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Movie night ended a few a hours ago after almost everyone called it quites at the third movie claiming they've had enough of marvel superheroes for one day which Diego thought was preposterous. But soon followed suite and decided it was infact past his bedtime and that he was going to miss his much needed beauty sleep.
Which brings me back to me sneaking out of my room trying my best not to wake anyone up. I'm really thirsty.
After 10 minutes of contemplating whether I stay put and just die of thirst or get up and go get a cup of water.Honestly I'd prefer the latter because my throat is really starting to hurt right now.
As I ventured my way to the kitchen in a quest for cup of water.Before all this I was sitting in my room staring at my plain walls glancing at the clock it's 3:25 it's only been 4hours since I came back to my room and I've been unable to sleep since. I let out a not so quiet hoarse cough clearing my dry scratchy throat.
I held my breath closing my eyes. I hope I didn't wake anyone up.
As I made my way, I heard shuffling I shrugged it off thinking nothing of it.
I walked into the kitchen found the door slightly adjured which was weird because the door's always closed. Maybe someone forgot to close it. I thought.
I decided against switching on the light because it's a quick in and out thing and mainly because I don't know where the switch is.Besides the moonlight is already shining through so I can see, well somehow.
I looked around the kitchen opening up cupboards until I finally found the cups which so happens to be on the top shelf which is a little to high for my 5'4 self..just my luck. I sighed getting on my tippy toes trying my best to reach for the cup. I huffed and tried again I was almost there when a voice startled me. "Do you need help farfallina?." The deep voice asked. I shrieked jumping back when the light went on.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you." Alejandro apologized I raised my eyebrows in surprise. "Oh no ,no it's fine." I assured tucking a curl behind my ear.
"Well?"he raised a brow and i glanced at him confused. "Do you need help." He stated gesturing towards the cupboard.
"Oh uhmm yes please" I replied quickly moving out of the way. He reached over with ease handing me the cup. "Water? " I gave a small nod as a response.
"So what are doing up so late? " He asked opening the fridge handing me the bottle of water.
I could ask you the same thing.
"I was thirsty and couldn't sleep, you? " I replied fiddling with my fingers.
"Same" he replied.
"How long have you been sitting here? " I asked confused because i didn't hear him come in .
"For awhile now" he replied.
"Oh"
"So... " I trailed off.
"Yeah?..." he trailed off too waiting for me to finish my sentence.
"Well uhh I will be going to bed now, goodnight" I rushed out with my water bottle speed walking towards the exit.
"Isabela? " he called. " Sí? " I answered stopping in my tracks.
"I was actually about to have a midnight snack ,if you'd like to join me" He said I saw a small emotion pass through his eyes.
"O-okay" I gave him tight lipped smile sitting beside him in one of the kitchen stools.
He stood up opening the cupboard grabbing two glasses placing them on the counter walking towards the fridge once more grabbing milk. He brought a cookie jar passing it towards me.
It's chocolate chip cookies my favorite.
I immediately dug in eating my cookies and milk while he just sat there and watched with a very tiny almost unnoticeable amused smile on his.
I looked up at him my cheeks stuffed with cookies I probably look like a chipmunk.
"What" I squeaked sipping from my cup of milk wiping my mouth with the back of my hand. He shook his head with a light chuckle.
"Oh I'm sorry do you want some?" I ask biting my lip out of embarrassment.
"No, I'm good."He said. I nodded and continued eating after three tries I finally convinced him to try the cookies. Now that I think of it he didn't eat lunch or dinner today he must be starving.
" I'm not hungry" he replied emotionlessly. When I offered him more cookies.
Bullshit.
Whenever I say that they make me eat anyway so he can suck it up.
I stood from my chair carefully walking towards the fridge I remembered the food that dad brought for me earlier there must be left overs somewhere.
"What are you doing?" He asked. "I'm making a sandwich" I replied once I found the needed ingredients it only took about 10minutes with Alejandro's help.
