despair - h.hyunjin ★

By bunsyy_

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after years of chasing him, she gives up. [started: jan '22] hyunjin x reader #1 in skz #1 in ff #1 in skzhyu... More

intro
chapter 1
chapter 2
chapter 3
chapter 4
chapter 5
chapter 6
chapter 7
chapter 8
chapter 9
chapter 11
chapter 12
chapter 13
chapter 14
chapter 15
chapter 16
chapter 17
chapter 18
chapter 19
chapter 20
chapter 21
chapter 22
chapter 23
chapter 24
chapter 25
chapter 26
chapter 27
chapter 28
chapter 29
chapter 30
chapter 31
chapter 32
chapter 33
chapter 34
chapter 35
chapter 36
chapter 37
chapter 38
chapter 39
chapter 40
chapter 41
chapter 42
chapter 43
chapter 44
chapter 45
chapter 46
chapter 47 (final)

chapter 10

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By bunsyy_

y/n pov

"i have no idea what you're talking about."

"ofcourse you dont, so let me tell you, that shit of a guy wont be as he used to be, and literally all you do is think of him all the damn time,do you even have a life of your own?"

"seungmin are you scolding me right now?"

"if thats how you wanna put it, then yes, yes i am. for being so blind after someone who gives no shit about you"

i didnt say anything, what could i say? he was right after all.. ugh.
i turned around and started walking

"so you're just gonna avoid me like that?" he catched up from behind

"no, we're getting late"

this time he didnt say anything and just walked with me, he probably is tired of me being like this, oh well-

---

after i got done with tutoring, i said bye to seungmin and left for home
.
the moment i reached my mom told me she'll be out for a week or so, I wasn't surprised as it was pretty usual

"take care sweetie"

"you too, mom. and dont stress out on work alot"

she smiled and left, i went to my room

i was planning on watching the tv, but I couldn't find the remote for it, because of course, it has to be lost when you need it

so i started looking for it as it should be around somewhere, as i was looking for it i found something big, dusted with dirt behind my bed, i took it out

ahh its been so long since played this, it was a guitar bag, with my guitar that i havent played in about a year, i cleaned it a bit, and then tried playing it

i wanted to start with one of my favourite songs, so i started playing it on the guitar, i did forget a few of the strings and all, but after about a hour i got used to it again, and finally i opened the song lyrics in my phone and started singing

(im not including a song, yall can decide your favourite song and imagine it 😼)

ah it felt good to play it after so long.. its been a while, i sigh

i went to the mirror, and i don't know why i started remembering all what seungmin said again.. i dont really have a life of my own do i? ugh.

i took out my phone and saw a post of hyunjin, with.. sung hee? they had dinner together? or rather... a date..?

my blood started boiling, i clicked off and threw my phone accross the bed and went to the bathroom, as much as i try i still just keep thinking about him, why cant he be like how he used to be? how we used to text and laugh everyday? why did all of this happen? do i have even a little importance in his life anymore.. my head is just filled with all these thoughts, i washed my face and went back in, then i looked at my phone, i had a text from seungmin

"what are you doing?"

"nothing much, you?"

"im bored wanna call?"

"sure"

-

"hello?"

"hey"

"oh hey, are you working?"

"yeah, it gets really tiring"

"oh, make sure to get rest when you get home"

"ye i will, what were you doing?"

"nothing really"

"mhmm, well are you free right now?"

"yeah, why?"

"idk, maybe come see me.. if you want ofcourse-"

"pft, sure ill be there"

"oh really-?"

"mhmm"

"thanks, i dont really have any friends around"

"samee"

"okay then come quick"

"okay okay lemme change"

"you dont need to though"

"yes i do, i look like a monster right now"

"no dont say that, you always look pretty"

aww hes so sweet-

"thanks, but i still do need to change soooo see yaaa"

"fine ill be waiting don't take long"

i hung up, it actually feels good to have someone who actually wants to see me honestly, i smiled to myself and changed, then went out to the place he works, and then went in

"helloooo"

"heyyy"

"my shift is about to get over actually in a bit"

"oh am i late?"

"nope, you're on time"

"oh okay, but wont you go home after your shift gets over?"

"no, i wanna take you somewhere"

"huh? where?"

"surprise"

"what no tell me-"

"dont worry i wont sell you"

"i know dumbass just tell me"

"no" he smiled

"whatever"

"you wanna eat something?"

"oh i forgot to bring money-"

"its fine I'll pay"

"no its okay"

"shut up you buy me cookies everyday"

"its fineee"

"soo what you wanna eat?"

"gosh why are you so stubborn"

"says who"

"w h a t e v e r"

"lers get you some sweets then"

he got out of the counter and got me a box of chocolates, they were the same ones i bought last time i was here, im surprised he remembers

"okay lets go now"

"but where??"

"shh"

---

after walking a little we were in huge building, it looked like it was still under construction

"are you sure we won't get in trouble for this?"

"no dummy"

"uh-"

then we got on, he took me to the elevator, since the building was apparently still under construction i was kinda scared we would get stuck or something

"this works right?"

"yea"

"sure-?"

"I've used ths multiple times before"

"you came here before?"

he hummed and clicked on the topmost floor

fortunately we reached and the elevator didnt crash or anything, when the doors opened, i realised we were at the terrace of the building, almost all of the city was visible, it was beautiful

" ...wow"

"like it?"

"yess, its such a romantic place
ahh just if i could come here with hyunj-"

"no dont even try, i bought you here so you could get him out of your mind for once"

"oh-"

"besides, you're here with me so you shouldn't be talking about him right?"

"huh- what do you m-"

he took a step closer to me, and leaned towards my face

"you dont know what i mean?" he was literally staring into me.. he was so pretty but i was freaking out i dont know why, i stepped a little back

"wh.. wha-"

then he started smiling, and giggled, then pointed out at the view

the moment i looked at it, all the lights of all the buildings switched on, all the colourful banners, lights, buildings, all of them lighted up, and it looked so prettyy

'every thursday they take off the power and switch it on exactly at 8 pm, i dont know exactly why they do it but i heard its to save power no one in this area uses any electricity till 8 pm, and when it all lights up together, it looks so pretty doesn't it?"

"it does" i smiled while looking at it, and then i looked at seungmin, he looked so excited just seeing a area light up, it was so cute

he then looked at me, i quickly looked away, but i obviously did embarrass myself, ugh

we stayed there for a bit

"lets go now" he said

"aww i wanted to stay for longer"

"next thursday it is then!"

"yess"

after that we both went out of the building, seungmin walked me home and then left, i went back to my room and went to bed since i was pretty tired

the next dayyyy~

i woke up and got ready for school as usual, since mom wasnt here i decided to get breakfast from a nearby cafe since the cafe i usually go to was temporarily closed

the moment i was about to get in, i heard someone familiar, that annoying high pitched laugh, i could recognise it anywhere, it was.. i sneaked and looked a little closer, it was sung hee? with a guy?
was that hyunjin? after looking a little closer i realised it totally was not, it was someone else.

but why? who is he? isnt she always sticking to hyunjin? this isnt what im thinking it is right.. it couldn't be.

i tried hearing what they're talking about, though i wasnt completely able to, i took a table right beside them so sung hee couldn't see me, and the other guy didnt know me

"oh he's such a idiot!" i heard sung hee say that

who..?

~to be continued

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