

he just smiled at her, ew they're soo lame

But I'm not pretty nice, so i asked her with the same innocent smile she always has on her face

"Hey sung hee, the park nearby is really nice, isn't it?"

her face went blue.
I smirked.

~to be continued

------

purrrrr daddy

(hi ! future me here. LEAVE ME ALONE IDK WHY I SAT MY ASS AND THOUGHT TYPING TJAT WAS A GOOD IDEA OKAY JUST PRETEND YOU DONT SEE THE 'DADDY' thanks. he looks hot tho 😻)


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