"Here you go" I smiled a little. "What's this?" He raised a brow. "It's a grilled cheese sandwich" I enlightened. "I know it doesn't look like much, but I swear it tastes good." I assured.
"For me?" He asked. I side eyed him. No, for Jesus. "Uh huh" I refrained from the sarcastic reply humming instead.
"Try it" I urged. He took a bite chewing and suddenly he just stopped his emotionless eyes widened slightly. I bit my lip anxiously. "What's wrong you don't like it?-i'm sorry I'll make something else." I hurriedly replied. His eyes snapped towards me softening a little. "No, it's amazing, honestly." He said though his voice was hard I heard the sincerity in it.
"Oh okay." I sighed letting out a small breath. We both ate in silence I ate my cookies while he ate his sandwiches until we were finally done.
"Long day at work" I quipped . When he ran his fingers through his hair rolling up his white dress shirt sleeves. Some of his buttons remained undone. And his suite jacket was no where to be seen. Which tells me he took it some time ago.
"You could say that" he replied tiredly.
"You should get some rest you look tired" I replied softly. "I wanted to talk to you actually but I figured it was late since I came home around 2am and didn't want to wake you." He said.
"About what?" I asked.
"About the mall yesterday, We didn't quite get a chance to speak."He said with a blank face.
"Oh" I replied already dreading the conversation.
"How are you feeling?" He started off.
"I'm okay" I replied which was kinda true because I actually feel a little bit better after what happened earlier. Emotionally drained, physically exhausted but I'd like to think I'm fine. But if I had to be completely honest, then I'm no where near fine.
He chuckled humorlessly shaking his head.
I looked up at him furrowing my brows.
"How do you do it?" He asked.
"How do I do what?" I asked confusedly.
"Pretend like you're okay?" He raised a brow questionably.
"What? I'm not pretending" I looked at him my eyes widened on their own account.
"Yes you are. Every single day since we got you back. And it breaks my heart farfallina it's irking the hell out of me." He said honestly but I could hardly tell his tone because his face was kept neutral.
"I don't know what you mean." I decided to go with the confused act.
"I see right through your 'I'm okay' act. I can see past that confused facade your holding on. I see the panicked look in your eye bela. What has you so scared?." He pressed on.
"I honestly don't know what you're implying." I continued on acting confused though the ice was slowly breaking.
"I saw the footage Isa, I saw how he whispered something to you, how the color drained from your face and pure fear flashed through your eyes.i saw how he held a knife to your throat but that didn't seem to scare you as much as whatever he told you Isa, I saw how you went into a full panic mode frenzy." He continued on.
"It was as if you were relieving something traumatic... a memory perhaps?" He said staring at me calculating my every move.
"He held a knife to my throat of course I would panic." I replied defensively.
"You know that's not true, Isa. It was what he said that had you so panicked what was it?" He asked me.
I shook my head. "I don't know what you're talking about." I replied my voice coming out strained.
"Jesus bela, I can see that you're not okay at all there's something going on"
"Please just stop." I cut him off. I took a deep breath.
"Why?" He asked staring at me intensely.
"Isabela" he said softly turning my head towards him so I'm looking right at him. "What happened to you sorella?"
"Nothing I'm okay" I replied avoiding eye contact so my eyes wouldn't give me away.
"Fine, but the truth will come out soon and I will find out what happened sooner or later and if anything of what I'm thinking is true, I'm going to lose my shit." He replied.
"Goodnight" he said giving me a kiss on the forehead making his way upstairs.
I should've stayed in my room.
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Some hours later.
It's 4:30 am.
I walked out of my room feeling suffocated. The conversation I had with Alejandro constantly replaying in my head.
No they can't find out. Not yet at least I'm not ready.
I mindlessly roamed around a bit until I eventually found myself infront of a double door. I've never been this side of the house before. I pushed the doors open.My breathing caught in my throat as I glanced around the incredibly beautiful garden I've never seen anything like it.
Wow why am I only seeing this now.
