~ Ryder's P.O.V ~
"I'm taking you to get an abortion" the moment those words left Ashton's mouth my head filed with questions. Do I really want to abort these babies? Can I actually see myself raising them? I took a deep breath trying to calm myself down so I could think my clearly.
"You can't tell me what to do." I said laying back on the bed. I felt Ashton yank my legs causing me to fall off the bed and on to the floor causing me to clench my jaw in annoyance.
"Get dressed right now or else I'm going to drag you out of here."Ashton growled throwing me my pants. I pulled them up my legs before going to my closet to get a shirt. One shirt in particular caught my attention, it was Calum's favorite blink-182 shirt. I bit down on my lip as memories of Calum came flooding through my head. I grabbed the shirt and pulled it over my head, covering my exposed upper body.
"Let's go, baby." Ashton said before leaning down and gently kissing my lips. He intertwined our fingers and led me out the room. As we walked down the stairs I saw Eliana sitting at the kitchen table eating cereal, once I got to the last step she looked up at Ashton and I. I could tell she was hiding something but now wasn't the time to ask her about it.
"Where are you two going" she asked placing her spoon back in her bowl
"To the hospital." Her eyes filled with worry
"What? why? Are you okay?" I gave her a small nod before speaking
"Yeah, I'm just getting an abortion." I stated as if it was no big deal. Eliana eyes widened, I could tell she was about to speak but I quickly spoke "Ashton can you wait for me in the car? I forgot my phone." I said before kissing his lips. I really didn't want to kiss him but I wanted him to think that I cared and I wasn't going to do anything bad. He gave me the most adorable smile before leaning down and kissing my lips again.
"Okay baby, please don't take to long." He said before walking out the front door. It confuses me how he can be angry and demanding one second then sweet and caring the next. I drew my attention back to Eliana who was now walking towards me
"I thought you said you were going to think about keeping the babies. How are you just going to give them up, think of the fact that you are killing innocent babies. Did you tell the guys that you are going to give up the babies? Why did you tell Ashton that you were pregnant with his babies?" Eliana said with a mixture of annoyance and sadness clear in her voice
"No, I didn't tell the guys. They don't need to know what I plan on doing. Ashton doesn't know that they are his. All he know is that I'm pregnant and that he doesn't want to raise children that aren't his." I shrugged
"But they are his." Eli said
"That's why I'm giving them up. Now if you don't mind I'm going to leave." I started to walk towards the front door but Eliana grabbed my wrist causing me to raise an eyebrow
"I can't let you do that, Ryder." Eliana said causing me to take a deep breath before speaking
"This is my life, so stay the Fuck out of it." Eliana's mouth hung open in shock but I shrugged her hand off of me and walked out the front door
********* At the hospital ********
I was currently sitting in the waiting room of the hospital while Ashton went to get his jacket out the car. I'm so lost on what to do. I really want to give these babies up but I know I will end up hating myself for it. My train of thought was interrupted by my phone going off non-stop causing me to raise an eyebrow in confusion
FromCal-pal: I heard what you're about to do and I am begging you not to. We can raise the babies together, just you and I. Please don't give them up. I know they are not mine but I will treat them like they are mine because I love you and will do anything to make you happy. I know you may think that you're making the right choice but you're not. You are killing an innocent baby. I know that part of you is doing this because Ashton took Adam away from us but don't do this to the babies, they are innocent. I know I can't make you not give up the babies but I am asking you not to. I love you and I hope you make the right decision.
From Mikey: Hey baby, Eliana called me and told me you wanted to get an abortion. Please think before you go through with something so life changing. If you want to get an abortion then I'll support you all the way. I just hope that you are doing this for the right reasons. I'm not trying to convince you to keep or get rid of the babies, I'm trying to convince you to take a moment to think before you do this. If you want to keep it then that's up to you but don't let what Ashton did make your decision for you. Be mindful that the babies didn't do anything wrong. Love you Ryder and I hope you do what you feel is right.
From Zaynie: Hey princess, I just wanted to let you know that I love you and that I heard that you were getting an abortion. You and I both know you don't actually want to have an abortion, you're just scared that once you give birth to the babies they will remind you of the one you lost and you will end up hating them. But I know that you are better than that and that you are a great mother and could never hate your own children. I know you think this is the only way but it's not. Don't let what Ashton did decide the babies fate because it is not their fault that their father is a Fuck up. If you really don't want to keep them then put them up for adoption but please don't abort them. I hope you realize that if you get an abortion it can never be undone. Once they're gone, they're gone and there is no getting them back. I love you and I'm willing to raise them with you if you want me to. Call me as soon as you can princess, I love you
From Niall (bestfriend :-) ): Hey Ry, we just ran out of cereal and I was wondering if you could stop by the store and pick some up. Also can you get pizza? I'm starving.
Love you.
P.S - Don't forget to make the right decision.
From Mali:Calum told me what you want to do and I'm begging you not to. I will adopt those babies from you if you want but please don't get an abortion. Don't let the fact that Ashton is the father make you give them up.
I started to text a response to Calum but a loud voice interrupted me.
"YOU FUCKING BITCH, WERE YOU EVER GOING TO TELL ME THAT YOU WERE PREGNANT WITH MY CHILDREN? THE ONLY REASON YOU EVEN WANTED TO GET THE ABORTION WAS BECAUSE THEY ARE MINE, AM I RIGHT? DON'T ANSWER THAT, I KNOW I'M RIGHT." Ashton yelled causing everyone to look in our direction. He grabbed me by my arm and pulled me out the waiting room and towards the exit.
"Let me go you psycho." I said yanking my arm from Ashton. He immediately turned around and glared at me before grabbing my shoulder and squeezing it so tight that I thought it would break.
"You were going to abort my babies." He said with a mixture of hurt and anger in his voice
"So? You were the one who told me to get the abortion." I shrugged causing a small growl to leave Ashton's lips before he picked me up and threw me over his shoulder, causing a huge scene. Once we got to the car he threw me in the passenger seat before slamming the door and getting in the driver's seat.
The car ride was silent and filled with tension but I didn't really care I just listened to the music as Ashton angrily drummed his fingers on the steering wheel. Of course Ashton had to break what I thought was peaceful silence.
"You were going to kill my babies." He said with tears running down his face. A bitter laugh left my mouth before I spoke
"So? You killed mine. I don't give a Fuck about what you want or how you feel, if you thought I did then you are sadly mistaken. I will get this abortion if I want to, you can't stop me" Once I said that Ashton placed his hand on my knee before squeezing it so hard that I almost whimpered.
"Once we get home go straight to your room and remove your clothes." Ashton stated trying to hold back his anger
"Why should I?" I said testing his patients
"Because if you don't you'll make your punishment worse."