ellie grazer
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#. 004
𝗞𝗡𝗢𝗖𝗞𝗜𝗡𝗚 broke the swoon neon trees bedazzled air and the gentle hums from Alina's plump lips had without warningly, stopped. The fiddling with her earring back had halted, as well as her vision, that casted over to the front door and then to me.
"I think that's, Ty. Do you mind getting it? I've just got a few more things to do." She asked me in her sweet voice that put a blanket over my brain.
The question itself almost terrified me. In fact it did terrify me. I didn't really feel appeased to the idea of opening the door to her boyfriend. There was something about the idea that I hated. Maybe it was him, I don't know. Or maybe it was the fact that she would be with him. Maybe if I just pretended he wasn't there, he'd leave. Ah, stupid.
Maybe it wasn't even him at all that I was concerned about. It was more than likely my social anxiety that was the cause to my sudden urge to hide away. And I was just trying to make up an excuse for it. I didn't like talking to people or meeting others. It made me sweat and made me overthink about every little action I did to ensure that they liked me and that I had a good first impression. Oh it was stupid really. But I was sweating. And I did not want to greet the person behind that door.
"Yeah, sure." The polite smile floated upon my lips within seconds at her request and I found myself dropping my book, sliding out of bed and walking to the door, despite my head wanting nothing to do with it.
I felt the carpet beneath my feet almost halt me where I was as I almost shuddered in my skin and nonsensically wiped my unnecessarily clammy hands onto my sweat pants and oversized shirt that dusted over the tops of my thighs. It happened within two seconds but it felt like an eternity as within the amount of time it took me to walk to the door and wipe my hands, the door had opened and I was faced with the so called, 'Tyler'.
My anxiety hadn't reached it's peak as it was likely stopped by his lopsided smirk and door way lean that had been quickly wiped away by his frantic pupils meeting mine. A funny looking expression brushed upon his once shocked cheeks as he obviously scowled and took a peep at what I was wearing and who I was, more specifically.
"She's just getting ready." I told him, trying to ignore my pungent sense of rolling my eyes and slamming the door in his face. This only made me not like him even more. At least I had a concern for first impressions, this guy clearly just didn't care at all and there was no doubt in my mind that the fact that I thought he was a judgy, shitty kisser asshole, played absolutely no effect on his painfully high ego. Douchebag.
"Hey babe, I'll be done in like five minutes." I heard Alina call over to us, where I now watched as his eyes completely disregarded mine and his stupid smirk returned.
I felt the side of me get pushed and found myself not even trying to hide my grimace as I got a whiff of his pervasive aftershave that hindered in my nose. The biohazard smell made me want to take a two hour long shower and I had to abolish my urge to roll my eyes as I thought about how long the room would smell like the coverup for his body odour. Gross.
I let the door click shut as I made my exit back to my bed and practically forced myself to submerge back into my book and ignore his compliments and remarks to Alina that made me force to fight away my urges to glare.
"Hey, you coming back to mine later?" I couldn't help but hear as he called to her in the bathroom from Alina's bed.
There was a pause as he waited for her reply. "Will your roommate be there?"
I had to conceal my sigh and slow shut of my eyes as I listened to hear actually consider it.
"Nah. Heard he was going to his girl's place so we'd have the room to ourselves." I couldn't help but sneak a look over to him where I could watch him smirk to himself.
I once again fought my urge to scowl and gag. I wasn't even reading anymore, my focus was just anywhere but at my book.
I heard Alina laugh to herself. "Yeah, I'll stay over."
Fuck.
I didn't know why I was so gutted by her answer but I envied her decision greatly. I don't know why I envied her choice either. She was literally dating him. They were boyfriend and girlfriend. I would have the room to myself to study and focus on school like I actually wanted. I wanted an extroverted roommate who would be out all the time and I had that. She would even be staying over at a different place. So, why was I so upset about her not being here?
I wanted this to happen. What was I doing? I didn't even have a reason to not like her boyfriend yet, I didn't like him. I didn't even have a reason to disagree with her choices yet here I was, disagreeing with them. I didn't want her to leave. Did she really need to go to this party? Why was I acting like I even had a say in what she did?
"Okay, I'm all ready." Her sweet voice blossomed from the exit of the bathroom.
I peered over the top of my book as he stood up and greeted her with a kiss and hurl worthy squeeze to her ass. My eyes dug into him like daggers and I could feel them jabbing into his flexed muscles and awful kissing skills. What if I just, cut his lips off? Maybe then he would stop kissing her. If you could even call his pathetic attempts 'kissing'.
I let my thoughts run like a kissing and relationship expert yet, I hadn't kissed a soul in my life nor had I ever been in a relationship. My knowledge rained from TV shows and movies, not in real life. It didn't look hard at all though. And always looked appeasing and fan girl worthy in the shows. Maybe this 'Ty' guy hadn't watched shows - it was clear to me that he hadn't - and sure, he actually had a past of kissing and relationships. It just clearly wasn't a very good past as his skill in the lips department was tragic. I wasn't one to talk, I was aware that my virgin logic was probably a load of bullshit but a part of my logic that I knew wasn't bullshit, was knowing that I would've damn well done a better job at kissing Alina than her sorry sack of a boyfriend who had kissed the whole world.
"You look amazing." I heard him say while his hands lingered on cupping her ass. I also couldn't help but pick up on the fact that he had whispered something into her ear and I also couldn't help but take note of her giggle in return to his words. I wanted to rip my book in half.
"Come on, let's go." She spoke through her snickers as she locked both of their hands together, another thing I stared at for a bit too long. "Oh wait, I forgot my bag." She pulled her hand out of his and looked back to her bed. "I'll be two seconds." She made her departure from him while jogging towards her bed.
I watched as Tyler left the centre of the room and exited my view to the front door and I had to take a second to appreciate the fact that I didn't have to look at him anymore and allowed my eyes to falter back on my book. I tried to hide my stupid amount of dissatisfaction and didn't occupy my eyes onto Alina as she hurried back through the centre of the room yet stopped just before she left my view.
"Oh, El." I looked up at her, half of her body was peaking out from behind the wall. "I'm going to lock you in, kay'?"
I nodded as I forced a smile between my cheeks. "Okay."
She smiled back and slightly turned to leave before quickly looking back to me. "Are you sure you don't want to come?"
I looked back at her face with her expression of slight desperation and inviting aura. I kept my smile higher as I once again nodded. "I'm sure. I hope you have fun tonight." I hoped she couldn't depict my fakeness.
Her smile grew as well. "Okay. Just text me if you change your mind."
"I will."
"Alina, come on." I heard Tyler hurry her up. Does this guy have any patience?
"I'm coming, I'm coming." She spoke back to him. "Bye Ellie."
I didn't even have a moment to tell her goodbye as I watched her leave my vision which was soon, if not right after, followed by a slam and lock of the front door.
Yeah, have fun.
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a/n :
JEALOUSY JEALOUSY, ALL YOUR FRIENDS
ARE SO COOL YOU GO OUT EVERY
NIGHTTTTT