As I walked through the garden I felt a sudden pain in my head. I blinked a few times thinking nothing of it and shook my head"Shit" I hissed okay so that just made it worse. Then I closed my eyes breathing in and out hoping it would ease the growing ache in my head.
I was so wrong the longer I stood in this room the more painful it got. I blinked rapidly seeing some black spots invade my vision. I took deep breaths closing my eyes the pain slightly seized up. I couldn't bring myself to leave the garden. It felt like this wasn't my first time here like I've been here many times before. I felt safe and at peace but that only lasted for a mere second.
I was about to turn on my heel when a certain flower caught my eye. A dandelion. A symbol of growth, hope and healing. What was weird was it was the only flower among the Lilies. My legs move towards it on their own accord.
I reached out to it when an excruciating pain hit me. I retracted my hand bringing them towards my head massaging my temples with the palm of my hands. Flashy images kept on flashing in my mind.
Fuck, fuck,fuck what the hell is happening to me.
The room started spinning.
I heard laughter a little girl's laughter repeatedly it got louder and louder I covered my ears shutting my eyes tightly.
I felt a pain shoot between my eyes and a slight dizziness overcame my body."Papa-" I tried to call out but it came out as a mere whisper.
My eyes rolled back and everything soon went dark.
Flashback
10 years ago.
My six year old self ran into the garden. "Bubba?" I called looking around for my brothers. "Ale?" I called again. "Papa? Mama?" Where is everyone?. "Xandy,Ace Deo?"I frowned looking around. "Enzo, Lilah, Teo" where are did they all go to I was about to leave until a pretty flower caught my eye making run to it. Completely forgetting the whole reason I came here"It's so pretty" I smiled my small chubby hands reaching out to touch it before a hand grabbed my wrist causing me to shriek. I looked towards the person and relaxed. "Mama you scared me" I giggled.
She didn't smile back like she usually does instead she just tug me forward pulling me along with her. "Mama what's wrong?" I frowned as she dragged by arm grabbing her suitcases."Mommy where are we going to?"she didn't answer instead she just increased her pace rushing to grab my Dora school backpack. "Mommy-" I tried to say before she cut me off."Shut up" she grunted tightening her hand around my wrist. I winced but pressed my lips together to keep quiet.
We were almost out the door before a voice stopped her. "Rita at least let me say goodbye to her before you leave." Papa said. I turned to look at mama she released a breath but continued to pull me out of the house.
"Rita!"his voice boomed louder making me jump a little. "Let me talk to my daughter or God so help me you will not walk out of this house." He gritted staring at mama whose eyes turned a light shade darker. "Are you threatening me Giovanni?" She scoffed her grip on my hand tightening. I shut my eyes hissing as she increased more pressure.
"I'm not going to ask again, Margarita let me talk to her" he said once more firmly. I felt her grip loosen slightly. I didn't waste time on running towards my dad. "Papa what's going on?" I asked as he bend down to my level pulling me into him hugging me tightly.
"I uh well dolcezza you are going to go away for awhile" he softly said as he pulled away. "W-why" I asked. "Are we going on a trip?"I beamed happy because we're going on a trip and I can finally show Papa the DreamWorks tower in Disneyland.
"Yes we are" he smiled back. "But you and your mom are going to go before us" he said again. "But why?" I asked. "Me and your brothers have things to do but we'll be there before you know."
"B-but I don't want to go without you" I replied my voice wavering slightly.
"I know baby" he sighed.
"It's only going to be for a few days we'll see you soon" he said making mama scoff.
"You promise?" I said sticking out my tiny chubby pinky.
"I promise baby I love you." He said wrapping his large finger around my tiny one. "Always and forever" he kissed his pinky making me copy his actions.
"I love you too Papa." I replied getting on my tippy toes giving him a kiss on his cheek.
"Farfallina." Alejandro called emerging from the hallway quickly rushing towards me pulling me into a bone crushing hug. I squealed as he lifted me up holding me close to him "Bubba" I giggled.
"I'm going to miss you so much" he mumbled.
"But you're going to come soon right?" I asked.
