Ellie's POV
I walked in the apartment behind Grace who was angry at me. She refused to talk to me in the car and would respond with a rude or cold response every time I talk to her.
I closed the door and made sure to lock it. I followed her to our room before she slammed the door which by the way hit my hand so hardly.
I held my wrist from the pain I was feeling and waited for it to fade away but it kept hurting.
I opened the door with my other hand "I get that you're fucking mad but you have absolutely no fucking right to slam the door like that which by the way fucking hurt my hand!" I yelled at her.
"I didn't know it would hurt your hand" she responded with an emotionless tone as she put her phone on the nightstand.
She took the jacket she was wearing off and went towards the closet "so you're not gonna communicate with me and just be a bitch for the rest of the day?" I asked annoyed.
Again, no response.
She started stripping out of her clothes and putting on comfortable clothes "you know what? Keep being a bitch. I'm so fucking tired of being the only one that puts effort into the relationship and tries to fucking communicate and solve our differences. I'm also so fucking tired of you arguing with me over everything I do. Grow the fuck up!"
I left the room and slammed the door behind me. I went to get some ice for my hand and sat on the couch.
We left the dorm and bought an apartment close to the university because they found out that we were keeping a dog and that wasn't allowed so we just decided to buy an apartment.
She always does this. She fights with me over the smaller shit ever and I always try to be patient with her, talk to her, calm her down and apologize even if it wasn't my fault.
But she doesn't do the same.
When we fight she makes absolutely no sense but I hate yelling at her so I don't. I try to talk maturely to her, if it doesn't work I do what she wants and apologize.
I'm too in love with her to let a small argument ruin our relationship but this time, she needs to realize that she needs to grow up and communicate instead of giving me the silence treatment and stop being a bitch.
I heard the door open and saw her walk past me towards the kitchen. My eyes were stuck on her as she walked to the kitchen with a smile on her face for some reason.
I turned to look at her as she put some leftovers from yesterday in the microwave.
She took her phone out of her pocket and turned around, giving me a good look of her face as she rested back on the kitchen counter as she had both of her hands on the phone.
I saw her texting someone then stopping, laughing after it.
I clenched my jaw and carried Coco, taking her off my lap and putting her on the couch gently.
Then I made my way towards Grace.
I took the phone from her hand harshly and looked at the screen of her phone to see who she was texting.
Alexis
What are you gonna do now?
Just gonna keep texting you bc
she's looking at me right now and
I know she's gonna come to see the text
I shook my head in disbelief and looked at her, seeing her with her arms crossed over her chest.
"Can I have my phone back now?" I sighed and gave it back to her, stepping away from her and letting her get the food from the microwave.
"You don't trust me?" She asked putting the food on the counter and looking at me "I do but I wasn't gonna watch you laugh at something like that. That's how you laugh when you're shy and that fucking scared me"
"Why?" She knew the answer.
But I wasn't going to give her the answer that she wanted. I just decided to walk away to our room.
I'm so irritated. She doesn't fucking communicate when she gets mad and it makes me fucking lose my mind and her doing that just to make me jealous or whatever scared the fuck out of me.
I'm sweating and my heart is beating so fast as I felt myself get hot at how angry I was when I just saw her laugh like that at someone else's text. Before I knew it was Alexis.
I hate that she fucking did this instead of coming to me and saying "we should talk" or something easier, tell me what I fucking did wrong but no, she has to make me feel so many things that I don't want to feel just to get my attention.
I hate feeling angry because with it, it gets followed by anxiety especially after I had the thought of her leaving me for someone else then what follows that is me feeling insecure.
Am I doing something wrong?
Is she bored of me?
Did she find someone better than me
Am I not satisfying her enough?
Am I not her only love anymore?
And it goes on and on with these questions that go through my head in only a blink of a time.
It makes me go crazy. It makes me want to cry, scream and fucking punch the person that stole my girl from me.
