The next morning i woke up to a text and an a lot of instagram notifications for followers then i checked there first and saw this.
oh dang he posted about me ok i wasnt expecting that i read the text next
I am going skating with the finn wolfhard oh my God this is going to be so fun. I quickly got ready.
i grabbed my board and headed to the skate park.
"hey" i said
"hey nice shoes"
"thanks. you know we could skate here or we could skate around Atlanta i know some spots if you want"
"that sounds amazing"
"last night was fun thanks for agreeing to meet me and be my date"
"it was no problem though if im honest i didn't really want to at first fans can be weird sometimes"
"i know i always have to tell myself they are real people and would i want someone to do this to me like screaming or touching me without permission its just not cool"
"yess exactly people forget we are human also and we want the same rights"
(follow alosa lightwood on pinterest and look at her board my dream life for a feeling of the vibe)
Finns pov
we had stopped were sitting on a wall kind of thing i had so much fun i really like her i want her to be mine i want to be hers.
"can i post a pic of us "
"sure i guess"
i turn to look at her this is my chance. i kiss her. she is shocked at first but melts into the kiss. Then she is in my lap straddling my hips. Then all the sudden she pulls away.
"im sorry did i mess up" i ask
"no its just i cant do stuff like that"
"oh so you do have a boyfriend im sorry i shouldnt have"
"no i just cant trust people like that i have friends and stuff i mean actually not really just hayden really and then he went and messed that up"
"What happened with hayden"
"he kissed me last night he knows i feel about this and i just havent been doing good right now"
she started crying and i took her hands
"what happened"
"when i was 14 my best friend betrayed me she told everyone my secrets that i was depressed and on meds and that i was going to a therapist she blamed everything on my she called me a demon and said i should go back to hell. and that night i tried to overdose and I slit my wrists. Hayden came to check on me and found me like that. He rushed me to the hospital he asked me to stop he knows i havent i do smoke and ive done acid a couple times...and i still cut. Its not just because of my ex bestfriend either. One day my dad and one of his friends got drunk and my dad literally threw me around and he beat me and then is friend rap3d me. and now im just kind of scared of men and relationships and my dad i started having panic attacks after that i cut more and smoked regularly"
"oh wow im so sorry" i put an arm around her "you know i smoke too it helps me relax helps me forget and go numb. You want ... do you want to smoke now."
"sure"
i lit one nd offered it to her she took it and took a deep breath and then slowly exhaled and handed it back to me. we just sat there against the wall trading it back and forth for a while. then she scooted closer to me and put her head on my chest
"you know your the first person i have told everything to except for Hayden"
"really"
"yeah" she yawned and i put my arm around her and pulled her closer to me i never wanted to leave her i wanted to protect her i want to be with her forever. her breathing became slow and steady and i knew she was asleep i layed my head on top of hers and eventually i fell asleep too
A/N
i am open to any suggestions and if you are going through anything and want to end it or are cutting dm im always here to talk you arent alone loves