He eyed dad and nodded. "Si farfallina we'll be seeing you soon." He said pampering my face in kisses. "I love you so much" he said sadly. "Don't be sad bubba Papa said we'll see each other soon." I smiled as he gently placed me back down .
" I told you to stay put Alejandro." My father sighed.
"Non posso credere che tu stia davvero passando con questo papà." He exasperated.("I can't believe you're actually going through with this dad.)
"deve essere fatto, lo sai che non ho altra scelta" Papa exclaimed tiredly.(it has to be done, you know I have no other choice.")
"È meglio che stia qui con noi e lo sai"
("She's better off staying here with us and you know that")
"Alejandro enough, do not question me further I'm doing this for her " he reasoned.
"I hope you don't regret this." He replied glaring at Papa and Mama before storming off.
"Okay it's time to go now Isabela come." Mama said holding out her hand.
"I love you alright don't forget it" Papa said kissing my forehead repeatedly.
"Just a few days okay?" He said too which I nodded before mama grabbed ahold of my hand dragging me towards the door. I watched as Papa stood by the door waving goodbye as the car drove away.
That was the last time I saw my Papa.
A few days turned into weeks, weeks turned into months. Mama and I left the penthouse we were living in. I begged her to stay and wait for Papa but she didn't listen. "Don't you get it you little brat your father doesn't want you anymore." She yelled at me. "B-but he said that-" I began before she cut me off. "I don't care what he said it's been weeks since he last called you honestly think he still loves you that he's still gonna come back" she rasped chuckling darkly.
"Well news flash he sent you away for a reason little brat, he doesn't love you , he never wanted you in the first place you're a burden to him and me, you're pathetic, useless, weak." She spat bitterly.
"N-no that's not true." I replied shaking my head. She threw the beer bottle at my head missing me by an inch when I ducked.
"I want Papa" I cried.
"You're father's never fucking coming back get that through your head." She seethed.
As she stormed out of the cheap hotel room she rented. Slamming the door shut.
I shook my head continuously. "H-he promised" I sobbed quietly.
He never came back.
He lied to me.
End of flashback.
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"Bela? Where are you" the distant voice called out.
"Did you find her?" Another panicked voice sounded.
"No, call the guards and tell them to search around the house" the voices said as they kept on getting louder.
"Where could she have gone?" The new voice sighed.
I opened my eyes hissing holding my head. "Did you hear that ?" The voice said. "It came from the garden come on." It said before footsteps came running towards the garden door.
I sat up quickly ignoring the ache in my head. The door was pushed open and in came. Matteo, Ace and Diego.
"Oh my god bela there you are" Diego rasped wrapping me in a bear hug. "Never disappear like that again." He mumbled against my hair.
"You're suffocating her, you idiot let her breathe" Matteo said pulling Diego off me.
"What are you doing here we've been up looking for you all morning." Matteo asked.
I took in a breath. Pushing everything I felt deep down inside me.
I shrugged tiredly. "I came here last night I must've lost track of time and fallen asleep." I replied.
"Just like old times huh?" Matteo chuckled shaking his head. Ace remained quiet and eyed me suspiciously. "Oh yeah you used to do this all the time when you were younger. I remember the heart attacks you would cause Dad when we couldn't find you just to come find you sleeping here peacefully as always, while we were losing our minds out there." Diego laughed.
I weakly smiled. "Anyways we have some very special people waiting to meet you downstairs" Diego beamed excitedly.
"Yeah so go freshen up and come downstairs quickly, you can take the elevator up so they don't see you, while I alert everyone else that we found you." Matteo said flatly.
"You good?" He asked me quietly looking at me with so much concern as if he could see right through me. "Yeah just tired" I replied weakly.
Ace gave me a hesitant nod before following the other two after they showed me where the elevator is.
I can't wrap my head around it.
What the hell happened ? Was that real or was it just a dream? a nightmare perhaps right? It can't be real.
Papa would never do that to me.
Right?.
I wish I never left my room.
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