New P.O.V O_0 hope you guys like this new perspective..
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Carlos P.O.V
I can't help but to notice every single movements and details of Alcrais. His brown eyes and his beautiful brown hair. He's strikingly beautiful to me. I love how his mascara and eyeliner makes him even more attractive. His lips so glossy pink and I know they felt so soft when I kissed it. I noticed that he got his eyes on someone else by the way he flushed and try to hide back his smile whenever he looks down on his phone and typing something.
Did he got a boyfriend?
That's the question that kept me up during the night. I know I maybe overthink about it but I seriously like this guy but this feelings wouldn't go nowhere the moment it starts. I just can't help but feeling a bit sour at the thought of him going out with other guy.
I really wanted to ask him out so bad but I don't have the bravery for that just yet. I see him waving his hands in front of me snapping me out of my thoughts.
"Carlos? You okay?", He asked worriedly. One thing about him is he genuinely cares about people and that makes it hard for me to push my feelings away when he's being all cute and sweet in front of me. "You've been staring at me for quite sometimes..", he continues.
I must been looking like a fool the whole time but I decided to play it off, "can't help it if there's a beautiful view in front of me.", I said with a wink and he rolls his eyes at me hitting me lightly on the shoulder. He then goes back to his book, writing down today's lesson.
I supposedly have to write today's material too but I can't seem to focus today. So I look aways trying my best not to think about him anymore.
Crushing on someone sucks ass!
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The next day I woke up with a sigh. Looking at my phone to see the clock it is '5:39AM', I still got time to make some Italian dish for him. I get up and wash my face also brush my teeth before going downstairs to see papa reading his newspaper and mama cooking in the kitchen. They always wake up early because they need to open the restaurant at 8AM.
"Buon giorno papa, mama!", I greeted them and papa gives me a smile looking up from the newspaper with his glasses on.
"Buon giorno, mio foglio!", Papa said. I make my way to the kitchen and mama is cooking us some frittata with some bacons on the side.
"It smells divine, mama!", I praised her and she smiles at me sweetly. I grab a cup from the cupboard and pour me some macchiato.
"So how was you and that boy you were talking about?", I hear mama said as we make our way to the dining table, I sit down and mama gives me the plate with the frittata
"I don't know ma.. I wanna ask him out just not sure yet..", I mumbled as I dig into my frittata and mama gives me an emphatic smile.
"Aww if you really want him seriously, you need to ask him out Carlos!", She advised me and I nodded, I really want to ask him out maybe I'll do it today but I really need to prepare myself for the worst case scenario, rejection.
"Yeah if you want him bad enough just like how I did with this mama of yours, you'll get him!", Papa said offering my mama a smile as she smiles back at him. They both are so lovely at each other and so understanding of each other. I wonder if me and my future partner would be like them.
Also I'm out to my family and everyone pretty much. I still remember when I was in 9th grade I was so nervous to tell papa and mama about me being bisexual. They didn't look like they're homophobes but I got fears they would be mad at that. Instead they gives me a smile and hug me and mama said to me 'i'm so proud of you mio foglio! for your bravery to say this to us!' and papa said 'ti vogliamo bene, Carlos! Remember that'
I was crying of happiness when they accepted me and support me like they always do. I'm truly so lucky to be born in this family that's welcoming and supportive of me.
"I will, papa! I'll ask him out today!", I said with a small smile. After eating the breakfast I decided to make Alcrais some Zuppa soup, mama already made the soup so all I do is just put it on a ceramic bowl and close it with a pastry and put it on the oven. I also making few Ciambelle for his friends, they're rather weird but they're so fun to talk with and always makes me smile with their bickering.
Alright today's day, Carlos!
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I make my way to my locker as I passed people in the hallway, some of them are saying 'hi' to me and some are trying to flirt with me mostly girls but I just give them a small smile because I'm not interested in them. I'm interested on certain brown eyed boy from the dating app.