I don't like feeling like this.
I heard her step into the room "are you fucking happy about how you feel right now?!" She yelled at me.
I took a deep breathe and clenched my fists, trying to calm myself down so I don't do something stupid or more like..say something that will hurt her.
"You have absolutely no idea how I'm feeling. Don't try to act like you fucking do" I said calmly as I avoided her gaze and started walking around the room to get the anger out of me.
"Yes I fucking do. You think I felt happy when I saw you laughing at your phone when we were out?!"
Oh my god.
I looked at her "did you try to fucking ask me who I was texting?!" I yelled at her. I had enough of the way she acts.
She stayed quiet not responding to what I asked. I went to get my phone from the living room then went back to our room.
I opened the text she was talking about since they were the only people I was texting.
It was my family's group chat. Me, my mom, my dad and some relatives mostly from my dad's side of the family.
I showed her the text "look!" She read the text and I saw guilt in her eyes "you wanna check if there was something else then fucking do it. I'll fucking do it for you!"
"The last people I texted, the calls, the requests on Instagram, the friend requests on Snapchat..everything!" I said showing it to her.
"You just..weren't paying attention to me" she stuttered.
"Then fucking tell me that it bothered you! You were talking to your friends and I was texting my family, the family I didn't fucking have for 18 fucking years! Just fucking talk to me, tell me what you fucking want but no..you're Grace, you got to make everything so fucking complicated and play riddles with me instead of being straight forward so nothing fucking affects our relationship!"
I saw her on the edge of crying but I was already crying. I don't know if it was from how angry I was or from how sad I was.
"I feel like you don't even care about us. You make arguments out of the smallest things like you're trying to get rid of me or something!"
I tried to stable my breathing as I looked deeply into her eyes "I'm not trying to get rid of you, you just make everything suspicious. You act really suspiciously sometimes"
I raised my eyebrows "I was laughing at my family's text-" she cut me off "and you were smiling the whole time. How was I supposed to know it was your family?"
"You could've asked 'who are you texting?' Because you're my fucking girlfriend and you have every right to know who I was texting but no..you decided to act like a bitch!"
"Well I'm sorry that I didn't fucking do that!" She yelled at me "you should be fucking sorry!" I yelled back.
"Since when do you yell at me like that?" She asked sounding hurt "since fucking now!"
She started tearing up "I was just scared you were cheating on me" she said looking down at her fingers "so we're back to square one..did you not hear anything I just said?" I asked calming down a little.
She didn't answer me and just kept looking down.
"If it makes you fucking happy.." I slammed my phone to the wall hardly breaking it and making her flinch back "..here I have no fucking phone anymore, don't worry about me cheating on you with some bitch that probably doesn't have half of the qualities you fucking have"
I wanted to walk out of the room "I didn't want you to do that" she said. I turned to look at her "it seemed like the only fucking solution right now. I'm gonna go sleep in the guest room but don't worry, I won't be calling my side chick" I said sarcastically then walked out.
Maybe I was being extra but that anger was inside of me for so long. I kept up with her, I listened to her call me a bitch, an asshole, a cheater..everything bad after she thought I did something that I didn't even do.
She's just going to keep assuming shit until our relationship is done.
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I felt arms wrap around me from behind as I laid on my side. I sighed and turned around to see Grace with tears threatening to fall from her eyes as she smiled a little.
"I'm sorry I woke you up" she said, her voice cracking a little. I'm mad but I'm in love with this girl, I can't not feel my heart sting when I hear her sad voice or look into her sad eyes.
"I love so much, I really do but sometimes I get really scared of losing you and you finding someone better than me. I'm sorry for everything I did that was like that. I promise I'll try to communicate more and talk to you if I have a problem with something, I really care for you Ellie and I'm really in love with you"
After a few seconds I just placed my hand on her cheek, wiping her tears away as I gently pecked her lips "I just wanted to hear that.."
"..I love you baby"