I see Alcrais on his locker with Sandra talking with each other. I make my way there and greet them, "Hey morning!", I said offering them my smile and they look at me and smiles back.
"Morning!", They said together then glare to each other afterwards.
"What you guys talked about?", I asked curiously as I open my locker and grab few of my notebook.
Alcrais shrugs his shoulders, "Nothing we're just talking about this cheerleading contest in few weeks.", He said.
I nodded then I clear my throat, "ah I see, where's everyone else?", I asked them.
"Well Miranda's sick so she won't be here for today, I don't know about Agnez and Cassy though probably doing their make up in the girls bathroom.", Sandra said.
We then walk together to our first class, Sandra have Geography, me and Alcrais have physics together now. We bid Sandra goodbye and make our way to Class C-2 which is in the second floor.
"Have you seen the newest Euphoria episode?", I hear Alcrais asks and I nodded.
"Yeah that was pretty crazy haha, can't believe Rue did all of that!", I reply with a smile, he agreed with me on that as we take a seat. I then see the Rafael guy enter the class with Luka and his other friend, Luka and I were partner in English project and I did invited him to my house and he's a charming goofball if I could say.
Like he praises my cooking and literally kneel if front of me while saying "Marry me!" that time and I burst off laughing at that. He's interesting that's for sure.
"Hi Carl! Do you bring me some foods?", I see Luka making his way to me and I chuckled a little at that. I pull out the container for the Ciambelle that I made and offer him some. "Ooo exciting!", He fist bumping the air and grab one and plop them into his mouth.
"Oh sweet Jesus! This is so good!", He moans rather loud and his friends tell him to shut up but he doesn't seem to care. He thanked me then went to sit with the rest of his friends. I see Rafael glaring at me from his spot and I glare back at him. I still don't like him especially when he's hanging around Alcrais.
The fight between me and Rafael was my first fight ever and the suspension was my first suspension ever. Papa was lecturing me about treating people with respect but I told him about his attitude to Alcrais and he just sighed and told me to be more cool headed still.
"Alcrais can I talk to you after school?", I asked the boy besides me and he give me a confused look.
"Why? Is there something wrong?", He said with a frown displaying on his beautiful face. I shook my head at that.
"I- I just need to talk later, I can't say it now.", He then nod. I sigh in relief that he doesn't question me a lot further.
Now here goes nothing..
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I told Alcrais that I'll meet him at the school basketball field as today's my basketball practice with my new team here. I waited on the bleachers for him, fidgeting with my fingers trying to calm myself because it's nerve wracking. I see him walking from the door entering the field and I wave at him, he then starts jogging his way to me.
"Hey, what's up?", He asked taking a seat besides me and I immediately grab both of his hands. He looks confused when I do that, I take a deep breath and look at him in the eye.
"Alcrais will you go out on a date with me?", I breathe out letting go all of the pent up feelings for the past weeks. His eyes widen at my sudden question, I see his mouth gape then close again not saying anything just yet. We're now sitting in silence, I'm glad that none of my teammates is here at the moment cause it would've been so awkward.
He then removes his hands from mine and I frown at the action, "I- Carlos I can't...", He said softly looking away from me and I can feel my heart aching as soon as he said that. "..I already have someone in mind..", he continues and I look away breathing out the breathe that I held.
We sit there in silence as I see one by one my teammates arriving at the field. I decided to brave myself and ask him again, "Oh wow that's, that's good!", I fake a smile at him trying to assure him that I'm okay, even though I'm not. "Who is it?", I simply ask trying to hide the pain in my voice.
He looks at me for a brief second and look down to his hands.
"I can't say the name for now, we're just starting to try it out...", and I nodded then get up from the bench.
"I- uh yeah I need to just let that out but it's cool!", I ramble trying my best to cover the feeling of being let down. "i- uh need to get practice now! See you around!", With that I run into the field and hope the practice will distract me from this aching feelings.
He's the only one I wanted and I can't have him...
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